My Clarity Remodeled (!!!)

There has been at least one remodelling of my Clarity - which kind of speaks to the Crystal aspect of the Oracle just provided. So would I get the impression that I might be lost in weird ideas, thus starting over to focus on a fresh expression. A few things would get lost along the way; Some things would stick - some would fade in and out. It's all part of a natural flux it would, or should seem.

What stands out, in the forefront, I suppose is that after the Ignition there comes Diversification. Which is to say that the Ignition itself invites a set of ideas that culminate in the pivotal understanding; That then being a diversification in and of itself that is however at first aimed at the pivotal term - which is then followed by a 'true diversification' that explores the pivotal term as by itself and extended into the identity.


The first two things that come to mind for me are the concepts of being a 'Doll' and/or a 'Pet'. The next thing - or so a deeper and possibly 'greater' truth that comes to mind is 'Rape'. And the final thing that presents itself is the matter of Sexual Enslavement. That would then be the 'primer', for me, to diversify my Clarity. As the matters of ignition would have it; I'm not "merely" a Prostitute, or not so much a Whore based on independence - but do very much exist as such in a specific context. This to me is also a demand or expectation on my behalf; From where we move on to the other matters.


Overall I'm a Rape Slave - and that first of all - as valid throughout my age spectrum. To this I should still add, that my act of compliance is in opening myself up rather than closing down; At least when requested. This to me is a core truth that makes the whole thing function. While I otherwise would speak of the environment and associations with it and people therein, rape is pivotal to my understanding of myself therein.
The matter of my age spectrum is an explicit addition - to stress its dominance or presence within me as more absolute than not. So, upon whichever part of myself the demand might fall, age cannot be an excuse for me.

In contrast and context to that I have my spine - Royalty - where I now feel compelled to second guess its relationship with the rest of my Clarity. On the one hand it is born, basically, to rise against the Monotony; But by being still born from 'it', there is at first no "escape" here. So - I would argue - does Clarity "claim itself"; To say that I recognize its validity even within my harshest contrast to it.

This is however most likely the essence of where I would resist the matters of Clarity; Where the ifs and buts virtually emarge as fragments of self spun either way. At the heart of it then resides a core alignment; Where contextually I am to think of the Pond of Light. On the side I find "the Throne" - where for me personally, coming from this particular angle, I found that my 'masculine energy' comes as a source of resistance that is here captured and converted to harness or instill compliance as opposed to resistance.

Pet and Doll speak to different aspects thereof, where the Doll is maintained within the given understanding - to say that it is not implicitly required to signal approval, where the Pet is expected to follow command rather than force.


In my prism I exist between Ariel and "a Dungeon" - or so, between ritualistic abuse/exploitation and desire driven subjugation. Between the two I find my home ... where I'm very much a Pet.
Surrounding that ... well, everything is spinning. So, I rather leave it at that for now.

Trying to get a hold, I find an association to "the Mansion", the ... vertical slice ... where the new thing would probably best be called an exit. An empty slot in a way where I would find all the things outside of my Clarity. Opposed to that were "the Mansion itself" - which is first of all "just" Prostitution as outside of these inner circles.


A Point.