Child Abuse - Main Issue

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Why Child-Abuse matters ... here/there/everywhere

The Controversy between words - thus wording - and their corresponding interpretations, etc. - is an intro-thing. Gossip would spread the idea that is somehow confused within the word Child-Abuse, or so however the idea where yes - and no - but yes, it is a "positive" thing 'in here', mentioned somewhere around given ideas about a Sexually oriented society.

The simplest step into the realm of thoughts there is to imagine a society that experiences 'free love' - and the next question is: How to integrate the existence of Children into that? Yes or No isn't the main idea there - 'How' is the un-avoidable question. "No" - as a constant or default-answer may be alright, but in first place do I generally avoid adapting social standards until they are basically identical to 'as derived' from the Evangelic base principles I know or hold - however. In second is there the issue of Pedophilia that is basically attracted to the idea in a generally different way. While all might say 'no', Pedophile entities would generally yet tend the other way.
I myself was avoiding the topic at first, I thought: Well, there should be enough common sense to see or realize that ... well, how to formulate it? So I came to "investigate" it, more or less. I was attracted to search for Child-Pornography [stop the gossip!] - and at some point the idea of doing it in the name of science convinced me over. Well, as it goes - the withdrawal mixed into an attraction would agree on a compromise of sorts. So, well, I was basically attracted to Lingerie. Saying yes, by more or less ordinary means I've been capable of finding some. But eventually the urge for more sets in, and that beyond a hyopthetical "break point" would also settle on the more extreme. So however the 'external' view of looking critical at the psychological evolution. That "break point" - just by the way - is however not so much a barrier or limit; It is just a hypothetical frontier erected in terms of some 'thematic idea'. Well, at least I didn't have a straight break-point - as me holding myself at contempt has been resolved within the compromised samples. That means: After I reached the point of no return, so, first images shown in the browser and so moving on rather than back, I had to settle on a logical understanding of 'the whole'. So, instead of holding anything back - so to not get a confused experience - I allowed what I was attracted to, to be attractive. The attraction - that is what we then would call Pedophilia - thus went on to compensate the impressions while that process created a general idea of itself wherein the "break point" did basically vanish. It is like saying: Love knows no limits. Instead of stippling the entire whole into sub-segments, it is a whole from little to much - so - also saying: Once "doing a thing" - the idea of only doing it "so much" but no further is either a given illusion or a convulated stance of the own self to the thing at hand.

So - I had to fill a void. So I went on and tried to collect enough to correspond to my idea of the whole thing. I did so three times - and each time I so had to "pass" over the lingerie shots and each time I had to look at it from a different perspective and so the rest. While Lingerie at first so was good, it the third time was bad. Other things that were initially bad were later then good. Each time so I had to wonder of the backgrounds - after all - those are real people on those images. This also meant that I sometimes gave things a good and other times a bad background and that is the basis of my dilemma in a nutshell. Less for me personally, but more to not present a personally biased or anti-biased concept.


What is concept?

Words - they might best be understood, on an aetherical plane, by their given story. What is Love? Well - each person would answer that question individually. In first it is just the relationship between a boy and a girl - so - while still being young. Once reaching puberty there are emotions - then that is Love. With the first heartbreak it changes again - and - well. We so have an individual understanding of Love, all of us, whether we had any relationships or not.

To give this whole topic an either funny or otherwise tasteless painting: I have been abused in my childhood. My dad abused me to go down into the kellar and bring some beer once the fridge got empty. Well, in his defense, he is a one-legged man and the kellar was two floors down. My mum in that, well, that may be a bit more of a subjective thing, but eventually she abused me to look good before her friends. That so, being critical about how we were dressed up when going to church for instance. Eventually I even have been abused Sexually - so - there is or was a photo of me where the people apparently thought it were funny to put me into a dress. Well, that is already so the given case when going by the literal meaning of 'abuse'.

It would seem like nonsense to be this way on this topic, but yea, so I would have also chosen a different word - like - pedophilia. Yet, child-abuse is strictly the word that comes to mind when looking for 'Pedophilia as a negative' - but doesn't really hold up to it. It was however the inspired word and this is simply an issue at hand although generally not the main issue. When looking for a more accurate term we come to the word: 'Child-Rape' - and in comparison to how we handle the term in the mature world, there is a huge gap between 'nothing of that sort' and 'Rape'. Or we can ask the question, legally, when is it Rape?


We might though take a naturally huge step away from the mature convulescence, thus, Rape as a Kink - so also on the passive end. But, I want to be as critical as to review Children 'not' as Aliens, but as 'little human beings'. In the sense of parental duties it isn't possible to 'swear' from not using force against a child even though it would cry.


This is now - I admit - an image that might be hard to swallow, yet so, finding better words to describe what is going on is a) A Scientific deed and - so. Giving isolated things an individual term makes a topic more comprehensive, or, more objective. If all is simply child-abuse while the term in and of itself is entirely wrong is more of a statement that tells that we rather look away from it than trying to understand it, and understanding it would need to be the basis of making any further statements that then are even founded on reality.

To get back to the issue of how the topic got touched in here before-hand, the 'filtered' formulation was about Nymphomania. The theory suggests that a human being has a soul and that this soul already has age depending a) on when in the pre-terrestrial life it was created and b) how many lives it has lived. In the general sense that is a matter of understanding the mature human being along the question of the given tendency into which it would evolve. A main issue on that matter: Trans-sexuality. It is even possible - so science - to see a Trans-sexual by its genes. As a believer I don't reject that - and yet believe that our Soul is to some degree an influence. The genes, so my understanding, would determine various psychological processes to happen - it is a natural force that the individuals mind is exposed to. In that sense I also come to speak of my experiences of my childhood and the final sentence: If it were possible to know the tendency of a child - we can more effectively help it to mature to its 'desired' point of existence. This 'desire' may work as projected from the adult - asking - what would it have wanted for itself 'if' ... something.
I for myself would have enjoyed it if my life had been embraced by a sexual community. So, getting into 3rd or 4th Grade I was already dreaming of Sex-education with a practical side to it. Yet it was a time where my parents would rather hold their hands before our eyes when the movie we were watching contained a Sex scene. I was myself attracted to wear lingerie, to bondage myself, to record erotic movies on TV ... well ... so ... with growing age I assimilated such things more and more and that yet basically in hidden and secret. Technically I even am guilty of producing Child-porn because as I was taking the Camcorder of my dad - well, I was basically curious to experiment with Stop Motion, working on a non-Pornographic Hollywood career effectively, so more or less by manual (there was a magazine at that time where one section was explaining how some visual effects (status: Ghostbusters I)) - well, anyway, that was my primary interest but - eventually the other urge also manifested itself. There are many things I may be embarassed about today, that might be one of those things, but - this happened yet without any influence of anyone - mature/adult or not.
Another thing: I evolved into someone of whom some might think that my mother didn't breast-feed me enough while I was a child - but - basically that wouldn't cover all of the things that I was and am into!

Another reason why I furtheron like to accept the 'Genetic' idea is that we there have a solid foundation to 'not' speak of such things as of a desease that needs curing - where the cure would in the end to more harm to the individual than the opposite.


Concepts?

It is - all considered - impossible to even think of a Concept, based on this understanding, without breaking "the Rule itself". You can look the children away - where I say 'you' as the outstanding individual who is not yet understanding the acceptance I have/share. That is basically what we somehow do in this world - saying - whenever something horrible flashes up in the news we can analyze it and find a flaw around the same idea. People might give their kids into the hands of someone they (have to) trust and "yet" - or especially then - it happens. The more controls that are installed around it, the more people are put around that cage, supposed to look at what is inside, thus basically increasing the potential danger. A worse case scenario: A corrupt police would allow the following: A school burns down, children are dead (like charcoal) - yet they've been just kidnapped and so ... how's the life, at all, of a Kid that ends up that way?

I don't really want to get into any detail and neither - well - I guess I might, but, so by that "magic Mirror". Anyway. There are two possibilities I have to consider: Either the child is a natural nympho or not. In that sense, there is the theory that natural nymphos would further attract pedophile interest - so - maybe they even are like ticking time-bombs. Either they are lucky and they grow up rather normally or not. But that isn't saying that adults with a pedophile vein and the time and the chance are not! However.
In terms of the maturing, even of mature people, I have to also speak of the given fallacy that is projected from these circumstances. I thereby want to keep a too extensive in-depth 'vision' that would reach too far into the realms of 'active science' away - generally here. Brainwashing so is the issue. Naturally a human mind is somewhat dynamic in that it can adapt to in about anything. Yet there needs to be a line drawn between those that are acknowledging on a path that is correspondent to their self and those that are not. Once that line is drawn, so I see the issue that someone who is not - might - once the force is removed - swing back to its normal or self-correspondent state. There I suggest that traumas are an issue where the individual has to digest an experience that is anti-correspondent to its self. That, to me, might after all be school! But, and so in a way thats a segway into the next, that doesn't say that I am/would be generally resilient to education or intellectual activity.


Here my general understanding of Education as a hole comes to carry - its own weight. It is, I believe, a big misconception that kids are generally disliking what their parents want from them. Well, I have been put into Music School and I hated it so much I cried the first time I got there - and there-after was somehow traumatized to go there so that after school I even tried to hide from my Mother who would wait to pick me up to take me there. I today like music, I like mixing and making music, but - that is nothing serious! Also, I am not really a musician by myself - while aside of having a general understanding of harmony - I am more or less a legastenic when it comes to music. It is generally different to me and my affinity for tech. That was something I enjoyed and in school when there was anything technical I was interested. But when it got too theoretical I disliked it again - while looking at myself I would advise a less school-ish but more practical method of 'making' me know the things I would want to/need to; While either way I'd be personally living a more sex-focussed life.

So do Children have natural talents and/or interests. If not, then that must say that the individual is more of an empty sheet and thus as we couldn't tell what it would be it would need to be supported to 'first' grow into an independent individual that then would find its own way. In that sense there is something like a 'stem' of education - and now someone with a given talent would expand into a branch, so, ... . My experience of 9th and 10th Grade was finally that, that I experienced Music class as entirely futile while experiencing Arts class as too primitive and all in all that there was too little Arts class in general. My Sex-Life had by then anyway already been screwed entirely, elementally and most fundamentally. I guess there was that one girl that tried to hit on me, and thinking back I might facepalm and worse myself because - well yea - she was hot! I mean, when I today think back she wasn't my ideal of that time, but today, hey - but - my reaction was 'shock'. I was paralyzed. And I guess I even digest it up to the very day.
Well, hitting on me. Accross the class-room she threw me a look and a wetting-her-lips-with-her-thongue. If I'd see her today I'd still be in shock!


Dragonball Z, Spiderman and co.

Praise the Lord that He blessed Akira Toriyama to come up with this great Fiction, and praise the Lord more-over for blessing Stan Lee to invent Spiderman! Well, it is my theory that Heroes, although just fiction, help us shape ourselves. Today the selection of Heroes is wide - and I know what I did get 'stuck' on - and that there are other things that others got stuck on! Superman was a thing, a classic Hero, basically so a 'Raw Sample' - saying - a Hero needs an Alter Ego and Powers. But I never have really been flashed by Superman although I loved watching the TV show - and well - some movies if possible (my Parents were some sort of Anti-Nerds in that regard). Eventually I figured that Spiderman was on TV Saturday morning, and, Spiderman was one of those figures that is more of a shadow at first. My brother had a comic and there the drawings have been rather grim and dark. The cartoon began to fascinate me although I had no clue who that figure was. But, it was on TV during the time we would be in Church or on our way to Church. So, anyway I would sneak down to my Grandparents living room and start watching cartoons and in terms of Spiderman starting to HOPE that my Parents would forget going to church so that I might watch Spiderman.
Dragonball - I never heard or saw any of it until we went on Vacation to the Philippines. I remember the first movie I saw, attack of the 100.000 Superwarriors, and I was ........ HOOOOKED! Well, as I grew older I eventually got to the point where I had all Comics, from the very base of Dragonball to the very end of Dragonball Z. I mean, it is one of those "Lores" that I know best - to my own regards - where in my mind it holds a position on par with the Bible. The next closest thing to that is Stargate SG1/Atlantis/SGU. Then followed by Star Wars and Star Trek ... and that would make the big bunch. Then comes Spiderman and ... well - whatever - trivialities.


What I see - when looking at it from afar - is self-correspondence. Son Goku is like that big "idol" (icon, good example, "Big Brother") to me - and Spiderman like that good buddy. Oh, arlright - Matrix Reloaded - the theme of Duke Nukem 3D is running right now. Well, yea ... good influence? Bad influence? Influence at all - and - good or bad would be a matter of perception. What got me hooked about Duke Nukem 3D were basically 3 things. The Alien-Kidnapped Chicks somehow turned me on, the entire 'Red-Light-District' theme was somehow, well, "the thing" - and it had a Level Editor that was just awesome! I so eventually came to download a Manual/Tutorial to it - more of a manual - which printed out was like 50 pages at least - and so began building Levels, experimenting around with building functional doors and elevators - while - via some "Geek Connection" I was also introduced to Shadow Warrior which was the next interesting thing because it would allow for remote-controlled cars or even riding Tanks - but that was also where I somehow grew out of that and there-after Half-Life was the next big thing, along with Unreal and then finally Deus Ex.
Do you read a Technological development herein? Well, I sure do! If I thereto recount what school really did for me - all in all - was English, a few basics of Math/Geometry (but that wasn't interesting until I began coding myself and then, well, Analytical Geometry was more of the thing - since - simple Geometry wouldn't help or even give me a totally bad/wrong start) - where, well, Geometry was the one thing during Math classes that was interesting for me, give or take. It certainly was fun and the most outstanding thing. That and English classes.

I on top of that would say - it may be what I need to or am supposed to brag with today - that I have a pretty good understanding of Astronomy and Physics (or Quantum Physics) - that so from reading what is available online. Basically being inspired to google for 'Quantum Physics News' to get up-to-date took me to all the sites that had all the big things collected and - astronomy, well, is somehow on par with it. Its different but similar. Anyway is Astronomy more and more comprehensive the more fundamental the understanding of Physics has become, and Quantum Physics is quite fundamental, where, understanding Quantum Physics enables one to Understand Physics all together more fundamentally while the other way around, well. Anyway - Quantum Physics is also quite similar to Information Technology which so in combination with Video Games is more or less - the - Pearl in the middle of it all.


This is an example - praise the Lord for it - for what someone might be. To say - after I got 18 I've been sortof on my own ego-trip. I returned from college, spent my time hanging around with friends smoking weed and thereby evolved into a Philosopher that later turned towards the Bible and so forth. That so after I came to make that decision to learn of it all. It was, well, life how God made it for me - and thereby I became what I would become once just building upon my interests, Sex excluded (although for some time I was working as a Hooker in deed, well, Callboy or Escort - although - I essentially grew reluctant to meet people outside, so, Bitch may be the better term at all. I was more of the ugly duckling though, however, I was encouraging myself within the belief that I'm good at it! At least so where sensitivity was/would be required.). It is in that, from that time on, a clear cut away from school. So, it was even one of my beliefs that once going to school to learn more about the Bible I'd get spoiled - alias - too little information spread accross too much of a time-line filled with nonsense and bullshit taking me all time available so I couldn't possibly have a secondary interest.


.The Concept?

In essence the same can be expressed by saying: Children will develop themselves once not hindered in doing so - towards what they later will enjoy doing. In essence that is relative to the concept of 'the Body of Christ' - where each individual sotospeak receives a purpose although 'the purpose' is there just a part of an individuals life, so, what the mature/adult then would call 'duty'.

When speaking of the sexual parts thereof - it is evident that we either keep it unspoken and unspeakable - or not. We either call the sole notion of some Children having a Sexual side Child-Abuse, or we open our eyes and start to see how to best handle the case.


This is like - the stupidest case ever! I mean - well - what can I say? Either I dare to step forward and say: "I'd do "it"" - or I contradict to myself by avoiding the issue. I however wouldn't want to take any educational responsibilities! So, based on myself I'd say that I'm theoretically capable of telling who is to become a test-subject and who isn't. This would also be the first stage of experimentation. So, to first go and test my theory by looking at them kids and to find where their tendencies are going. The first practical stage would require an existence sexual society that would do their thing as the kids are present and thus capable of making a move that would iterate into first "warm-ups" like touching and kissing. The idea is generally to introduce the Kid into what it is "choosing" and to then see whether it backs out or not - which later is more about understanding 'when' it backs out as a matter of depth. This needs to be counter-balanced by what is and should be ordinary for a child - while effectively there is an average and there is a separation from the average. So, to compare that to an extremely talented musician, the process would basically take us beyond the average - into a form of separation - and there all the other fields of education so become trivial but still present so for the kid to know that once it has had enough of music what it might go for at next.
I guess all of that is only effective 'before' and 'after' a given age - assuming that there is what we might call 'the difficult ages' - while, essentially, for once my idea - as touched by the cermon of the mount - of 'spoiling a child' is to pretend that all people are the same by default and moving up against its own 'childish impulses' rather than supporting them; And on the other side I have to be against drawing a specific line of where to stop. The bottom is reached when the bottom is reached. For myself - as I experience life right now and that in thoughts of what I can regard as reliable memory (while yet being relatable through 'new' experiences) - the most effective counter-balance to an experience sexual imbalance is "real life" - so - like what I do now or when I read about stuff or work on my project.

Anyway ... "high tech" ... so, scooping of the full width of available knowledge and wisdom - that means that we should definitely begin with sexually themed Anime, that however not yet Hentai or Porn. I remember an Anime that some kids brought to our House while their parents were visiting us. It was some Sci-Fi Action movie and a picture that kept sticking on my mind was that Female Main Character. She was a Cyborg - basically a house-keeping Robot - and in the end, well, I don't remember it exactly like I don't remember anything of the movie at all but some action images and the emotion I beheld at the end, she sortof turned human because there was some love between her and the main character. In that sense I don't think that children are independent enough to come up with the right answers once not asking specific questions. So, in that specific film the question would be: How to tickle that answer out of me? Well, we might begin with: "What did you like most?" - which is unspecific but, well, it would yield the most obvious answers. As counter-stance we might take the issue of child-rape where the rapist taught the child to lie about it. The child would understand to lie, but it wouldn't understand to keep the lie up professionally - while the rapist couldn't teach the child the complexity of what it would have to believe. Suggestive. I had a 'vision' of some sort. So, instead of asking the kid straight up, on suspicion the kid would have to be for instance shown some sexual positions and asked whether it had done anything of that before. Or seen a dick, or been naked before someone - things like that. The idea is to picture the lie and to cover the whole sphere of possibilities to make it waterproof.
Both in combination can be a powerful tool at all. The one is a matter of finding where a child would "belong" - while regardless of that option there is the other way of finding potential threats, which shouldn't be required in an Enlightened community but - at least for the time where there is no enlightened majority or whole - well, its a thing certainly there to be rather overrated than not.


Psychology

What I make of that robot - that should give everyone a hint towards what I'm attracted to. Now Technology or not, it gets interesting through the sexual topic because. A downside of society is however the bias. I'd be for instance generally unwilling to admit transexuality when being asked the wrong way, like, whether I'd like wearing girls-stuff or not. After a given age, when put into a toy store, I'd also no doubt go for the action toys rather than barbies. What parents 'give' their children is thereby an important factor I believe. Once the Kid starts to understand something as odd, it will continue to treat the thing that way. This is arguably how society works - but - ... I might either way ask myself if I had ever liked Girls-stuff, but that aside - I also think of it as a protection mechanism. As I learned that I'm a boy and what suits my 'class' my preferences started to build on that. So, by the age of 6 or 8 I was into cowboy stuff - which worked fine on a male basis. From 8 to 14 sometime I however began to be into lingerie. It is difficult to recall exactly, but still I do believe that the toy-store example would be a good basis to think from. So, it would either way be what every Child dreams of: Full and totally free access to an entire Toy Store - and why not? The more that Parents need to push the kid into a certain direction, which is already done by the statement: Too expensive, the Child is forced to think about its priorites and they - once not otherwise supported - aren't necessarily unbiased - so - where 'the difficult ages' would be the time where pride is growing and still an issue. It stops being an issue when the individual has more freedom to unfold - so - moving on to individual interests and gaining a certain distance from their pride - which is still difficult but not impossible. I can for instance take my own self as reference - looking at how it yet was a struggle to find access to my feminine side. So, sexual interest allowed me to undo errors of the past, but, by that time I have already been way beyond 18! Possibly 19 to 21. It was a matter of having money and no friends - or - at least enough privacy and individual, isolated thoughts to 'unfold' 'myself' - where I remember being on my way to that Sex shop and contending against myself of whether what I was about to do was normal or not, but well, in the end my Kink prevailed. It kept being an issue and certain Dildos that I have bought have also found their way into the trash-can, or, being afraid someone might find it there, into the bushes. It was then by the age of 24 again, or so, that I had been invested into my investigations and doings that I had an urge to experience something sexual and that way got into prostitution. I was basically moved to look for some place where I could experience something homo-sexual, primarily, and so found that site and they were looking for boys and somehow I couldn't shake that thought. Then the people I met there resonated well with me, that means, not the other boys but basically the dominant women. The sexual side was something I essentially craved for, getting it up my ass and so naturally I enjoyed each time I could 'be myself'. Yet I don't say that the "modern prostitution" is a really ideal environment - it can also grow into a trap and that is also attached to a 'half-way satisfied' issue - so - being somehow there where you wanna be but not entirely and that causes a tension that can be dangerous because while there is that limit there is also a beyond but to get there, well, isn't necessarily normal anymore, if even possible. Once possible it is most likely a matter that involves a lot of 'worldly things' - which is then also a resource problem of sub-cultures that basically want to remain isolated. I am not thinking of 'eyes wide shut' there, but that maybe because that story is told from a weird angle, where, well, its probably just that what I mean, where - I don't know - I assume though that criminal energy also becomes an issue.
What I however yet think of specifically, that which made me not think of that movie, is the story of the individual who is basically on the thresh-hold of leaving "the normal world" while being encountered by a "subspace" of sorts where individual rules are being played that separate the individual furthermore while what is in the foreground to me are the individuals social bonds which lateron are the indivdiuals 'gates' sotospeak. Without somewhere to go, where to go? At some point a person like that would also wonder: Is any alternative really that much better? And that stance gives power into the hands of those that host given subculture because effectively that person that is on that threshhold is already attracted to that subculture rather than to the normal world - while at that point the only thing questionable is after all the ehtnics of given group or organization or whatever.


The up-to-date defition of 'there are no Slaves in Paradise' so must be: A slave is a person that is forced to live a life that doesn't correspond to itself in service of an authority. At some point this also applies to a 'Sex Slave' - but on the point of Sexual Services per se, but of the amount of time that is to be spent on that. 100% is never OK, where the amound made free for other things is, once sticking to the Sex-Slave issue, like the watering of a plant.


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