What really happened!
To all those that got wondering: Woot? Chris was NOT wrong at all?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Yea, well - that is - crazy, isn't it? And shockingly, well, obvious - basically - when understanding that its been there all the time! When you see that it wasn't me who was confused, but you! Well, I'm gonna tell you a lot about it!
At first, there is an issue. I've had it on my mind for a long time, I believe in it, but - it isn't a belief I would easily share. It is like when I say that I believe that I have been Saint John (The Beloved) in a former life, it is nothing that I can 'explain'. I can pretend I do - so - by "Logic" - but I can't really base that logic on anything after all. The closest I can get it is that if God testifies to You that I'm Israel then You would have to trust that my belief in that is tight as well. I have though already mentioned a part to it. What I'm into is the 'spiritual Radius' of a human being. In that sense, the Human Spirit is a metaphysical object, so, a sphere. This sphere is somehow jointed to the Body. Now, there are large spirits and small spirits. That is a basic theory. It isn't proven whether or not that is the case - it is however possible, so, that there are spirits of different sizes and next to possible it is also highly probable. So, like I believe that I'm John, I also believe that my Spirit has the diameter of ... Laniakea. Or at least our Local group. I would need to look at a proper map and relate it to how I feel about it (but right now just don't have the time and honestly don't care! If you feel the difference, that I changed, yea, but some things in this world, "Captain Niobe", ...) - its not really all that relevant either. What matters is that the Antichrist - as I believe that I'm as large as ... - is ... well ... smaller than me, but still, in comparison to the average, pretty huge. Like, half of my size ... or ... less, maybe more - hard to tell. He might also be just like five feet smaller. I haven't really cared to ... check it out properly and that is the segway into the next part of the story.
There is Hype - Hype is a thing. Hype is a thing we might compare to Wildfire. But, Wildfire isn't the only thing like it. There is rain, thunder, blizzards, floods, earthquakes ... which I used to name 'Astair' - as so equivalent for "Natural Phenomenon" in this idea. So is Hype a sub-order of Astair.
Now is it so that minds, spirits, do 'intertwine' on certain dimensions, or a certain dimension. That is one concept of explaining Astair. If so looking at places where Astair is fairly common: Sports, there are crowds of people cheering for their team. So, many spirits of different sizes - where the average might be in about the size of a building - intertwine and cause this 'Hype'. It is naturally so that larger Spirits have the capacity of - depending on how we are to understand the form of energy therein - practically "organizing" Astair on a larger scale. In regards of the Antichrist I want to move the attention at first on Hitler, the third Reich, World War II. Here the German population was "Hyped" - it to me is like the Antichrists Field Test, therefore Hitler didn't care to win! He cared to loose! He cared to experiment. Hitler either was the Antichrist himself, or a subordinate. What the Antichrist though had on mind wouldn't work as easy as that. There are believers and there are unbelievers. In other words: Some people can be Hyped into fanatism for a stupid religion, others can't! So there have been two fields that have been stirred up against each other so that by a given point in time all Atheists would want to kill all believers and vice verso. In comparison to Natural Phenomena we can compare an ideology to a Tectonic Plate. Whenever to of oppositional beliefs meat those plates rub at each other and ... so forth. But, it gets much more crazy than that!
He abused me for his purpose.
I did and didn't notice how! I noticed for instance that people would tend to look at me a certain way, usually bad. While they would carefully look at how smart I am, I would carefully look to not look stupid. What I didn't recognize was that what they were looking for when looking at my intellect was to figure out whether I'm a sociopath or something - thus - whenever my intellect could be realized as 'aware' enough - all I'd say would be realized for some sociopathic cheating. If I overslept, to take something totally silly, and excused myself - it would be interpreted as though I did consciously oversleep with the reasoning behind it that I could get what I want anyway - that I wouldn't have to follow rules - and so people that had definite social power upon me would not want to play along and send me the worse of two possible ways. But even so - he used the individual Astair I would produce as his. Since he is on the social top, he is at those places where I am not. When there now would be an empathic Link between me and lets say Megan Fox, he would abuse that to impose as me and get the honey, sotospeak. In the meantime others would also pressure an annoying menthal "noise" into my mind, making me speak in a very krass un-chillful tone, ..., something that can be linked to the bible where it says that "Love doesn't make noise" - and so - I've been outplayed in a very very smart and obnoxious way.
But you say right when you say that something has changed that! What happened was, well, the drop that spilled the barrel. It happened - possibly the Spirit had a helping hand to that - that I had to think about my Invention (click on "My hate for Bill", scroll to the bottom, there is a link to an updated Version and enjoy! Its been there for a while but I guess it doesn't matter) - Mansalanas. A Character that can be described as Ecto-plasmic Entity that is wrapped around a Black and a White hole (Whatever a White Hole is though ... it doesn't matter!). It happened that beyond my control I was wondering how the Antichrist would try to benefit of that - and since my focus was on the size of those objects I just blew them up in my imagination until it resonated with what I would think is his try. Then I got myself into a fight with him. So, internally. At first I tried to be fair. I sticked to my image as Mansalanas, keeping my objects small, thought how silly he usually tries to play the game - and he did what he usually did, mocking me! This mocking is like, well, touching me, disgracefully, where - when I would reject him he would continue. So, essentially intertwining with me spiritually. So I turned the game around and did to him what he did to me. I persued it and the Spirit of God, well, he somehow encouraged me to go on. Or, he only interfered at some points and thus I was steered more and more along his menthal energy to ... "the Source".
I continued that game to break him apart, to just, rip him to shreds, to just ... final statements. Eventually I got to the point where I realized that this bugging black "shard" in the center of my Heart was him. Like a tick or a cancer he had made himself comfortable there, and naturally, I couldn't let that stay that way. So, effectively I wrestled him out, and well, in the mean time tried to also just totally annihilate all of his menthal efforts that would influence others as well. Thereby I eventually got to realize that all I say about Enlightenment is in some way connected to me calling my experiences back into awareness, something he would use to basically cause a similar effect on those he would claim to have Enlightened. I tried to point it out over again that there are significant differences between something like that and the real thing, poking on the Testimony, of course all that just here in written form - but - anyway. I understood back then already that "If" hes playing me like that, then well, I have no clue what to do! Of course he since did use the very first chance to regain control, matter of fact does he try to do so as I write this. I just noticed because my mind started to fall back into this "High pitched" annoying tune. The next time I'll go to bed he will mobilize all his force to cause as much damage to what I build in place of what I had torn down, but so - enough detail! It doesn't really matter anyway. What matters more than my writing here - and that is for then when it comes to count - is that my screaming and yelling will be remembered as the one who used to speak up against him ... pure and undefiled ... though I might have been confused and what not. This site is thereby after all a collection and assembly of thoughts that is my 'weight', that what I push into the middle - where that black shard was at - to replace whatever he had tied to it (which is including ISIS) with this. Eventually folks will then come to pay attention onto the right spots rather than just reading everything with an unfocused head looking for the laughs in it. And that is my story to you all. Whatever remains yet a bit in the dark, well, you'll have to wait for it. I'll excuse myself now, though, while a) I'm going to snuff up this site, but, not now. Now I'm going to play Terraria, and that not because I have abandoned you, but to show you what it means to Live rather than to just exist!
There is plenty of stuff to explore anyway ... and when the Sexual idea comes bugging you a bit too much, just remember: Its all relative, and what matters is that what becomes of it, not what the worse of it might be!
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