Me against the World - part 2

I have some very strong opinions sometimes that I don't get to truly share because the moment I would, I find that there isn't a real argument, use or point there. Or whatever irks me. It's never that concrete. Except for a few things. And so time goes by and now once again I'm sitting here, but so I get to more and more wonder: What's up with that?

The way it seems to me - and it's been somehow a part of me for a long time now - is that the argument I think or thought I have is context sensitive. So, for whatever the general context 'here' is - it's different. Possibly more universal. And so, are these even points then? Arguments?


Well - most of life is basically that. Just people throwing about with stupid ideas. Eventually a person will get to pause mid-sentence to have a moment of silence for the bigger picture and move on just to end the sentence. Ultimately it's usually a mute thing anyway. The obvious things that we don't even think could be changed. And I guess, this is where the topic of Enlightenment takes us, eventually.

The idea for here being, that there's like a system that we grow up in and it establishes what we mark as reality - since possibly even for the most part it's not a matter of physics, but social stuff. And this I want to use as picture to show how difficult it is to actually see past what we might call "our mind's prison".


I mean, the internet is a weird place. I'm sure things like this happen ever so often, where like a message or post will like make its way around the world - but in every place the reaction is different. Like, from "this is good" to "this is bad" to "this reaction is bad" to "this reaction is good" or whatever.
At least ever so often there will be some explanation of how or why a thing is funny since it originates from some obscure subculture of a subculture or whatever - but sure, racist rage bait is like a whole universe of its own in this regard.

This is what I want to call "intellectual goop". Like, I didn't spend a lot of thought on being super accurate, didn't have a reason to mention it, didn't do any research - it's just a random observation that is to more so catch a vibe than a concrete moment.

And so, what is true?


Here's a thing. I'm hearing so much about how unfair it is that we can't use certain terms or words for certain groups of people or things - that I'm feeling low key comfortable to bust out the most anti-white rhetoric my conscience allows when around white people, even if they're probably totally innocent in the matter. Sure would some intimidation factor change that a bit, but in principle I mean that my perception of white folk is, when it comes to the internet, so heavily ... shaped by "dumb shit white people say" that as soon as I'm out of my everyday life, I quasi-shift into a whole different mindset.

But yea. There's distinctions. Like - there's space where I don't care. And then there's social media. I believe we can all see how that's fair enough, but in a way ... I suppose that's part of why the internet is as it is. Which doesn't even need to be a bad thing.

And there's like three type of people on the internet. There are those that exhaust you one way, those that exhaust you the other way - and the rest. Like, it makes sense to me now how selfishness makes it so that some people end up a drag because you can't take any conversation anywhere without it being about them.
Which has nothing to do with what Autists do. That's different. That's not them making it about themselves, but them trying to add affirmative context to narrative put forth while also doing the whole "socializing" thing that everyone keeps talking about.

The other type is the same, but they try to outsmart you - and if it's just to bait you for engagement.
To meet "them" on that battleground, we'd have to first find a way of forcing them to engage with us.


And yea, if we made it about me ... I mean, I'm still waiting for a debunk - which is like ... an open challenge. I mean, if it's as easy "as everyone keeps telling" - I sure haven't seen one. But that'll diverge into a question as to what there is to debunk. And yea ... how about the claim, for starters.

I can claim to be whomever I want to claim to be and you have to accept it.
And it is further you who should feel lucky that the force that is behind my powers is a benevolent one.
(Except for those that get a break from being supposed to do, be or feel anything in particular.
I mean, this is about responsibilities, the weight of it ... instances of opportunity, the weight of choices made ... that kind of stuff. Where ... oh my ... but that's also none of my concern, actually.) - perhaps


Well, lucky in the sense that this means that we'll also act according to our ideals - which ... could be worse I suppose.


But ugh, yes, back to where we was before. I can't say this. I can surmise that in due time I'll be famous and stuff - and that it all paid out and that all the pwomises can be emboldened like so and so, but since I don't feel like I've accomplished anything I'm afraid that ... that's not going to happen.


But yea, about that. Nah. I'll call it a day for now. Perhaps.