So, we have to start with slots, labels, orders/systems and such - while - basically any system would do, so, whatever you come up with you think you fit into is best - simply for the fact that you know 100% (give or take) how to relate to it. When I say: [Front, Back, Side and Alt] I'm speaking of hints. Well, at some point though I'm going to depend on them if I deem them fit for that. Thus I have to start labelling those Systems at first. Those four are the 4 Columns [Manual to Kink 1/3 (Old School Section)]. In the middle of it there is what I call 'the Kelch'. The Kelch features: Growth, Front and Soul. If the word 'Kelch' is stranger to you, you might understand it as Bowl or "the Holy Grail", in the idea that it is a Vessel put into your epicenter that catches the dewdrops of what you intimately recognize yourself as -to be-. How you are going to define 'what you are' - that is a question that should push us into labelling those Systems, as, it is likely that your approach isn't entirely unique. In terms of the 4 Columns we essentially go by the Looks and Likes. As likes reflect a part of us, both come together. Now, the "4" Columns at first can thereby be entirely unsexual - or - it is more so that they are but 'can be' Sexualized. That is now somehow done with the Front idea. Your Front is that which 'defaults' into the Kelch, as whatever kind of compound it is. Now, whatever the Front Column looks like - the Kelch Front is the product of Front Column + Growth. To draw you a picture: I take my 'Front Look', my Growth is a form of Kink/Bondage/Submission/Harlotry, and that is what finally shapes ... well ... the Kelchs "Front" or - something. Technically a Symbol would suffice - so - I might pick a cage - and that's that - but - it maybe does only make sense for me.
It should however be pointed out that "Inventing the Own Self" is equal to "Finding the Own Self", except, less "Mythical" - or - as though we're looking for something obscurely hidden underneath. I mean, thats what it is, but, the process of invention emphasizes the freedom we have.
If Porn were to be regarded as Metaphor
My Kelch would be different. In simplicity I take account of my past, think as though I were "the old me", thus my Plot would be that I regard Video Gaming as Growth, take the face of SNES Link as Symbol, while priming the contents of my Kelch with the Forrestry of Secret of Mana. That so is an act of Art - thus, unless you have something that can be pinpointed by a picture the product is to be taken as abstract, or, effectively, as 'Front Kelch' - so to the point that it would effectively belong into the 'Alt' Column.
Featuring essentials:
If you do have a Kink - or otherwisely a 'general Primary Sense of Existing' - you need to look for a Label that makes it comprehensive to the rest. Non-Sexually that makes me a Game Designer, Sexually a Whore/Harlot/Bitch. Now does it happen to me - or so did happen - that my 'former' -profession- collided with another one. A compromise is to sort into an Active and a Passive 'Arc-Label'. But I do find more terms for myself than fits into two. So, I would begin to neutralize the skill-focus at first - thus I'd end up Labelling my Active side as Warrior - which leans back on the Back Column whereby Whore is too simple to just give it to the Front. But, I won't say that what I took as my Front doesn't fit there. So do activity and passivity fail to remain valid criteria - in terms to which we might further want to discard them alltogether.
This so far is the intro - while the very first literally realistic 'SLOT' to speak of would be the 'inner intimacy', so to the point that where we live in our most comfortable environment - we have a slot of Social Privacy following to which we may add Social Aspect (Friendships), then Relationships and finally (Work as) Social Environment. It is thereby always about the own self - thus the point can't be to question the active living - but - still some form of ideal Environment that needs to be simply assumed for the point.
The issue of Falling
What I would gather based on that objective does give me an expression of what I'm all up into anyway. Seen as SLOTS I do put some form of Whoredom in there too - thus - I'm withdrawing myself from society to a given degree and that so far that I wouldn't give any But a chance. Emotionally that is below the point where I separate from things that I might like/enjoy/be-into but wouldn't ask for - sotospeak, or so - since speaking of Kinks to a certain degree, being or at least trying to be as specific as to draw a clear boundary. In that sense we can be for instance be specific about Whores in regards to how far this Whoredom goes. At this point I however wouldn't encourage the reader to follow an overly specific order of definitions, but rather a yet more or less vague idea that can be reformed when a corresponding social spotlight is given. The concept is to collect into different Folders (1.AlphaStack, 1.BetaStack, or so) where Alpha can be 'RealPorn' and Beta 'Hentai' - so - just collecting arbitrary stuff and sorting them into recognized categories. Once you find certain patterns therein you can create a Folder to credit that pattern - but - don't try to be as specific as to sort literally every image you found into a specific folder. What definitely exists needs to be fed until it 'works' and then its good. Anyway - that is a space to trace down specific patterns that only need to be understood to have a raw design sotospeak. Questions that someone does/might have are to be ignored - that just makes a mess of things!
This can be skipped - to the next Headline then - if you don't want to bother reading of the current structure I'm working with.
Now, this 'Primary Confession' - that what I label as 'Whore' (or actually 'Harlot' - but - that only matters to my idea of starting to sub-categorize prostitution, it is basically Level 3/3 so far, while it might be enough from where on we further sub-categorize sub-categories, which is evidently a process of adapting to various developments along the efforts of formulating a catalogue of sorts) - that would also be a good 'point 1' Folder. For point 2 I change the idea of the 4 Columns and setup 5 Folders: A.__Front, B.__Back, C.__Soul.Gender, D.__Growth, E.__Side - where the Underscores are helpful to have those folders listed on top of an alphabetical Listing where all sub-folders that aren't wanted within these folders can simply be included by sayin 2.A.something.
Well, if Front, Back and Side are proper terms will remain to be seen. The point is that I here don't regard their contents as the same. So, The Four Columns are specified separately, here it for instance happened that I take Front as built on Growth, Side isn't concluded while the Back is different in that it is opened by a Timeline. Now, technically each of these folders can be pictured like a gun. Whatever we stored in there would be the Bullet and it becomming real would be suicide. That means as much as it is: If I had to create a timeline for myself that can only consist of porn, well, whats Left? Or, if there were a sub-folder called 'Freedom' - and we filled it with slavery - is that OK?
I can say that I'm good at being myself - and - I'm basically bad at everything. Then, what I experienced recently, that also closed a Loop. As a Child, I was maybe 8 or so, I developped my 'First Kink' by stretching both legs through one leg of the Pyjama and tied my hands up behind my back with the shirt. While being immersed as told I found myself putting myself into the same position, feeling the same pleasure, while on top of that it has to be regarded that I am Trans-Sexual or whatyawannacallit so that I'm essentially understanding myself as Female in all that - to the point where I need to have a Pussy to be myself.
I don't disregard that a 'true Woman' might feel different than I would ever be feeling in this life, but that is another point.
Anyway - excluding the Soul Folder - there are 4 sub-folders within Growth and Front. Growth is about 4 Treatments of Growth that are to produce your desired end. So, technically that are skills you want to obtain. [All Holes, Slave of Rapists, Sex Slave Obedience, Whoredom].
There in event some categories support each other - thus yielding an increase of depth - so - speaking in Environments. So does the idea of 'all-holes' significantly change when connected to Rapist activity. In that regard: (Since I have been asked [-> Secret Service of the Holy Spirit: God gives interest into people that would then in some conversation come to talk of them to provide timed information]) how a woman would feel if she gave herself into prostitution, if she can somehow live with that - I for once compared that Life to the life of a Nunn - secondly I missed out on the point that would come to carry here. The slap onto someones ass - that is somehow a gesture of disrespect - and while being slapped within Sexual conditions it provides a feeling to the one that is being slapped that is carried along with the slap itself. It says something like: "Bitch". Someone who likes to be recognized as bitch would Love it, which is to my experience true, but how far that goes is now the matter of Limits and Taboos. So I have in the Front Folder what I previously described within that social frame. [A.Love Doll {included: Orgy Rape Doll, Rapist Sex Slave, Tortured Wife}, B.Sex Slave, C. Harlot, D. Queen]. This does however not come together by the Logic - it came together by sorting things I regard a part of what I want into different folders. Whatever I regarded as significant to my Growth I did sort out there. Whatever I regarded as significant for my 'true existence' I gathered here - while the order was determined via Priority; And looking into my Queen Folder you'd still see a Sex Slave. As it might seem extreme - my Back Folder might show a corresponding background. A is split into 'Timeline.__Class' and 'Type.__Label' - so - basically 'Class.Warrior' and 'Type.Nunn'. B is split into [Enchantress] and [Raped Mother], C is Beastial Feminine and D is Beastial Male. It there is the Beast that Matters - as in other words: Fucked Mindless. It is further understood as "already" beginning at C while D is the next higher Extreme. But, I'll get into more detail soon.
What used to be the Alt Column is herein comprehended within the Soul Folder. A contains [A.Alt] - as basis for Alternated, unsorted and unfitting stuff - like - my Dominant Aspect is expressed therein or other minor things that somehow work with me. The other A. folders are for different things that are of concern - like - A.Fashion as something more general, or, as for me, A.BigTitts - to 'add' something to the picture sotospeak. B though, well ... I have a ... some sort of a Geometry disorder. My stuff has to be, at best, symmetric. Thus there is point 1, point 2 is layed out center focussed, thus there has to be point 3 as well. Point 3 is then evidently where the Gender Triangulation does fit - in which case I say 'SheMale', to say 'Male', but not really Male. Yet at first point 3 is expanded 'outline', so, it is categorized into A to D again while A is the 'big Label' introduced in Manual to Kink 1/3 - [Victim of Rape] - and B is for the Gender. Here I have, 1-4, [Bitch Pussy, Raped Pussy, Pussy Sex Slave and Lolita Sex Girl]. It is about a) Having a Pussy that is frequented, b) Being made to have one no matter what, c) Being demanded to get it frequented and d) to give it a final touch. This all works with me while I am yet male - and while discarding the idea of being thereby bound to a certain physiological appearance it works as well, saying, a remainder of some male self-consciousness is present while overridden by the biological presence sotosay. C is about Orientation - which for me is Lesbian. At the moment though my Lesbian subcategories (1-5) are all victimized to cock - which is another 'Kink' of abuse. [LesbianCockDock as in the sense of fallback station for men, LesbianMotelBitch, LesbianBreedingStation, LesbianFuckSlut as in the sense of being actively exposed to get Gangbanged and finally LesbianCumDump to credit the feeling of being a tool or mechanism, which is different to the first in that the first is more about existing within a Lesbian Relationship, but ...] the point is that I here felt like I had to be specific about adding the Orientation as primer. D Finally is Primed by a Label that sits underneath the ArcLabel to credit the own self as a whole in regards of what the ArcLabel doesn't quite touch. So I have [Sex Toy], while appended sub-folders add [Rape Doll] and [Sow] to it. Sow is possibly identical to saying Dog or whatever animal else - to just simply find a term for an animalic conscent within the own self Sow suited since it would also fit what I make of myself.
To so come back to the Soul folder. B is for abstractions of the Gender there, thus I here have Dick Girl and Vagina Boy, which now would suffice to include the general 'Dominant' and 'Tomboy' aspect - while - in this sense they can be, as otherwise the opposite, projected from the whole. Well - anyway. Then there is C as for the Souls corresponding self-definition, where I got [Evil Mistress] - and D is now to get into more of the Alt Column - which I have split into [Musketeer] and [Pirate].
In hindsight of this all
I for now would add the two Beastial forms together; Saying my concept for the Back Folder is also yet a little bit vague. The Timeline however seems significant for me - which basically can be taken as reference to where Kink isn't simply an image but due to the complexity of life comprehended within Motion.
Additionally - so - since I've cut this from the Article this links to primarily and continued to write there, I have now filled my Side with 4 categories too [Nerd, Slut, Art Director, Sex Slave], and, regarding my Back, Enchantress turned out to become the Headline, while Beast Male is followed by IT Specialist and Beast Female by Trophy. As of that the idea is that while B might remain to be a Mess forever it is about having a self-centered background. The Enchantress is about making things sweet and fine, so, notching stuff up, while the Female Beast is about being there for Public Display. The IT Specialist is about System Design or the invention of "Information Technical" (isn't restricted to programming) issues - like - the Engineering of Logic. It is basically as 'of use to whatever System the individual exists in'. The side is a bit like that, but, it is more like what one does when falling back to privacy. Here, as a trivia, the Slut is the one whom Megan would hate for that short moment I turned away and got egomaniac as it goes - the thing that finally would make me prioritize Sex whenever it is possible/suitable as the Sex Slave is like the answer as my only way out to redeem myself from that. Another 'nice' trivia: My Growth doesn't yield me any education! So - as of that I have no "privilege" in getting educated so that what I do is basically not guaranteed to meet any standard. On top of that, true story, things I learn like just by the way are usually weird to me, saying, I have to yet abstract it for my own use, or at least spend the time to re-invent it even if it is identical. Of course the shortcut is possible as well, saying, I just copy.