Who is it? / Eden was a Prison

Not that I care. It's just ... me asking the simple questions. Well, in a world without answers. What I mean? Well ... let me ask: "Who else has flashbacks of Eden?". I suppose there can in total only be two. If I'm one of them, there's only one left. However - suspicion has me believe that more than just two would pop up raising their hands.

And on that note ... I'm reminded of a thing I wanted to say: I believe that people severely underestimate just how much is only going on in our heads. Like, if You think Donald Trump is the Savior, that's just in Your head. In reality there's a guy with somewhat orange skin that says horrible things, does horrible things and behaves overall like a bad person. And sure, some of that is also just in my head. Like ... 'horrible'. That sure is a kind of judgment that I however think is on average the dominant interpretation. And both things can be true at the same time. Since ... it's all just in our heads. If I think he's horrible and You call him Savior then I suppose You're a horrible person too because in my eye only Scum would think so highly of that individual.


Sorry. That was what's in my head ... but what else can I say? It's not an easy topic I suppose. It's like looking at the back of Your head without a mirror. Or just one. It's like ... difficult if You know what I mean.

Which is also why people say that others tend to see more than one's self. At least about one's self. I mean, we individually are "in" our heads - and with all the stuff going on in there, right or wrong, we're too busy being ourself to note how that translates to the people around us. Like, we judge people based on like ... a 5 second impression perhaps - usually or on average ... (numbers are made up) - during which they might not even know that they're being judged. And so, ever so often we are that person that people judge upon a brief scan. And yea, I've seen people getting dismissed and then try to appease that initial result. It might just be an antichristian weakspot. They rely so much on those "strings" that society works by that when someone "doesn't behave" things get weird. Not that most people would notice. Give or take. And in todays world ... tomorrow is a year away, and yesterday is ancient past. So, I think it's genuinely easier to get away with things; Except, well, I suppose this "space" is heavily regulated. If you're feeling to free ... eventually someone's going to notice I believe. But whatever.

Eden was a Prison

Well. Yes it was. I hadn't thought of it like that before, but ... I just had a little back and forth with some invisible thing in my head ... about how I am in deed one of "those people" - those that put all their life into like ... "Gospel stuff", being like one of God's biggest soldiers or servants or whatever. And if I wasn't before, I certainly got there during this lifetime. And then I got a brief ... highlight reel of sorts with a "and that's why ... " something to the effect of having been so for a long time. So I had to sit down and reflect about it. It's not like ... I can say for sure. It's just a feeling about myself and my life that ... may or may not be accurate I suppose. And so the hallucination had me imagine God taking me aside in Eden ... looking at Adam ... and telling me what it's all about. And so there's the image of some dude not knowing what to do with himself, beating at the tall grass ... and God asking me: Do You think this is right? Or ... what do You think of it? And ... something to the effect that he can't ... do certain things. He isn't allowed. So ... whatever the Tree of Knowledge would do, is to lift the veil that kept us in "blissful ignorance". And I suppose that for ages now mankind has pondered this story and going by the modern concept of life I'd say that most people DO in fact understand it. I mean, maybe we're still a little noobish when it comes to dealing with the facts - like, we're stuck in this world with people who may not want to understand and stuff ... stuff that complicates things to say the least ... but that is too just a part of it.

I mean ... for a while now it's that when I think of the Antichrist or Antichristianity ... I wonder what it is that ... drives it. Why are they? Why did God ... give them the means to be as they are? Which is to say: Worse than would seem appropriate.
I mean, appropriate is nowhere to be found in the dictionary on that thing; I'd say. And yea, I suppose that people could run around calling it an "Evil Knowledge"; Like yea, it depends on how the world You're looking at does look like.

It's true, whether you can deal with it or not. And You definitely can ... but ... the stuff going on in Your head might make it difficult to parse through. But anyway.
I don't have a satisfying answer. Other than that they're just bad people who will take any excuse to justify what they're doing. Not understanding God or scripture is like ... it just so happens to be in close proximity.

From it one gets the appearance of an educated position. Like sure ... centuries of experience possibly amount to a load of bull that's so large most people can't recognize it. Especially since Catholic Institutions are like ... socially accepted or respected even. Sure, most people see a front for pedophile predators ... but what is one to do? Other than shrug at the concept of right and wrong ... that is.

Like "Better to Rule in Hell than Serve in Heaven" ... is one of those ... shortcuts to say what most people think or believe anyway ... sort of ... . And hell yea! I mean ... of course ... that comes down to what people think of heaven and hell. Like, some have heaven and hell be just ... thematically different places. Like ... feathered wings or skinned wings? Or if You believe that heaven and hell aren't real to begin with ... the matters of what either is about comes down to what any one church might tell you about what takes you where. And then we look at the things we want to do and where that'll take us according to ... some person with maybe a funny name to boot ... and yea, sure, Hell it is!


I mean, we then see Gangster movies where the bad guys are the Heroes because the corrupt Cops are somehow worse. And it does play into this "moral relativism" that is complicated. I mean, relativity is ... like so ... that when things are relatively equal ... its relatively easy to find some homogenous descriptor for it. Like "lettuce" or "stuff". But when things are severly different in size it's relatively difficult to talk about interactions without finding a way to make them somewhat equal again. I mean, in the normal world it's enough to buy weed from Your dealer of trust in order to be technically a Gangster. You're already criminal ... and funding organized crime. So ... . Give or take. But that's magnitudes away from something like ... the Inquisition. I mean, how would you even begin to talk of it as a Crime?

I mean, when the manifest bodies of Justice say that You're a witch then ... what can You do? Who is there to speak against it? Like ... that'd require like building a second government and challenge the other one. Which is kind of what we did and that's what we tend to call Democracy these days. Which is to say ... yea, but ... no. I mean, things seem to like ... implicitly converge around "something". Like ... some invisible source of power, like ... a shadow Government/"Cabal", that first tries to create monopoles of power and then occupy them. Not necessarily in that order.

I mean ... any smart observer would have thought it to be only a matter of time for the US Government to Fall ... because ... power. Obvious enough to implement a trap. But ... well. Whatever. Not my point here.


So, the thing is that we possibly can't but ... look at things from our perspective. And the perspective of the normal person is that there are large and pretty buildings that have social and/or cultural significance of which You possibly couldn't even afford a brick. And so we're like ants in this world.
Just think about what the Vatican is.
I suppose we should raid that thing at first.
Or explode it from Orbit.

And the Epstein Files only reveal what I have long suspected. And the reaction of MAGA surprises not - what I'm curious about is how the rest then reacts to it. Well, MAGA may be the wrong term here. But "they" are certainly running around trying to deal out the "Epstein did nothing wrong" card. Like, if we agree that being rich rots Your soul and that all those people who socialized with him had no choice or that anyone else would do the same ... we're like ... falling for it.


I mean, to accept that narrative means that You feed Yourself with ideas that then incapacitate You when asked: "Why is it bad to rape children?". Because somehow, by accepting the above narrative, You have like an impossible situation that's also like hidden from Your consciousness. I mean, You never - let's assume - agreed that raping Children is anything but bad. So, You're still convinced of it and hence the question shocks You - but You've also made room for it being normal and OK. Or at least ... You're like ... compromised.


I mean, I'd sit there and listen to all of this stuff and then all these names keep dropping ... like Bill Gates and Noam Chomsky; And it makes it seem that meeting Epstein is like getting infected with AIDS. Like, "the Reddington Effect". And it may be true. Like, I wouldn't put it beyond them to Lure people there under some false pretense and then be amused over their reaction. Like, what can You do? I mean to seriously ask this. Like ... if You were a Bill Clinton ... there may be things You could do but we saw what happened. Like nothing ... for so long ... until a maybe even bigger Gangster came to power. And for all I care he might still be alive. I mean, we can get a glance at how deep and meticulous their machinations were. Disappearing him from a Prison would be nothing and the stories we hear that sell us a tale of how nobody had any interests in letting him go ... well ... they're like ... too smoth. And kind of blown out of proportion for how much of anothingburger they are.

I mean, there's this video of this woman/girl yelling "they're eating humans" - in spanish or portugese - and it's an old one. And apparently she was killed shortly thereafter? And yea, why haven't we seen this before? It's the thing. On and off we get these leaks that make us believe that ... this hidden world doesn't exist. I mean, the leaks let on 'something' - but it's all way smaller and way less interesting.

And I don't think there's a way to "stomach" these things. The only way is to put on some protective gear, fill up the phosphorus tanks and kill it fire. I mean, people have pointed out how common it is that "these people" are described as 'evil'. And it strikes me like that - like, there's a line and beyond it ... all ethics and morals are for loosers.


So ... in that regard I suppose it comes down to how deeply You were in it. I mean, there probably were Layers. Or 'are'. I mean ... sure, nobody went to Pirson (well, almost nobody) and we're somehow supposed to believe that it all ... just stopped? Like, I don't think Epstein did all the Kidnapping and stuff by himself. So, what about the goons? Who pays them now? I'm sure someone would appreciate some extra hands that they might be able to afford by filling the Vacuum that Epstein left behind.

I mean, that's how these things work, right?

And with Patel being now guilty of perjury ... yea, the fallen leafs tell a story.


Like ... what's the thing? There was some crypto dude who kind of tried to spill the beans and he kind of got disappeared for it. Which has me believe that ... hmm. Dirty Money may be the key here.

But sorry. I just wondered: How can one actually get rich and get away with it ... in this world?


Uhm, where was I?
Oh yea, Eden was a Prison. And on and off we might feel like ... it would have been better had we remained locked up.

But now we're free - for better or worse - and how we handle that isn't inconsequential. We're like in free fall. God has a plan, but I guess it's still like ... a gamble. Like, if it works then great, if it doesn't ... well ... let's see if it can be salvaged. Or maybe it's like ... that. The plan being ... that. To let things go their way and then start cleaning up the mess.

That'd be the safer way ... possibly. I mean, whoever could get on board before things hit the ground ... was probably appreciated but at the end of the day ... life is life. To say, there's no escape from it. And the only way through this ... is together. So or so. I don't know. I suppose I'm not good at pep talk.