Interlude : a Squid Games Update of Sorts | Maze of Desperation

Where am I with this, truly?

Yesterday I wrote:

But my hands were weak and I couldn't continue. But so I was looking ... found a shell (the Dragon, dormant) ... which seemed somewhat open and inside I found what would be Jelly Avatar of myself. I tried to pry it from it. Loosen Screws. Located a few spots that caused sensations in the respective parts of my body, namely the "anchor point" that seemed as a tube going into the Jelly Avatar and screwed to the Brain. I didn't see a way to undo much, if anything, got frustrated, tried force ... and my whole body started to experience uncomfortable tensions. At some point I passed out I guess.
Then, at some point, faintly awake I found myself toying with the Arrowhead again. I came to flip it, some cord coil came loose, flipped it again, did a few things that seemed to release some of the tension - but by the time I was consciously engaging with it again ... nothing made sense anymore. I mean, eventually I got lost in the sauce again. I tried to write about it; But what else could I have added.

It would seem that the Guiding Light helps highlight a few things, which is what the proper name of the glyph of Cleansing should be, but ... between this and that ... I'm not even sure if it's doing anything. But I take the stress relief and move on with nothing but question marks.

At all, I seem to have pulled parts of myself together - but this ... it's a Masonry tool that kind of looks like a Buttplug on a string ... kept protruding from my back, though pulling it seemed to go a lot deeper than I found myself capable of handling.

And that's ... that.

So, after the last bit I wrote I laid there, kind of apathetic to everything, while things seemed like they were shifting and moving. Then there were four clamps biting a string. The Light suggested there were knots within the clamps ... I pulled them, and the four clamps turned into "rope" laid over the one the clamps were biting ... in a W shape. Nothing happened. Not much. I felt something moving, but whatever.

Eventually I felt some weird sensation at the bottom of my left jaw, and the Light showed four fangs coming from it. I didn't know what to do. Following the Light ... well. There seemed wires ... moving in some kind of 88 shape at the back of the jaw, but the Light didn't highlight anything in particular, just the jaw and the fangs.
Eventually I located some thread I could move, decoil the 88 ... and some of such horseshit later the thing went dim.

Progress?

Like, yesterday I was looking at this hollowed out brain of mine ... which seemed like a deathtrap should I stick my head inside. "Fun!"

But yea. Somewhere along those lines, yesterday, I found wires coiled around parts of my brain. The whole thing was tense ... and the relief that followed was certainly worth it. But now I'm still there looking at wires cutting hither and tither through my brain.

And there's this turd, sitting in my crotch, which is bright shining light with a beautiful star at its tip ... which on closer inspection are wires that go who the fuck cares or knows where.
Underneath, another brain-jelly trap of sorts and ... I don't know what the fuck anymore.

Or how about this leg? My right leg started glowing. In the back some thread. I pulled it apart and had like a slab of meat with wires coming from it on the inside, like Velcro. I didn't know what to do, but eventually pulled the top sheet off, got to the meat/fat that was the illuminated part, pulled the wires from it and the stuff collapsed away after some touching and pulling. Leaving me with something like two tubes that had sheets coming from them and some weird turd at the end of it. I pulled it out, pulled the turd over the sheet ... and that seems to have done something. Or nothing, for later I was looking at the same thing again.

Or so, just earlier. Looking at the arrowhead - the same thing as I had initially drawn, as if I had gotten nowhere all this time, it was illuminated. I could open it up until a keyhole started to emerge and a key seemed to be dangling from the inside of the hatchlike covering. The key wasn't glowing, so I looked for some other mechanism. I opened the keyhold box and saw four balls sliding around. I moved them into holes, and pulled out a chain of four balls. Those somehow fit into three holes where previously the key was hanging ... closing a loop, and poof ... confetti bang. But then there it was again. Opened the arrow head, this time I somehow got to move the balls through the thing out of its front. At the end of one ball, four teeth. I pushed them in and the thing turned into a party-hat. I screwed it on and poof, confetti rain again.

And there I was, just prior to that, singing Happy Birthday as some figments suggested I'd get a Birthday Party soon.
Made me think of Witch from Mercury. ... That's certainly my vibe right now.

Maybe it works, maybe it doesn't. But yea. The other day I was following some wires ... and there seemed to be a sculpture of Epstein made of wire. Yea. I get that stench and those vibes ... on and off ... here and there.
Like this one: After the Party Hat thing, I was sitting there, in that open hatch and the key was dangling in front of my face. I was trying to get up ... and my body seemed to be that of a particular man. I couldn't move away - or whatever. The key wanted to go into my mouth. I swallowed it ... second guessed it, but ... it seemed right. I pulled it through my body, out of my dick and then there was a keyhole. So, I stuck it in and poof, the keyhole transformed into a face.

To say: I am not amused with this shit. Writing of it, yea, I can see why it might seem funny, but it really isn't if that's the inescapable content of Your mind.

And now I feel like I'm stuck in this Body.

But it kind of makes sense ... that this is some next Layer. Where ... two wires crossing in a weird way can become a construct, where the problem isn't to undo the wiring but to solve the construct. Maybe that's how this shit was intended to work - and they wouldn't give You the solutions without issue.
For a while there were these Yukkies in the top of my head ... with eyes ... and playing with them seemed to correlate with some kind of hitlist. People or the idea behind them, that I'd have to turn against to become a true Antichristian and finally free myself.

Other than that I'm fine. I suppose. Except, everything I thought was real has kind of collapsed in on itself. Global Insight? Well, whatever.

I suppose this is just the wiring left behind, or so, my nervous system knotted up throughout myself. I mean, that weird stuff yesterday ... it felt like stuff was taken from my brain, pulled across my body and pinned down before getting wrapped up ... . "Nervous Tissue" pulled back and stitched away somewhere, leaving me with the discomfort of its thornlike shapes stuck in me, while every touch of a wire would send discomforting stress throughout my body.

On another note ... there seems to be a Scorpion stuck in this somehow. I guess I mentioned it. Which at first seemed like it was the center piece of it. It's two fangs being visible throughout the whole thing ... yet the mechanism buried so deep inside ... it took a while to even be able to access it.

Something however seems to be helping me. So ... follow the Light ... I guess?