Me against the God

[sips coffee]

If God - and I'll stick to the Term 'God', though within certain Groups different terms would be more appropriate ('the Lord' for instance, amongst Mormons - sortof. There is a potential to twist it (> Two separate Entities, Father and Son, Son gets to be "the Lord" - as in opposition to seeing Father and Son as one and the same). In essence it doesn't matter, for me personally, as God is God - and He is the Lord. But the singular form of God is possibly the least ambiguous) - wants it to be this way, it will be this way.

As is written in Isaiah - "bring forth your case" - well, as though I were the one who had to justify their actions, well - it might as well be so. But this then is from Him unto me. But so, what will it be? Whom would it concern?
As for the rest, I have made my case. And if now issues emerge from it, that's your case against me, for instance. Now it doesn't matter because I'm not in a threatening position. I'm already "not in the picture", sortof, so, why bother?
And so you're asking me to fight Windmills - because you refuse to commit.


And I guess that's now one thing in which we would be different.
Hmm ... I just drifted off for a bit and came back with something about Christmas.
I mean ... last Christmas was awesome. Sortof. But somehow, afterwards, the thought solidified that Christmas would never be like that again. Like, something within me urged to proclaim it as a prophecy. But actually I had nothing to go off of. So, now I have a suspicion - and I'm curious how this plays out. I'm still worried though, that I live in some kind of mental cage - that I'm occupied by illusions and carried away by phantoms.

But well.


Anyway. My case against God is Mute. God's case against me - I haven't really heard of it yet. I know that when I'm stressed I get ruffled up and between the various Layers of myself the potentials of action enter some strange configuration in which the frustration that emerges from an inability to act vents into God's direction.
And similar "structures" exist around similar things, like hope. Well, in essence: Where there's a "Link" towards God, there's a channel for that.

And I suppose, actually or ultimately, that's ... uhm. I mean: So, Grievances come together around those "primary nodes" while establishing some foundation of disbelief. It's weight establishes a resistance to the concepts baked into those nodes - and some might call this process "Growing Up". And in deed - but it doesn't end there.

A solution here, as far as I'm concerned, isn't about focussing on those primary nodes, and seeing them more as tertiary adjuncts. "Faith" - as in 'leaning' on concepts such as Hope and Trust in Belief and Action - works well in environment where expectations can be honed and developed. The same expectation applied onto God would yield disappointments - and that because "Faith in God" as such is a really weak concept.

It's like saying "Faith in Physics" when jumping off a bridge with the expectation to bounce back up. I mean, it works when you have a bungee rope around your legs ... . So, Faith in Physics is fine and unbroken - you however need to be aware of "this" and "that" (what it is and how it might help you to bounce back and all that).


I mean, that's something I personally have honed in on. To curb my expectations, to focus on what's at hand. And ultimately: all while at the very least having initiated contact.
Initially there was nothing to expect as at some point things kind of took their own course and then there wasn't anything to expect either, but from me to again re-invest some time in it.

Possibly.

It was in essence still a personal curiosity that eventually escalated into something beyond that.

So, in different terms: Those 'primary nodes' are more like exhaust vents. If you want them to function properly, you have to feed them first.


Like, would you know it, God is actually pretty respectful. I mean, the whole physics thing should eventually be something to be acknowledged. It is what it is and if you want to argue about the ethics of it, sure, but not if there's something actually important on the agenda.

The main issue is: If He doesn't meet your expectations, then first of all that's a You problem. Perhaps it is one 'given' - as in 'made' - by God. And if that is one of those things that people get angry about, well - buckle up - there's a whole lot more.


But what is respect?
I mean, was I prepared for an adventure such as this? Well - I'm thinking: What else should I do with my time? If I am the way I am - then knowing of this world would send me spiraling into insanity I assume. Without answers or anchor - who knows what could have been?

It would be me who could, perhaps, be more grateful, more humble - more a lot of things and less a lot of other things too. I'm taking things for granted - lost in my own atmosphere without any need to be worried. But what can I do? What I can share of I do!


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