And then ... the twist

I wonder. I mean, -God- is usually like ... telling me these things, like back then with the trick ... and I never know, is it God? Is it my imagination? Something else? And these things they echo throughout my Universe ... we could say ... without being ever ... "too much" of either this or that.

And so we're here, or I'm here ... with this thing. Where, we be doing as one would think we should or might, just the usual, and then we just don't anymore and do the opposite or something. And ... I don't know. How is this to make sense, here?


What's the matter with words?

Well, I can tell You this - I suppose I've been gaslit into letting go of my violent intentions. And yea, sure, what would anyone think is to come from that? Well, how about suffering the consequences of my insolence? Any some such thing that then seeks to re-establish its own dominance - in a manner that it just previously opposed. And from what it looks like, the more that it does that, the more it demands the satisfaction of 'truth'. It wants to be acknowledged for what it is - as day in and day out You fail to overcome it.

Or is that it? Is it fair then ... to speak of it this way?

Well, at the end of the day it still reigns supreme, it would seem - and all this time, I would think, the way out is open to You. If You can't walk through the door, then ... well, that's on You.


I myself ... got it twisted there, somehow. But it's hard to say where we're at, hard to see what those "scenes" that I'm seeing are. Where they play out. Whether it's You being stuck obsessing over someone, where all You need is to turn around - or if there's someone actively standing in the way. And so, if I don't know which is which - I can't be sure one way or another if what I think is right.

I mean, either way - turning around would be the best option, where possible. Like, if You started this in a fight and You get this and that mixed up, well ... they would know how to fish for that I suppose.

And it's a devious thing. Like, You mean to slap them in the face with something, but down this road - the first thing to get a slap in the face is Yourself. Just in general. Not specific to what You've done.

And I mean it. Like, by Yourself, by God ... it's a wake-up slap ... and I'm half-way kidding.
But "within the symbiosis of the picture" it's true. You need to slap Yourself first, and read the world. Where are You? Where are Your allies? Where's the next Bonfire?


And as for taking my mouth too full, I still see nobody here knocking down my door. So - who's the little bitch hiding in their hidey hole?


You wanna be the greater person? Wanna show how big and strong you are? Kiss my feet! Show Your worth.

You wanna talk big game? Serious action? Being a DOER and not there to make excuses? Wanna be Real? Then why don't You do it?


Well, if You can't let "it" go - then You're stuck with it. The only one keeping You there is Your ... self-love and Your self-interest. The more You have, let me guess, the more fragile it all becomes - and the more fragile it becomes, the less freely it can be shared and enjoyed.

But more importantly - the powers Your beholdent to control Your fates and destinies. If You can't let go of what drives You into the Oven, then that's where You'll be going. For such is the fate of man - our default - for when left unchecked, our whims have us easily spin out of control.
The control is implicit. Lose what You have? Well, do I have the power to threaten it? Is that what I need in order to convince You? But then, what would You be, to me, if not merely a slave?

That evil holds the powers to rule You, may here merely be to prove a point. If there is nobody to care, the very same function is still going to be filled. And if You get rid of divine reality, what replaces it - is really "just like it".


I mean - I had to think about fun. How ... "we" are "uncool" because "they" are "so much more real". Like, we probably have/had to play with wood toys and call all videogames a Nintendo. But that's hearsay - and for the distinguished art enjoyer there certainly are gems within the heap of garbage ... that don't strike me as of this more generic kind of horseshit. Like, Elden Ring for instance ... it makes a subtle point within the plotline of Nepheli - and takes delight in making it canonically certain that both perpetrators are dead by the end of the playthrough.

So, ultimately I'm not sure what this "Fun" is that "they" be talking about, but I have a feeling that it strikes a vein similar as ... Mortal Kombat versus Street Fighter or X-Box versus Playstation. There's one guy punching way above their weight class ... with arguments that have to pray to not fall flat on their face the moment they come out, which is why one can't but speak of a "horde of Zombies" that's out there, somehow ... . I mean, I get it. MK looks cool and is violent - but being hyped about cutscenes is so 1990. But well, I can't speak about MK with authority. I can't say it's a rational relationship. I mean, sure - it's cool. I was a big Sub-Zero and Liu Kang fan ... until I met Shiva. Well ... that's how it goes.

I'm glad tho, that at this point ... Street Fighter is still doing well and that the current iteration is pretty good actually. It is what it should have been. A ... Sports minded game. So, they even engage with the community and sponsor tournaments and are active there and all that. Maybe they're not the best, maybe it's because of this or that ... but well, case and point: It is what it is.
The "Family Friendly" option? Well, be as a child they say. And my inner child likes Street Fighter.


On the other hand the X-Box versus Playstation thing kind of shows the kind of stuff they try to "slip". I mean, being as terminally online as we are these days may have been inevitable, so ... "always online" isn't that big of a counter-argument anymore, but ... at the same time we also know what we get from "always online" and can so just choose not to engage with it.

And I suppose I kind of smell it - like ... it would seem like some Epstein Sensor. There's a certain ... stench, ... or ... something. I mean, it's not Epstein, but I suppose it's like ... possible. Star Wars ... so Disney ... is a part of it, Microsoft ... Square Enix is like ... grey ... like, the corruption tries to spread and You can kind of see the bad ideas sprinkled throughout like footprints ... like ... some of that hip new next-gen cool-kid energy to bring innovation to the table I suppose.

And I wouldn't say that they invented it. They saw it work, they saw it done ... and then they copied it. Or maybe just ... took control. Learn the ropes, burn the bridges, pull up the ladders and hope that it floats.


I don't know.
But talking about bad ideas ... who had the idea to put cameras that are connected to an always online system into kids bedrooms?
And we just "trust Microsoft" with it.


"So cool".

In my impression, they are so fake - they farm for emotions. That because they don't have any. Does that sound like fun? What's even real about them? Is it just a black hole of vile greed and hatred? Like, who are their friends? How does that even work? I mean, I suppose that at some point everyone has everyone else by gunpoint - and the only way You can move is like ... Minesweeper. Fun game ... that ... is.

Then if it isn't Minesweeper - You probably have like nothing to do, but You're on standby, so it's Solitaire? Or You're basically still just an employee ... and all You got from it is stuff that's as easily gone as it has come by.
Or not. Poof doesn't care about Your attachments.

I mean, Material goods are definitely goods and worth ... a fair price. In principle ... it's all good. The comfort of a home, the joy of vanity ... a nice meal ... but if You just hoard it while people around You get to suffer ... what are You buying with it, but Your own damnation?

Is it Fun?


I mean, I'd say "is it fun being rich?" - but then I'm like "oh no, that's a stupid question" because, obviously it's not ... judging from all the shit they seem to need in order to get off even just a little.

I mean ... if I had to look back and think of good times versus bad times ... to just think about the most fun I've ever had ... I find that in general all the good fun was terribly simple. And when I think of what more I might want ... well, I suppose it's comparatively boring.


So, all in all I don't understand where "more Fun" is something I want or need. I mean, these days ... I'm more like ... can we have LESS of all the nonsense please?


Well, so much for Saturdays ... hmm ...