One More Oracle? | About Me

So - what should I tell You about myself? I thought while shuffling the cards - and somehow it seemed that the shuffle was not what it would have been otherwise. So I followed the feeling, CUT THE DECK, and started laying them out.

Card 1 - Griffin 6 - The Griffin | My Way

Yes yes, I think of myself as a Griffin or Bird of Prey of sorts. My 'Armor' - as evolved from "the Thought of our Great Strength" (12th Seal, "God is with us") is also a Bird. Well, humanoid. I there think of myself as roaming the skies until I find some Prey - and then descend upon it; And I kind of don't like to let go of things. At least once I've sunk my claws into it. Up unto that point it's a bit of a ... process, where either I do find a way in or not.
Maybe I find something else.
Beyond that; Well, I don't walk through the day going "Kwah" - but that's probably not the issue. At times I go restless - and while I'm not particularly interested in picking fights; There's that. Circling ... looking for prey.

How this card is the Griffin rather than an Eagle ... well. Let's call it personal preference. With Fantasy Creatures it is overall hard to tell which aspects of them would come to matter how. So, as for the Lion aspect of the Griffin, it almost comes naturally to the Eagle, I suppose; And I presume that it heightens the meaning in a way of ... comparisons. But uhm ...

Card 2 - Griffin 2 - Crystal | Your Way

Well, as from me - to myself about myself - it is a "Pretty" Card. But so, should I speak of Crystals, the IT Project? Or liken myself to Zelda as in a Link to the Past? The Crystal, in a way, is 'distilled matter'; Or Earth; To the point where it is a structure aligned to atomic principles. To not go beyond my understanding of the periodic table and material sciences and all that - it is very much ordered as opposed to chaotic.
A similar Card, in that respect, is the Model; Which would in and of itself be as a gem within the masses.
But here we're also speaking more so of order and structure; And yea, sure. I may appear as a mess; Unorderly and Chaotic; But that would - in my opinion - be a side-effect to environmental conditions. In first place regarding that which is on my mind ... where I don't have an immediate way to materialize them and work with them as such. Thus I carry the idea on my mind while going through my day to day - which may then appear as neglect. So, it is the Griffin aspect that comes to bear; Where the desire for Order manifests through whatever means are at my disposal. In second place, the demand for order may eventually "outscale" my capabilities. So, having virtually no externalization capabilities, I'm used to carrying things around in my mind - while overall that would seem to be sufficient for my solo-experience. I mean, the mere act of externalization doesn't necessarily provide order - or a way to find order; But I find it in video-games that I love to expand on learned concepts and ideas; Until I either succeed or come to a satisfying end even if there still are quirks and kinks.

Card 3 - Elephant Triangle - Blue Light | My Way

The Color of the Sky. What can I say? Blue used to be my favorite color; I mean, that was during my Orlando Magic phase. Which was after my Green Ranger phase; But at that time I personally loved Purple while the concept of Favorite Colors ... I don't know. I didn't think much of it; And growing up I had every reason to not like Green so much. It was after all the favorite color of my dad. But eventually I got back around to it - developing a bit of a distaste for Blue. But Azure, "Skyblue" would be that little bit of it that ... stuck around.
I don't know what it is; But Deep Blue - as in the Royal Blue - it ... kind of stings. It's a dark color; One almost 'as bereft of Joy' as possible. But add a little bit of Light to it - and it's somewhat magical. Although, simple 'bright blue' isn't my thing either. Overall I don't like Pastel. And I suppose there is that way of adding 'white' into it without making it "light". Perhaps it's that dash of red or green/yellow that makes it work.

Should I go on? As a Joyless color, that little bit of Light - I mean, it makes sense for me; To for instance speak of math; Where a bit of ... "it" ... say purpose ... changes that. ... :/

Card 4 - Circle Succubus - Rose | Your Way

Ah yes, the Fortune Teller from Street Fighter that fights with Pumps and a Scarf while the aspect of Cards keeps lingering in the background an asset to the Character. Thinking of the Gypsy-esquenss of her gets me to think of her ... would it be Spanish? Dress outfit from Street Fighter 4 which I much enjoyed; Which does get me to think of her alternate outfits in general. That Fighter Outfit from SFV was fire! But ... that "Harry Potter Dress" on the other hand, or the Harem outfit ... it's kind of a miss. As for the Harem outfit, just ... don't make her cover her head! Give her volume, but not too much. Make it classy.

Card 5 - Square Wizard - the Mage | Your Way

Well, Mages to me are what would be Sorcerers in Dungeons and Dragons; With the added difference that Mages have that Luminous Blue going for them, rather than Pastel Yellow; And would so use Mana rather than Spell Slots.
The Mage so channels Powers from within - unlike the D&D esque concept of fixed patterns that would somehow be woven from a Magical medium.
Respectively ... I don't like discipline so much; As I generally like to put my own spin on things. Whether that makes me weaker or not, well. I was certainly naive - in a way - to a variety of things that might intersect with matters of Magic. Real things. And to that end, yes, knowledge is important as it provides the foundation for more complex manifestations. What "truth one might speak" so for instance by uttering a word; Thinking of the cognitive strength that would not be visible to the eye or audible to the ears; Would make a difference. How many ideas can I pack into a thought without losing control of it? How strong is my will - how unwavering its resolve?

There ... comes a point where my deeper convictions get in the way of such kind of Magic. I have no impetus to use dominance in order to enforce an idea or a will; So the art becomes ... "dry" ... or "joyless" in a way. So would one at some point become as deaf to anything but the held idea - while the mind itself becomes more like a machine to reproduce the ever same patterns.

In simplicity is there a Level of commitment that I cannot meet as per the rules of my own heart. So is there what I am committed to - and what those things ask of me. In this context we might very well call that "the Art of the Hunt" - which very well comes in a way of Harmonies with the Cosmos.
So, there is a Druidic aspect to it; Or we might also draw comparisons to Clerics or Warlocks.

Which all, in a way, speaks to my relationship with Blue.



But now I am still, or yet again, left wanting. So - back to the cards. Round two or Shuffle Meditation?

Well. Dog ... I'm loyal. Rain ... I try to Help. The Mother Whore ... well yea, I was told to prep my belly for loads of impregnation trips. Speaking of ... possibly an otherworldly experience; But ... it very well speaks to my Clarity - where I'm holding a very particular feeling that serves me as some kind of Anchor into the Psi-Clarity I hold in regards to my ... how to say? Adoptive Mother? I suppose that works. Solar Eclipse ... yes, to focus on the convergent beauty laid out here and finally The Model - tell me that I should now take a trip to focus some more on my Clarity again.