Squid Games - Do I even know what I'm doing? | GENERAL RECAP (??? to today)
So, to recap: About a month ago I was still playing Terraria, but I was slowly coming off of it; And then
the Reckless Ben versus Bricks and Minifigs thing happened which had me revisit Mormonism again. Because
I'm just blurting out random thoughts, catching up on anything through my writings may be difficult - I
apologize - but 2026-05-31 (01) (Check out the 'Gazette' page and check the Archive below) might be a
general good start.
Discussions entail all sorts of things. For context, also regarding a general theme of it all, I have been
struggling a lot with ... let's call them Mental issues of different kinds. One important inflection point
happened on 2026-02-15 - which roughly co-incides with me shifting my focus from Coding (Crystals) to mental
recovery. (The Coding Adventure starts around 2025-12-17.)
In short: my general attention span is obsessive - saying that I focus on one thing for a while, but here
and there random other thoughts with possible history to them cross my mind.
The "Mormon Questline" then culminated in a shift, where I - being out of things to discuss - focussed more
on all the weird things going on in my mind. TENSIONS (2026-06-10) would be a good go-to example as to what
that is about; As I assume that this is one of general validity and possibly a good eye-opener.
To summarize: I once "gave my soul" to a girl, and since then I was paranoid that it had actual consequences;
Like ... her selling it to the Antichrist and some such nonsense. That's where the 'important inflection point'
comes in. Outside of that I presume to have some kind of telepathic perception; Or some kind of clairvoyant
insight, with my base assumption being that my spirit (I think of it as an "orb" that is the 'whole self' which
has 'some size' relative to the body) envelops the whole planet.
2026-06-10 marks the point where I, in a way, went completely off the deep end; writing predominantly about
things going on in my mind and skipping the "I don't know if this is real actually" bit. To really dig into
it I would have to just pretend - at least - and overall this whole journey became more and more stressfull.
Perhaps because my BDE is real; Triggering some pushback which I would then again have to push back to; And
here and there some more or less "real life" things fell into the mix.
Currently my main focus is "the Squid" - which in short would seem to be some engineered Mind Parasite that
exists in conjunction with what I call the Psycho or Calamity Device/Drive/Machine, which are continental
Networks broadcasting Psycho-Nonsense into our minds. Whether the Squid is necessary to receive signals from
it or not, I'm not sure. It does however seem to very strongly react to what I read as activity from the
Drive.
My most recent "thing" was to attempt a removal of 'the Squid', which certainly seems to be the kind of
thing You really don't want to have in You, but I suppose a lot of people do. I thought I had mine
removed - with the remaining influences from it that I received coming from its tentacles; Though now
my interpretation is that I only 'partially' removed it, having its tentacles still stuck in me because
they're still tied up with "the Implants" that the Squid seems to be powering. (see below)
If You want to read up on the Calamity Device, check out 2026-06-17 (01). Although I'm not sure if the BOOM
actually happened. But, the USA device seems to be offline (although sometimes ... I'm not so sure).
And that's where I'm at right now. I don't know if the Squid removal actually worked. Time will tell. So
far it at least seems like I'm making progress. I'm emotionally a lot more balanced, psychotic fantasies/impressions/fantasms
have basically vanished - and overall I'm feeling a lot less burdened.
"The End"
The Glyphs of Protection (2023-06-12) are hereby re-instated. (Ignore the parts about the Key, probably. That
has since become a story of its own)
I presume to have some Divine Authority, I wouldn't know how to otherwise help myself here. I just assume that
either one of them (or both) might be necessary to do Squid Removals. ??? a.k.a.: This is experimental Logic.
My theory is that You can't easily remove a Squid (especially one that has "metastasized") because once You
remove one fang it'll latch on somewhere else and it's a mess. The Shielding would help "abstract" the thing to
the point where, once the fangs have been loosened, You can treat it's entirety as such. You then only have to
untangle its general infestation of the heart ("Heart Knot") and then it can be squeezed out. Because its
'actual mess' has not been undone and still ties this and that together within the mind, the connection however
still stands. The remaining knots seem to remain as tight and sturdy as they would be with the Squid still there,
but because the Squid can then no longer actively feed, the grip can then be loosened one step, or hook, at a
time.
On the one hand I kind of "know" that the removal was successful - although it is a "Bastard" because I feel it
being removed. On the other there are still these "things" in me that still seemed to be stuck there. Having
nothing else to do I endeavored to just try and untangle that mess.
An important difference to the previous, or 'initial' untangle ended up being that there isn't so much a needle
to move along the channel, but a multitude of hooks and teeth that are wound up and anchored into the implants.
With thing being tied up into each other and round about. The general process is still the same. Pull to see
where the "latch" is, and then try to loosen it. You should then feel the actual strength of the tendril - with
the tooth being the needle that would have to be slid along its channel. The teeth or claws aren't so much teeth
or claws that You can just pry off though. If You do so, they'll just appear somewhere else. You have to visualize
the channel they sit in - and then it's kind of like with the needle once it encounters resistance. The claw (or
hook) being the part where the needle is stuck along the wrong path. It's the "bend" of the channel and You have
to move the energy into the right direction for the channel to become straight again. That's the general gist of
it. If something just won't come off, try as You might, there's something else somewhere preventing it from
coming off.
Addendum: Maybe the shield isn't necessary. It would seem that the first part of the removal follows some general
layout of the thing. The needles themselves "containing" the whole mess that the respective channel is wound up
in. While squeezing it out, the needles however remain. What might feel like them coming out is just bullshit.
And I hope that this is it. And I hope that it didn't just Bullshit me all along.
I suppose I also have a second squid removed. I mean, I remembered another instance where someone just pinched
apparently nothing into me - and it seems to have been my left leg, not the right one. I name it Lisa. This
one seems to just have been clotted up along with Cilio's mess. I guess it was an early version. A lot smaller.