The Rite of Mal Sharan

... or so. I had some really bizarre dream today; And it actually makes sense. And maybe that's just the overall effect of the Squid Issue going away; But I'm not really sure about that. How it all works or ... such.

But whatever.
So, will I pull through? Which is to ... "hold my breath" until I "pass out" ... as my attempt at following up on my "or else"? Well, I'm scoffing at the idea that something might come from all this like You'd be scoffing at the idea of me pulling through; But what even is this? It just doesn't make any sense.

I mean, for as far as You might believe that I'm just a crazy nobody - well, that's kind of the issue I woke up to today. What does and what does not make sense? What are the priorities that WE - the common and general we - should derive from that? And when all is in right order, what are the natural/logical consequential actions that either of us would take from there?

Asking me to "give You ONE good reason to ..."? Walking in circles until I find the exact right words to snap You out of it? It's kind of what I woke up to today. Yet another this or that to maybe try and address; But all caught under the umbrella of how little sense it all makes.
Well, mostly in regards to "them". If they act as accomplices of the world; That may to some appear to be stupid, to others as treacherous or what have You. But at the end of the day, they don't have to make sense. The world already is - and whatever keeps people from "breaking loose" is "good enough".
Whether You see it or not is a different story. Whether You HAVE TO see it or not, I suppose is more or less inconsequential. You'd just find someone acting "normally" - albeit morally reprehensible. And "what are You going to do about it"?

I feel like here it is mostly YOU that would want my violent rhetoric to be a little more extreme; And I wouldn't notice just how crazy that is because I'd be way too busy defending myself with arguments.

No. They don't have to make sense. They have to make You afraid. Afraid from doing the right thing.

Afraid that people will call You crazy. Afraid that people won't listen. Afraid that people will misunderstand.


At long last, I think of myself as a crazy nobody; And a lot of the things I have to the contrary I'm not personally confident about because that kind of makes everything I believe in about me. And it shouldn't matter.
Now, whether what I'm doing here is right or not - I ... . I don't know. But the more skeptical You become, the more narrow the path becomes that I have to walk on, to the point where it just doesn't make any sense to me.


So, at long last I may still be crazy and a nobody; Why would it matter?
I'm not crazy per se and not a nobody per se; But ... I'm not someone with the social "insignia" to make You want to associate with me. I'm not 'someone' that makes You feel somewhat safe and protected. I'm just "a crazy nobody" with nothing to my name other than "crazy nobody nonsense". And the further You ignore what I have to offer, the tighter that grip becomes. And as it stands, it's suffocating. And if You want to find out where that leads - whether I'll get to have a hero moment or ... whatever ... that's just another drop into that very same bucket.

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