What to Expect

I wonder ...

The thing is this, that ... looking at the world right now ... I think that, like me, a lot of people that grew up Christian feel like the end is nigh. And ... this much turmoil shouldn't actually have been possible anymore. A lot of things, quite frankly, that don't line up with the tune of the Bible on these days ... should have been the more likely way for things to unfold. Who would have thought that so much people are just batshit insane - and that there are so many influencers (press, alternative media, politicians, etc.), that are cheerleading them on. I mean ... haven't we learned anything? Well, apparently! Enough of us anyway. It seems.

I mean, I like to believe that the fact that we're humans should have allowed us to prevent things from ever getting/having gotten this far. I mean, it might sound strange, but ... we literally do have reason. Words to communicate complex ideas with. Understanding. Like, how in the actual fuck are we behaving these ways? Well, sure, #notallhumans, ... but would anyone, 10 years ago, would have anticipated this much insanity?


Now, whatever the fuck is up with that, the Bible is right at home with it. I mean that ... actually not in a cynical way. It does ... predict those things. In a way that's a bit beyond ... well, the ordinary atheistic excuses. I mean ... take 1 Timothy 4:1 for instance: "Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils;" - which certainly is a point I've brought up before. But it might yet therefore be worth highlighting. The general Christian idea would most likely tend to think of things such as fiction, videogames, atheism - things which the more unhinged ones then can also conflate with witchcraft and all that. But if you, as a reasonable person, today, look at this verse ... you might totally agree with it. But in doing so, we're not really taking the "Christian" interpretation of it.

Well, I guess, in a way, we've all been conditioned to believe that war is an inevitably part of our nature - thus offering the conclusion, that whatever happens these days is perfectly normal. And, 'perfectly normal' aren't really the words I'd use to describe it. But it doesn't start nor end with the wars and conflicts, ancient or modern. Or, maybe ... some of it. Whether it be by intention/design, accident or misguidance - I can't help but notice how this trend of things going to shit is ... getting more and more aggressive. On and off there will be some basically non-controversial oasis of good entertainment - while everything else is trying its hardest to fail in the most spectacular ways possible. Like, sure, Diablo IV perhaps. Which I bring up because the association exists - and I'll just say that as someone looking from the outside in ... this isn't merely a case of "not interested" for me. It's rather: Thank God it's not for me!
I mean, everything about it just seems to be miserable, including the people that may definitely have a good time while wading through it. Relatively speaking.

But anyhow. That's not even relevant. It's just another day in the week. It's more to the point - and some may not right away see it - down to the collapse of Capitalism. I mean, I and people like me sure would talk about how this whole late stage capitalism thing ... it don't work! Wondering, ourselves, what people think would come from even more of it. Wondering, ourselves, of the odds for this and that and ... how things might play out. And people who don't like how this is yet again about Capitalism, not seeing how it definitely is a matter of Capitalism, need to wake the fuck up! Sure, maybe - or, most likely - there are more sinister forces at play. Moving the plot-points to a different Level entirely. But do you think they work without money? Maybe they do, though, not without being firmly lodged into its mechanisms. And thinking of the Story about Eschem - well, her servants, self-love and self-interest ... that drag their victims by heavy chains into that Temple of hers - how are they not effective mimics of capitalism? I mean, self-love and self-interest are literally like ... the whole argument for Capitalism. Starting with "incentive to work" and moving on to 'nonsense about meritocracy' and 'freedom'. Allthewhile being basically blinders to glance past the very simple common sense of just ... working together.

But so we would ramble and rant about it - day in day out - in the hopes that people might see. Seeing how us being blind to each other's needs while greedily craving for our own - is a recipe for desaster.
But the most recent news-cycle did sort of break me out of that. That's not about giving up or anything, but ... we might have to accept that it's too late. Or more to the point, that it wasn't ever meant to be. Which, sure, might be a dire pill to swallow, at first, but then ... when seeing how the Bible foretold it ... there's yet hope. For, just as the Bible predicted it - and none of us could stop it from coming about - there are also a few other things that it predicts, yet. Things that the very same people that are riding high on this wave of demise would try to prevent.

Now, sure. The one thing may seem like it was inevitable. To then argue that the failure of what they fight against, us for instance, is just as inevitable. And the astute mind might catch what I'm trying to argue here. As for what, when(, why) and how ... well, who knows. I'm yet to believe that I have a role to play. One bigger than just spending my life writing stuff, posted to a page nobody reads, knows nor cares about. Sure, whatever I make of myself right now might be mostly just fantasy - a construct of phantasms and illusions, warring over what the dominant impression ought to be. But that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking of a truth that only a few might be able to properly understand - within this chaotic mess of a world. Like, sure ... who cares and eventually.

I mean, I would try to talk sense into people - around each and every bend towards shit creek. Perhaps suggesting myself to be part to a solution that is far greater than any other solution out there - injecting myself into the discourse to hijack the narrative and turn this ship around. And the gist of this whole writing so far has been to think that ... that's the wrong take on this.


I mean, maybe, maybe not. Something something appointed time or whatever. Like, sure ... maybe shit has to escalate even further, come to its most grim conclusion or whatever until God ultimately intervenes and sets a new course or whatever. Something more ... immediate than just ... matrixing.

But so, I feel alright turning away from this whole geopolitics and economy nonsense - and, sure, leaving all the smart-assing aside also. I expect to be honored, in due time, and the truth to re-affirm itself. I'll let people that wanna shit into your head do that, it's not like I could stop them from doing so, just trying to let you know that I don't care. So, whatever that "thing" is that people then take for me ... as clearly that were part of preventing 'me' from having things 'my' way ... that's a you thing. And I'm starting to feel dumb ... trying to shape it into something more accurate.

I mean, whatever the fight is - the issues and contentions and what not - clearly, and ironically, I'm not a part of it. That one should be painfully clear to me. And I'm glod it's not actually ... painful. I'm sure it'd hurt as fuck.
And so ... I'm not even sure if it's like a "whenever you're ready" type of situation.
At the end of the day I have to notice that the things going through my mind these days ... basically make no sense. Not that they don't make sense ... but it's apparently too far beyond what matters - and like so ... apparently I'm gone.

And sure, maybe this is like in Matrix Revolutions at the end where I'm supposed to say something like: "You were right Smith" - except ... I'm not. I mean, if you'd like to, you could bring it to me ... you know "like what I've done with the place?" style ... so we can find out how that would go. Which, sure, isn't how it goes in the movie - but if we want to be that pedantic ... I also don't really have an Oracle program that could have guided me there.

And whatever the case, at the end of the day things are really just left to your imagination. Make of it what you will.


Taa taa.