Resolution
Or not - here I go!
But - do you? Do you even understand? Let me think - you might think I write too much about Sex, and if I have ever written about that belief you wouldn't know it! I mean - if I ever specifically wrote about those legal concerns of you believing that I write too much about it, so to the point that I might be crazy or something - you wouldn't know it!
Well, the point is, I barely write about fucking at all! I usually kept on mind that what I write will also be read by people in the future, so, where things have changed and the projected background is different. This time however, well, I dedicate more to the present.
To me it is so, that I have never heard of 'them'. Those people that make you believe that I only talk smack! Why is that? Let me guess: It is because they make you believe that there is nothing I could say against what they say against me!? But well, why don't they let me proof it? Oh, damn, shit, sorry - I must have mistaken something for ... evident? Or ... hmm. I guess ... I'm too stupid to realize the full width of the content!? Here? Uhm? What is content again? Do I even know english? I guess - not? Well - wait! Haha! I got me the Dictionary dict.cc on the web, now I'm smarter than that!!! Now I can learn everything by hard and - uhm - well, that dictionary seems fatter than I thought! Haha! Hehe ... well, I guess - I have to pretend that I know nenglish!
-THEN-
Well, sorry for forgetting the 'then' in that sentence there, it makes entirely no fucking sense without it! Right? Nope? Well - if you ever see me or read me as though I'm facepalming about what I behold - wouldn't it make sense to think of nonsense like that? Don't get me wrong - Anti-Jerks - I get it when you diz me, when you go like me - I suppose its you, that at least I give you I have little clue about! But well, so much for backstabbing, backwarded gangster shit, -cowardry-, let me see - intellectual impotence!
Its weird. The one guy writes a slow comming though intellectually upright song - saying something like: Where do I come from, where do I go? - And marvel oh wonder - on Capcom-Unity.com there is a similar text, written by a Jerk who at that time went by the alias 'Natea'. Makes me wonder ... !
That person used to be on Capcom Europe writing about Gospel Philosophy, being sent away to do so on Gospel Forums. That person has been many places and everywhere, it would seem, people would come to tell that he's been into the Gospel. Well, but one place. There he tried to keep it to himself. Unless those people spied after him and knew his homepage they wouldn't have known it, but, eventually the Garden of Eden image flashed up somewhere.
Oh pardon - I guess I have heard of 'them' before!
See, there, at that one place where I kept things to myself (oops) - there was this Lady and as she saw that picture of Eden she right away went out and said: But that wasn't done by you!? - And soon after a woman came in, took her out, then she totally and entirely aborted discussions with me. Hmm - 1 and 1 makes 2, I think! But, not three - so - I haven't heard of 'them' per se!
Now you come! Now you come and say ... well ... once they get it out and reveal who is who people will go like: Aah, I know them! But that person, I have never heard about that one before. Yea, nice trick! So, they come up on people I'm talking with, break them apart as though they'd know what they are talking about - and that should be somewhat obvious to me? Well, hard to say! I've never heard of them!
It would be cool for them if all I did was talking about Sex! It would be kindof funny, imagining how I would stand there, all exposed ... aaah! Secret trick! Exposing me! Isn't that what its all about? Alright, exposed me then! How? So, give them 'that' - whatever they start with. Let me think: It is something I once wrote, taken out of context, put up from an angle that makes me look silly - and I'd be swallowing that as though it'd be correct what they did or suggested to You?
Well, I remember that one person. That guy used to call me menthally ill, over and over - and I took it, I thought well, its his way of saying that he thinks something is stupid. If you don't understand the depth of my mind there - well - I don't see a reason why I should provoke a fight with him! So he tried to tell us how stupid it is to play Video Games and instead made a big deal about that it would only cost 300 something bucks to rent a Lambo for a weekend and how much more awesome that would be. So, we were used to talk about philosophical issues - that was a bit of a curve-ball - and I meant to counter. I took a deep breath and he went on. I wanted to speak as he made a break but he interfered. I told him to shut up and let me speak but he continued. I repeated the phrase: Let me finish what I wanted to say! three times at least - yet he continued. After I gave up I could only say: At least I don't have potence problems - smiled - and later he reflected upon it and judged from my smile that I'd have potence problems. What I meant to say though was that I don't see the point in dreaming of a Lambo while I can't effort it! He's ... I don't know! The one time he grows mad about people that know the one or the other latin - calling it 'pretendence of intellect' - but the other time he can't be stopped from rambling off about how much cooler he is for renting a Lambo (in his dreams) for a weekend - and constantly arguing how menthally ill it was in comparison to play a Video Game. Is it that kind of intellectual rush-down I need to be prepared for?
Or how about the other one? So, we were talking about World of Warcraft Lore. So, someone else and I. I somehow came up with this incipid term of 'Politics within a Fictional World' and the other guy started to rant on it - how menthall ill it would be to speak of something like Fictional Politics. So I made the comment about him being over-pragmatizing things. So he right away shouted out that I don't even know what pragmatism means! I tried to explain without explaining the word pragmatism for I deemed it incipid to do that - and I made another attempt pointing out that as he was always asking for a practical purpose of things, so also on the issue of Fictional Politics, ... so, pragmatizing things ... but by then he didn't listen anymore while rambling off about me not explaining pragmatism - ran off - and possibly still believing that he had a point there.
Maybe he had one ... well - whatyaknow? Seems to be a pattern. Can I project from that kind of stuff to what I'm about here? Well, either way, once I get dangerously close to exposing him - or her - that sort of stuff would happen except that person is really having a point there, thus being capable of countering 'my argument' and that is 'the argument' I made - or make - as I go on and take another approach on the matter. May I not? It may be a thing about 'Israel', but, right is right and wrong is wrong - when?
I've once said that Computer Animation people are currently working on getting the Tech to the point of making things work out properly - as we had the issue of why there aren't more movies a la Final Fantasy. I began recalling on what I've read on 'Uncanny Valley' - while the next thing I was thinking of was the PS4 Tech Demo, the Dark Sorcerer. That is how I got to say that they are just not there yet. As I said that the other guy was like I have no idea what the fuck I'm talking about! He didn't want any explenation or object in a reasonable way - he simply made the point that I have no clue what I'm talking about and meantioned that Mafia 2 for instance is a good example of what is possible. Meanwhile I mentioned that Jurassic Park was in theatres 93 and that it yet took some time until that Technology got more common - but hey - what do I know? Yea, I don't know it per se, but, may I at least explain? Now, is what I said so wrong?
So, that person is like a real life example of what I basically only knew of from the dark corners of my own mind - theories, phantoms, 'weird imaginations', "hallucinations" - and they scared me! They scared me because I feared that people might take such individuals seriously! OK, the ones might be into that whole 'Israel Serious' issue - but well, isn't that crazy? Something that could or should be an intellectual discussion is turned into a circus of morons - well - how sweet! If the corpse of Jacob had remainders it'd best rotate so much that the earth is shaking! And all the corpses and all the statues of all the Saints aren't made up of enough matter to create all the vomit they'd have to throw up about that!
"Israel Killer's" - sounds - interesting. But so, where is 'he', 'tha man', the "Big I" himself? I'll show him an "Israel Killer" - but do you think he'd dare himself out of his den? Quote from my own Remixes: "Niggas tryin' to be the King, but the Ace is back!". Or is it not proven that I did it? I wonder, where did that one Remix of mine disappear to? Where did that QBasic Game of mine disappear to? My sight travels onto my Little Brother! But not him alone!
Story Time!
I had a plan! Or well, not so much a Plan - but - an ideal? Well -
I decorated that 'big letter' to J.Lo with these glyphs - and I didn't send her any key to it, more or less. I had that idea - that so "on that Level" (of epicness) that my mind was on, that she could unlock it for herself. That Level of epicness would require her though to know some rudimentary Hebrew and Greek - so the idea! If she knew those two, sufficiently enough, she could decypher those glyphs! Short after there was that Robbie Williams Album, intensive care, and there were two of them - properly so the intials: R.W. - in those glyphs! The only odd thing to me was that the 'circle' indicating which sound of the wouv was to be used wasn't the one I used for W. But, well, artistic freedom I thought. Well, it makes so much more sense to understand that it was too quick for both - her decyphering those glyphs and williams to put it on his Album. So, the only person that I've ever sent an index of these Glyphs was Anna, Anna Corinna Fries, my big #FailLoveNumber1.
So much for "epic". And I admit - I'm too coward to take that issue to my Brother directly! Well, as said, I have never heard of them!
So is that the game - to - just ignore that I exist and so it'll all turn out well!? I mean, let me guess: When I in some way need to talk about the Book of Mormon or the Testimony you don't ever know about Teotihuacan, the Phantom Time Theorem, the Inquisition, the Sirius issue - legal explenations as footing to my 'Level of Knowledge' - although its so plain and clear in the center/on top of this site? It makes it difficult for me to talk - because - what I expect people to know isn't known, and once I'd start talking of it, so I fear, folks'd turn away and think 'crap is comming'! So - between you and I, honestly, a little bit of a more intellectual and productive discussion would be my aim! Desirable! (Ooooh! Desire! Its got to do something with Sex, Obviously!).
To give you a "headstart" though - while people are still laughing about me having used the S word, I'm already busy expanding on solutions to problems that are deeper than you might even know problems exist! Previous writing - the Anti-Fake. Well, yea, Lol, "The Milk Issue" - but - it has nothing to do with Milk from Titties, well, except for Cow Titties - hopefully! I think of a deep problem about myself - 'state of the art' issue - but if you are so primitive that it always comes down to Fucking around, is that my problem?
And well, yea, sometimes I am that mean! Sometimes you think that I've written to a point where you can have peace and then I yet continue ... and sorry, that is however still yet another thing on my mind and it goes on and on ... don't you think that it has to suck for me too that I have more issues than you as an individual can compensate?
That is in about the corner from where I think that feeling is comming from that makes me suggest that people think that I can't be argued with! Make it simple: How many issues can you put on the desk that I have no answer for? In an ideal case: None! In a bad case - only issues I have to guess about! And that makes me go on! I feel there is an issue, I start guessing, I come to make sense of it - bam!
"Man of Tai Chi" - that is a title I came to make peace then, finally! The Reeves movie may be bad, but since the whole Neo Trope doesn't seem to be removable, well, right! Man of Tai Chi then! I Love Tai Chi! Did you know that the body has a layered Nervous System and that Tai Chi stimulates that particular Nervous System that is responsible for the Bodies own curing? It goes up from the brain down to the bio-chemistry of digestion! Even, if that is a term for you, anti-oxidative Stress! Well, that according to that Diploma work of that guy, well, there only seems to be one around in the web. Scatching the Surface that is, but, haven't read of any objections except for Christians that proclaim that they give up Tai Chi and come to Jesus! Buelch! What the Fuck!
Come to Jesus AND do Tai Chi! I don't get it sometimes! But of course - it is much funnier to believe that I do Tai Chi because Keanu Reeves is an idol to me! Or because I must be Neo and super awesome! The Truth is entirely irrelevant, because, thats what Smith said! "All Illusions Mr. Anderson! Vagueries of Perception! Temporary Constructs of a Feeble Human intellect ..." - "You must see it by now!" ... its pointless ...! The Funnies thing I've ever seen on terms of someone trying to play the whole "Matrix" card is someone apparently looking at the watch, turning of the Console, turning on TV, switching to a certain channel, saying something and the Ad would resonate to it! Wow! Congratulations! I got contra! Do that with the Matrix movies on a Playlist provided by me with playback set on shuffle - on my WinAmp! 1 Hour! I'll roll the dices to set how many tracks are to be skipped forward - and no matter the thing - at first the basics. Stomping, Wall-Jumping, Code-Ception, then making sense of the Plot and then ... then ... once all the conditions were met, then the door can be opened!
Not impossible! Inevitable! [And don't tell me that I have to tell you that the scene where ... begins after the machines setup, so, starting with the shot on the Skyscraper! That transition from one scene (Digging Machines) to the other (the Keymaker speaking). I don't ... right?! There is that moment, where, the scene "jumps" - so - the story moves on to the next point - starting with the shot on the Skyscraper - ... where the Keymaker begins to talk ... its clear ... isn't it? I guess its even black for a frame at least. You need to look at the timer, so, you know when to push play, during that scene change, so, between the one and the other - where the machines are digging, that is the before. And right after that, there is the other. And in-between, the scene is changing, and there - it begins! You knew that! Right? I mean, it is unmistakably clear and self-explanatory - because - it makes no sense otherwise - because - after the Skyscraper shot - the Keymaker has already begun talking ... so ... it makes no sense! TELL ME IT MAKES NO SENSE! Please! I believe! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! "You have to go on without me!" (You understand that this was a humorous reference to movie cliches!? ... Right?)]
So, lets stick to Tai Chi! I love it - think whatever you want about it. Done!
Its a nice thing where rather than here continuing to write of it as though this were about Tai Chi - I'll just append what I wrote and later chose to remove from this at the end here. ... and since it fits quite well - I'll just leave it like that, got a nice ending thereafter - and so - fare all well!
Taijiquan - the End
It is an ancient thing, a philosophy around for ages and something we might all approach intellectually here. So, ignoring silly tropes or taking things too personal. What is it? What is the taiji? Yin Yang? How does that belong to Tai Chi? What is the importance thereof? If it works, there is a reason for it to work. OK, I cannot break cement blocks or beat everyone up, except God makes me go Super Saiyan, but is that even the issue? I found something that works for me personally, something that works for lots and lots of people and that not in terms of fighting! But, between intention and movement - so, between inside and outside, two 'opposites', Yin and Yang, there is ... what? "Do you even know? Can you tell me what it is? Is it freedom, or Truth? Perhaps Peace, could it be for Love?" - so - finally - there is a depth that I can immerse into - a.k.a.: Practicing Tai Chi ... or sorry ... yes, its "Taijiquan" - the Fist of Tai Chi - because taiji is ... well - something of its own. However ... so, this is the way my writings go - usually. I write of something and here now is that point where I want to continue writing of what I meant by 'depth' - because I believe that it is important to Understand more than that crap that is otherwise being talked about, believing that there is crap that is otherwise or anyway being talked about. It means in about as much as ... oh ... intellectually challenging ... that life has more depth than a ... Michael Bay movie! Sorry - that may have been one too much!
But OK, what is the point? The point is that asking for the point is Bullshit! But because my dear readers would lack the depth to fully understand the intellectual weight I'm pulling - the question for the point is like the super smartestest thing ever! Why am I practicing Tai Chi? Because its awesome! Why is it awesome? [Jeaopardy Music] ... drumroll ... So, Tai Chi is awesome, thats the point. It is one of those things though that one needs to experience for the own self! Otherwise I could only stand there, doing my slow movements, while various Videos on YouTube make fun about it. So, there is a barrier for me - if you can intellectually still follow - that without you Understanding Tai Chi, I cannot really go on as though you did! But, for those that did, I may do so anyway.
But you can so read, and that is why I wanted to write about the depth because that is quite what I'm comming to now, that I rather go and practice Tai Chi than getting into any fight about it. By the way: Chen Style Tai Chi isn't only slow! Neither does depth mean that I'm closing my eyes and looking all like I'm super immersed into it. It is then also silly how much Bullshit there may be about something that to my understanding is an Upgrade to living. Practicing it, focussing on a deep breath, trying to be Relaxed, that is healthy! Yet there is more. Between intention and movement there is everything in-between, obviously, and experiencing it all is also a matter of depth. It so stands beyond a doubt that as I practice Taijiquan with that focus I have a more conscious understanding of the processes of Motion - and a Tai Chi "Master" - becomes invincible because his understanding of Motion is so extensive that all Force you can throw against him is merely a joke. So, going by the saying: "But if I punched you in the face strong enough you'd yet fall to the ground" - its obviously inevitable, but how do you land a punch in the face of someone that is conditioned to use your every move against you? See, where the classic Kung Fu or whatever Fighter is trained to block, the Taijiquan Fighter is more like the Judo-ka. He doesn't just leave it with the block - he uses your arm as welcome gift to get you grounded. But Judo is boring and Tai Chi is just awesome! The form is solid but the spirit is free - Taiji! The movements are slow and gentle but the result is quick and strong - Taiji! From Qi comes cure and comes strength - from Wuji is Taiji!
What I mean to say is that at a certain point ignorants are just left behind to talk smack, and I wanted to do so without just saying so. I wanted to give you an example that may leave a few people stranded on the short run, but it may as well be the intellectually least challenging topic. Yet, its all immediately accessible. If you're looking for a Click Here instant-heal button - then I'm sorry to say that you're suffering reality withdrawal! So, introducing the epicness of: "Reality Check".
What Martial Arts does Abel from SF4 use? A highly exagerated from of Taijiquan. Thats my oppinion! See, Judo or Ju-Jutsu is that to get yor enemy grounded and to hold him in check. Within the breath of Taijiquan though, the very same idea may turn into a rampaging on your joints like it ain't funny! I'm speaking of things like dropping on them within the right hold. Using the entire weight of the body plus momentum to twist them in the most unfortunate ways. Fighting without inflicting Harm is polite - getting raw with it however is not! So, unless what people have to say about it is not provoking a fight - then we may have peace! But if me simply saying the words Tai and Chi in one sentence next to each other in reference on me is pushed in a way that demands a Fight, think about what people wanted me to do - for mentioning something that in essence is perfectly peaceful and calm! I'm not saying that they're gonna get one, thus I repeat: If they need their own justification that bad, that they have to stomp around on me like it ain't funny, without respect for my sanity; And the only way out would be for me to give them the beatup of their lifetime, while needing you to cry for them if I got them grounded; Better think twice about whom you are talking with! Thereby the whole time arguing about it may be spent so much easier - theoretically - to learn from the Understanding and go and experience it independently - but well - that'd cost money and time, arguably.
So is life definitely a process of growing, yet, it takes time, and it takes effort - and I know that! And because the solution to certain things is hidden in the depth, or obvious on the top of the mountain (insider!) - taiji - naturally flat-jacked arguments hung-stuck on superficial bullcrap isn't gonna cut it for me and far from impressing me! I hold the full depth of myself at my own disposal - and therein reside the walls that they have to face once contending with me on these subjects! Thereby you'll see that it goes deeper and deeper, touching points and issues you maybe haven't even heard of before - except you were really studying my writings! And that will show you where their wisdom ends - which is in about there where I'm about to begin! Thats where years of isolations have went into! The "Magic Mirror" would show me the way. I have come to the depths of the twisted anatomy of the wicked righteousness and more - the core of the Antichristian Empire, the Networking of Lies where this here is the tip of the iceberg (Lol, another one!) - ... well ... all stuff that is far below the surface where you rightfully complain about! So - the final pun has to be the one that I hold the title of "The One" - unchallenged as of yet!
As the cream of top - for all my Fans in Hollywood - and Stargate Fans worldwide - [lifting pointing finger] "Surpreme Commander!". OK?! Got that?
The actual example that I followed into Taijiquan however was Jet Li! I've read somewhere that he apparently is into promoting the sport, and searching for any promo metrial I stumbled upon the movies Tai Chi Zero and Tai Chi Hero. A shame that I never heard of Tai Chi Master by that point. Didn't see it by now either. As to draw the Link to my most previous writing where I revealed in depth information about my ridden soul: Son Goku is an idol/good-example/icon to me that I "try to immitate" - Fight until the End (that would also fit on Vegeta by the way, another one of my Favourites), keep a Good Spirit, until and beyond the last breath! Naturally for real life Son Goku doesn't work in all of his aspects - but if you thought that I can't think beyond that, well, know it now better! I for myself need to know about what I speak because matter of fact do I not know anyone but God that would back me up! Using Group Mechanics to stampede on someone else - hmpf - thats a Luxury I would want to effort the right way! The Truth may be slow-comming, but once its there, its there! Do not underestimate the power of Christ! Do you even have an idea of who Christ is?
Jesus Christ - the Life beyond Death
So - picture that: You got born into this world - and from seeing black you saw red - from red you saw light - from seeing light you had to cry and from crying you stumbled into learning how to walk and talk, and since then you've seen nothing from God. Naturally - all you know is what you see - and so - there is no reference for you to put things into a proper scale.
Then you think or are being taught that God is a person, like we are, just on top of some cloud, looking down on us with the liftened pointing finger of "though shalt nots" - and then deep-field images of Hubble are flashing accross the screen and that is just too much for that little figure on that little cloud. Now, "even for me" the vastness of the Universe is hard to comprehend in all of its detail. Wrapping the head around a couple-a-bunch of Galaxies, alright. But the definition of life is like that slogan of Mars (the chocolate bar): "And it goes on!". Once understanding the basics of Gravity I was looking into Galaxies once more and Galaxies are different to a Solar System in that the individual Stars aren't really literally attracted to the Galaxies Center - it is the network of Gravitational tides that are frequently magnified via different constellations of stars in which terms the individual bodies are already so far apart that their dynamics of co-existence are like totally blown out of all proportions. Just near the very center of an active Galaxy the classic System is actually a thing. The "high end" of what my small mind is so basically capable of comprehending immediately is a Quasar. Its this megalomaneously insane Gravity Field that has attracted so many stars that that it succumbs beneath their pressure but its force is thereby still so uber-massively huge [details missing, may be more complicated than that] - that the whole thing is like a geysir, where entire stars are just tiny drops of water, spinning around, getting swallowed up, looping around, tossed about ... so gargantuan that a nice shot on it from its very own galactic body would be impossible because the entire phenomenon is so huge that were our galactic core a Quasar it'd birightly illuminate the night and all we'd see would be this ugly white blot filling like 50% of our vision into the sky - constantly disturbing our peace. But that is then hypothetically nothing once you think this thing into the center of a Gravity field that attracts thousands of Galaxies - and wonder - what if the field were strong enough to actively entertain all of them? That somehow is human simplicity. Things have to be narrowed down on one point - so for our active consciousness. The more we split our attention up, the less of the whole picture we're able to see yet! Thus it is easy to discard God and replace Him by the idea of Physical Laws, but in the end these are sustained by the Eternal Spirit and the Eternal Spirit is the Substance of God and the Mind of God is what I recognize as the Father who has a Body wherein He comprehended His own immensity - a.k.a. 'the Word' - and that is Christ.
Like everything in nature does have a core, nucleus, operational center - its also a law of the Spirit that every complex compound yet at some point yields a singular label to make the unspeakable pronouncable. That is our nature because we hold the same laws within us. It is though the Eternal Spirit who is conscious of everything that is, everything it sustains, where it is already expressed within terms like 'Eternal' and 'Immense' that His entirety is entirely beyond our Comprehension and all we may see is yet but a portion of the excessiveness of His nature. To put it into a narrow perspective is it so that Galaxies evolve over the course of millions of years - what we behold as still images is part of a motion that once bumped down to a few seconds makes a Galaxy turn to fluff within no time. Nontheless are the speeds and dimensions between the individual things ranging from super-large to un-imaginably small - and each thing follows its own order that exists to sustain all of its beauty. I cant understand - or comprehend - re-experience how God can sustain all of it at once, but that so is the point. The only way I can believe it is to see that Eternity is Existence and Existence is Life - that there is a God beyond doubt and that this God is Life, is Existence, is Eternity. If He wants to show off, I have to stare, marvel and gaze in amaze - and appreciate that within me He is at least as fine, sensitive and composed as I am. There is nothing wherein He is lacking - and each time I think that, each time I have even just the hypothesis of a doubt, He already has the right answer in store and thats how it is to be Unified with His All-Surroundingness!
And whenever we believe that it is too much for us to Believe - His answer would ever be: "Ahw, thats nothing yet!". Unfortunately or Luckily this Universe is a fixed thing until the time to come, but if you're looking for more on more - while you yet have ever only scratched the surface, try to look deeper and you will find that with each inch of depth you encounter the world around you grows by magnitudes! And that is my point here!
Peace!
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