Of Righteousness, Justice and Brainwashing

Ptss ... I'm so sick of threads and needles and sneakheads and winges and screws and ... whatever the fuck. I might kill myself just so I don't have to deal with this shit any longer. >(


When you hear something often enough, You may not start to believe it, but eventually it takes a spot in Your memory. You might resist the words; And Your paths will be such that they circumnavigate whatever it is, that is spoken about. Thus the landscape of words in the open also shapes our minds in the closed.

Unless in the closed we have an opportunity to hear other things. Fruitful things. Or not. Either way, it is all in the same, and what little choices we have to change the landscape that we are to navigate, that too is shaped by what else there might be.


Truths can be deceiving. Not because they are lies by themselves, but because of the paths that they send us on. I have filtered my world through the Gospel; Ever since I turned towards learning of the things that might help me see through the deceptions. For the Gospel is sound. I don't doubt that many of You think the same. You might yet however have different words for it. Words to pin the truths to. Something other than the denominations of faith that would have You adhere to them for their value.

But is organized religion so bad?
Once you hear certain things often enough, it might not even matter. What is it to You, however, what others out there believe in, that gives them hold? Why do You care about some people far away, when Your life is right in front of You?
It is all in the same.

But so, the Truth was always important to me. Of course! How else would I be able to understand deception from reality? Is it important? Is it not? It is certainly a wisdom You don't hear all that much. It is by itself also somewhat esoteric. So even the sciences speak differently - here we speak of Facts and Facts require evidence. A religious veneration for it? The repeated emphasis of its worth? It's conflict with deception?
I mean, different perspectives ever so slightly shift the needle one way or the other; And in the cordial realm of debate, the truth of Philosophy is sadly enough one of disagreements.

No longer is there Philos for Sophia, but a masturbatory circlejerk of some dipshits spraying their shit on the walls. Is there truth in it? Are there facts in there? Sure, I guess. But where are the debates to figure out the truth? Yet instead it comes down who can load the bigger turd into the bigger cannon.

So, where are we standing now - on the matter of them Files for instance?
Where are the loudmouths screaming for the death of the groomers, itching with a sadistic grin on their face to shove a barrel down someones throat? Yes, sure. There was Truth and there was Righteousness - but then it became what might just be the biggest self-own in history; And when enough spirits were crushed and the bullshit just kept raining down ... where did it leave us but in apathetic misery, garbling it up while that silent voice that whispers through the lines tells You to let it be, to let it happen, that it is alright that way?

And therein lies Truth also. "Power Corrupts". What can we do? Won't it always be that way? Those are the facts; And what now about Your feelings?


But on the other hand, what do we have? We have unity built on opposition and resistance. We would not notice it, for it was much easier and far more entertaining to point fingers and laugh, than to see the truth unfolding before our eyes. And by the time it finally clicked, it was already way too late.
There was hope. "Nobody would vote for him a second time! Right? Right?".

Oh where did we go wrong? Well, sorry - but in truth I ought to ask: Where did YOU go wrong? Being myself sure enough that I tried to straighten out both sides of the story. But I wasn't heard. Why? Who knows? That's not my concern here.


To me, what I'm trying to accomplish starts to look like what Moses did to the Red Sea. There it is, a sea of Bullshit ... and whichever side You're on, whatever Your values might be, they're washing back and forth, making any attempt at a straight path through ... seemingly impossible.

And sure. What Truth am I referring to but 'my own'? Just another voice in the crowd. Just another molecule of H2O lost in the sea.

And what am I to tell You?
There is this sentence, echoing through my mind. "Don't underestimate the enemy" - and I was never quite sure what to make of it. I respected them enough for me to not assume that I had even the slightest idea of what to do. But on and off ... I came to the points where I was scared. For instance: At times I was doing so good, I had them crushed by every measure of the book. But would they give up? Call it a day? No. They didn't even get angry or any such thing. Instead ... "the Hellstrider" ... would seem to be standing there, with mouth wide open, looking at something great and wonderful, amazed and full of awe. It's the real life equivalence to casting Analysis on a yet unknown foe. On the other hand there's the wonderful miracle of friendship. They're working together, build connections, look out for each other. It may all be for the most vile and disgusting reasons - but it works when it works. And it works on me ... I'm afraid.

Well, sort of.


No sorry. They aren't merely 'anti' - like us Satanists who merely need different words for certain things in what is otherwise the same ol' Truth that most of us, I would assume, adhere to. No, they are about consolidating power for themselves; And they are no idiots when it comes to that. They aren't vain, I would say, when necessity would rule against it. For what do they care about looking good, when it's bad for their bottom line?

And that's a part of it. The silent truth, woven between the Lines - one that needs not be spoken out, as they merely live it out in front of our eyes.

We can try to resist it, we can try to adapt it, or we can let our hearts get riddled either way.


And so, what is righteousness? What is justice?
When people no longer have the strength to stand and resist - and this truth simply does ... pervade almost every aspect of our lives? What can we do? Watch the news? That's fucked up! Not watch it? That's fucked up too!

And so there just is no more grounds ... no landscape of words ... for these matters to take root. It would seem.

I mean, we yet speak and hear of it everyday. Injustice and Wickedness ... and our uproar against it. But as we watch these things unfold, ... as I watch them unfold ... I see my heart and find it thinking: "It's so pointless!"
Why even try?
We have to try! How else might justice prevail?
But what can we do?
We know that our Justice Systems would fail us anyway ... or not?


So, what is this Truth that I speak of? For how could true Righteousness be without a just foundation?
History can tell us a great deal if it, but ... truth be told ... I'm not sure if I ever had a history teacher that didn't seem like they had given up on life entirely.

History ... . Well, I started with Dragon Ball. It's nice when a story builds on itself and makes sense that way. From there I moved on to the Bible. And there sure is something to be said about Bricks when it comes to that. When one comes flying for Your face, You either have the strength or dexterity to overcome it, or You don't.

And it might just be one of my greater worries. That one day I might become History ... a millstone of a brick flying at the faces of millions of Young, unassuming minds.


But then, the Truth within the History that I'm thinking of, it starts even before this world was created. And much of it is left to guesswork. And thus my Truth is a matter of faith. Well, not so much faith alone; As for me, it started with the discovery of a deception. It may not be foolproof, to recognize Truth for that which is hidden beyond the lies - for when lies, deception become indestinguishable from merely accidental falsehoods or otherwise unprovable theories ... what can we even hope to accomplish?

It is important not to get lost in the sea. Not to start with a false or wicked foundation. And where do we find one that matters enough? If not by faith?

Not faith in any one particular institution or religious prescription - but the simple faith in the Higher Power, whichever one this might be ... . And from there ... true Righteousness may unfold.
Be it a matter of hope, or of reasoning. But true, divine Righteousness is one of a kind. And even in HIS absence can we find it within us, among us ... for the Power is Within us. - Amen