And Finally ...

Back to the same ol' - tired - old topic; The matter of Child Porn as in regards to me. I mean, I did at some point - 13 years ago, minimum - download some stuff, some of which I ended up mixing into the Matrix stuff; And right now that's the only thing I can think about.
The thing is, in short without silly detail, it were all free samples off of the Dark Web. So, there's nothing ... supportive of the underlying backcurrent. There's some disturbing stuff, but it's not pornographic. There's teaser material - and a handfull of low-res images. I guess. Not sure.

And yes; I still try to defend it. I just have this feeling. I mean, if this here is an issue for You then ... You're blinded. Yes, "fair", You set a red flag and I would accuse You of not being nuanced enough about it, no matter how hard You wanna scoff at it. Whether there's a deeper reason to that feeling or not - I suppose it doesn't even matter. Maybe that's the correct angle here.
I had a dream of sorts that went along with my initial back and forth on the issue. There was some underground bunker; And the more I ignored the whole CP issue, the more "pressure" there was in that bunker - pressure in the form of vileness. I guess, one way of putting it is something about "Dirty Secrets staying Dirty".

I mean, if You even just once understood what I'm trying to say here - or in the past, just overall on the matter - then please ... see it for what it is.

Instead of blowing it out of proportion while all in all doing nothing about the real problem. I mean, what could be done about it but some revolution to fundamentally re-arrange the ways of our lives?


Sure, it's a bit much all at once - but the only way to get there is to start moving into that direction eventually.