Chapter 1 - The Blood Splattered Bride

When I come to think of it - words upon words didn't express what I meant to express; And times where the feelings are clear I come to think of words to make them comprehensive to you reader - but the reason why I'm in this situation is the same why you won't understand what I'd have to say.

Thus I must resort to being a whining pussy - which for the time might do the trick but soon after you feel the agony within my situation the tide turns and Bill is Kiddo and Kiddo is Bill. I want to break free, loosening these fictive chains that hold me, but whether you comprehended it or not turns you into the sword that is directed unto me or him. Thus I must take a few steps back and tell you what I mean by 'whining pussy'.

There are a lot of things I could tell, individual occasions wherein I grew mad inside, but as I'd blame him and he wouldn't want to be blamed it is my war of telling you that he is the bad guy while he though tells you the same of me. Thus it isn't merely about me expressing my anger, but about me fighting my way through the odds and arguments that exist to prevent that from succeeding to its end.
That, when I so come to think of it, isn't a matter of finding the words that do a certain trick - it is about slashing a way into this mind of his to prevent him from opening his mouth any further. I however there find no way in doing so, for whatever I say, do or tell - there seems to be an adequate counter measure in place. The more I try, the more I argue; And the more I argue the more issues I slap onto the desk - and the more issues are being slapped onto the desk the more I begin to move in circles - trying to tie that final knot wherein I see his inconsistency being revealed. "What inconsistency?" you may ask - but you might surely discover that it is just the problem I was talking about. It is then I that does the trick - by what I provide on this site I beget identity that is consistent within my own right - and so he's moving out to hunt me down. All my efforts then lay in vain, in his right as we might tell you, which I have to bear and suffer within some form of gentlemens agreement; While for the most part I do but then, certain things just go too far. 'How come I haven't tied that knot when I did?' - isn't it inconclusive? Contradicting? Unlogical? One step into that direction, no matter how right, and back we are at square one. Why even try? Isn't it inevitable? But I'm not writing this because I give up! I see my own right and persue my interests still - I'm comming to hunt him down! So, part one on my list is this ... the setup, the point at which it begins and the point to which it returns; So that whenever it happens you see these images burned into your head and soon you may not resist to acknowledge the true who is who in this mess.

"So I lay there, defenseless, worrying for my bearings and I got to wonder: How is this going to end?"

Chapter 2 - Prelude

There are some people in my life that I used to trust and that trust finally got me into a lot of problems or troubles. You might argue: Well - shouldn't there be someone that could voice out for me? Well - could they? What would they say other than what I say already? Or otherwise - if I were so right in all I say - shouldn't there be the one or the other following my lead? But ... why don't you? Same story! One thing though is missing in it yet to be told! My confidence is in my struggles agains "them", where, while its just me doing all the talking there is doubt that you may have ... doubt that is furthermore fueled by "them". But if I were to to argue with "them" before you, where you could see how it would turn out if something like that were to happen, face to face, you could come to a conclusion!

All you need to wonder about here is: Why this little game here is being played! You are not my enemy, they are! You don't think you know it all or have some divine vision or revelation - you are just one of the other; That's what makes them different, but not all of them! Some of them pretend to be just like you, but they follow their lead as one of them. So they'll know things better, apparently, just like they do; And that's whom I'm fighting against. You don't know what hits you when it hits you ... you are the sheep - your own concern is to be taken to the green willow. But against me they have to show that they are the ones to take you there - while you - you aren't me! You can't tell what I would tell them if they told you what they did!
You are sheep, and sheep live in flocks and flocks have their own dynamics. If I told you something you deem right or recognizable, you move as though I were the shepherd steering you into a given direction. That is how you may recognize them - or as the Bible speaks: You shall recognize them by their fruit, for does a spoiled tree bear good fruit? - for they aren't sheep like you are! They'll try to steer you into their given directions - taking you the oppinions you've got that would speak for me ... as though there were some cliff you'd be walking up towards ... suppressing you in your freedom of thought and idea ... like poisonous snakes sent out amongst you.
What I can I do about it? I can warn you! Or try to do so.

There so are these two kinds ... the ones if I were to struggle against them would be able to be like you, lifting their shoulders, looking confused, saying "I don't know much about it". Eventually, when I'm lucky, they have an oppinion they want to be sure about - one that isn't flat and harmless but directly on topic, one that is just wrong - but - think for yourself! If the point is not to find a conclusion then it ends without any of it ... I can only speak to those that want to listen ... and if your fellow friends oppose me, what greater significance do I bear? But if you can't tell me that I'm wrong either, then how come I lost? Well - I didn't! In fact - I just told you what's up and you can't say that I'm wrong! But they, they had to tell that I'm wrong - but rather than accomplishing that I can tell that they are by trying to tell you that I am! But so I'm telling you that I'm wrong, kindof, because now here I am telling you that they are. But actually nobody is telling anything - while in the end, how come that they know so much better what's right than you?

Chapter 3 - O-Ren Ishii

A good question that is! A good cover-up for something like that were a good background story; Following the reason that anything that makes them more a part of them than of you does arguably make them stand closer to God than you. But you don't know what they know, or so they would argue - and all know - that this is where tolerance, the freedom to believe whatever we think is right, freedom of speech, mind and oppinion, stand - but so should we not forget that their claims don't make what they say right!
It is much more so, that there may be stories or otherwise insults, suspicions and counter-claims that make it so that we are required to Understand that as the place where these debates are to be settled and that it so stands that the one who seems to be more believable did effectively win the battle. In Video-games people grind for reputation ... something that in World of Warcraft is as easy as doing nothing out of the ordinary but simply wearing the banner of a certain grouping.

Needless to say that this all only follows one logical outcome: Between me and them there is a lot of space and that space is crowded ... but that all now that speak for them are counted to them ... and if anyone speaks for them in opposition to me they have to give answer regarding their place in all this ... in case they assume the right to talk me out of your head. Is it my intention to become a part of your home? What end do I seek? That end is my goal and those that stand in my way must naturally be considered my enemy. Those that don't want me to make it there are their goons sotospeak; And we might make it look like in a Video game where there is a stage and a boss - but is that the way that I'm going?

Chapter 4 - The man from Okinawa

Hatori Hanzo, a name that became Legend - more or less - but more a synonym for a sword that cuts everything - even God if God were to stand in its way. Much this is like forging a sword, but nowhere I ever claimed to be a magnificent Author! And so I would write something up and someone were to seek a mangle therein - but, following what Logic precisely?

I can take my article about Stardate as example. By now I could profficiently improve its quality - while independent to that is the quality of the thing that is being presented. It is "round", solid, perfectly comprehensive and naturally impressive - nothing really about human genious but more so just the beauty within our creation being revealed within the convergence of the things that are and the existence of intelligent life. All I did was to say: 4800 lightmiles as radius, the circumference split into 4800 segments measured in Starleaps and the rest is simply what is provided by the Universe.
Did I? Or did I copy that? Well - either way - one might simply write a simpler manifest and so my sword were shattered. Does it change though anything of the thing that is being conveyed? Change a number here or there, use a different Calendar ... minor things all in all that equally don't change the thing itself.
Now - in this example I picked something that is Universally valid, independent of faith and belief as in regards to individual groups and institutions - but so every party might pick a different set of numbers and ultimately the end were Chaos, a Chaos wherein one or more Entities seek their Dominance and the means by which this Dominance is established is of course what this is all about! There is the one that forges this knowledge and maybe another one that uses it. I however don't mean to say that I'm good at math!

A sword that cuts God ... what is it? Ignorance? Arrogance? Well that! That is one way! My understanding is different though. My understanding is that if anyone tries to cut God, that one must be considered a moron! If God were to be Cut, God would expose himself to be Cut. Naturally "these wares" are precious, those who would get their hands on them - they could add weight to their words if they found anyone to impress with them. In this case, Quentin Tarantino is our Hatori Hanzo - and Kill Bill Volumes 1 and 2 are that sword! You can take the movie by its word, understanding it so that God must not stand in your way - but I have learned, because I sought for His wisdom, that for God to help you you must not stand in His way!
Now we could very well battle about the wisdom thereof, well knowing that you'd either agree or not, while those that do agree confirm that I'm right and those that don't confirm that I'm wrong. But so it stands that you may confirm whatever you so damn well please - in the end you have to answer to Him; And if Arrogance were Bliss I'd have to say that we'd see then whom's sword ain't broken and who stands revealed as the looser - but in Truth, no matter how right, that is me not helping you at all. What I though mean to say is somehow the obvious that yet stands there as being hard to formulate.
On another note - consider that if you so mean to stand in the way of God as part of your argumentation, you might want to wonder about the Philosophy thereof; While, if my wisdom were in deed not greater than yours, His certainly is written on another page - and you - what is it that makes you sure that you occupy the right spot? For what I know, I face a nearly impossible task as it would seem and I cannot effort the Luxury - that so within my lifetime - to be careless about the spot that I occupy. But what does that mean? That any hypothetical condition that I must meet that I didn't meet does obviously dispense this into vapour? That I'd break into pieces if someone were to throw a tiny stone at me that mocks me in a little misformulation or not having thought of just what you so happened to think of? Maybe, most likely - even so, I cannot denie that there are minor imperfections here or there; Thats not what I mean to be arguing about! But lets say that God were to come down and mock me on that one, then he were doing me wrong to my objective oppinion and ethnical understanding and such ... thus making me wonder how right I were in believing in Him! Depending on what you understood I'm in a legitimately wrong spot and thus must learn of what He tells me - wherein I've been wrong - or otherwise in the intentionally created right spot where He wouldn't mock me, but someone else would! While He is so boasting about being all so great, it to me so is up to Him to show this greatness unto me - but there still are things that I need to acknowledge as demands of His! In this given example, unto what extent? Down to the yota? What is your measurement for this? That's what matters hereby! Naturally it here so happens that 'boom', I'm back at being the Blood Splattered Bride again but that so in the wrong Chapter of this story. How that? Because if a single comma is missing somewhere then I must have obviously been too arrogant! But does this change effectively whom I'm working for? Does this change anything about what I'm trying to convey? So maybe I wasn't that perfect, after all; But if we're talking about how well I did in conveying what I must then that must be the main subject! If we're talking about what I must convey according to Him, then how come you can or cannot tell that I did or didn't?

Chapter 5 - Showdown at House of Blue Leaves

Which takes us to the final point where the ugly mess occurs - folks quarreling about and contradicting in who's right and wrong. This may begin right here, at the beginning of this all, at some subsequent chapter or further down the line ... still being no closer to "Bill" and yet wondering about who is you while now also including "You". That then however is subsequently your problem. We all do prolong for someone to exchange with, to reflect our oppinion to learn or tell ... and that is how we engage into things that help us grow, but sometimes for this growth to happen we must learn when we went wrong or otherwise we'll just grow deeper and deeper into the shit we've putten ourselves into.

... to be continued ... here!

Epilogue: *

Smith: "You, you, you" - what can I say?

There's nothing between you and me unless you say so. You, you are there because you are reading this. So - without a doubt - you are somewhere in this Story. So, either you're just watching or somewhere implied. Now, this isn't 'Kill Bill' the Movie - it is a Metaphor, somehow, where we at.

So, because you are only one, but still within the whole part of a thing, there is no direct me-to-you relation anywhere in here. Thus, within me and you, you is in here always only within the given context of my own understanding. But while in here the you term is a little bit more specific, since having excluded a certain part from it, it is a little bit less chaotic.

So, don't let yourself be confused. What differentiates however those just watching from those implied within somewhere is now how far your reach to that thing is, a certain thing I want to describe before I move on.

If you're just watching, take a note from all the things you see on the communications section on this site. So, that is what I so share with this planet since ages now. Well, not the all of it, but we all grow - and thus the appearances changed. However, as far as I have told and written about it, there is way more than just that. Partially this is sent into certain directions - and I wonder, what is happening with it.

At first, this is spiritual stuff, it belongs to God and God is the main subject. Thus, of course, I wouldn't bother the ordinary person to be as extensively deep into these things as I sometimes show them to be by simply "getting lost within my mind" sotospeak. Therein I seek a certain logic, but within my relationship to the problem I see certain variables.

We so begin with anything that may or may not be of any importance here and there, so, take the Stardate article as main example. Now, there were a certain part of my audience for instance that would now already have seen it, while so also the Eden article. Eden is around for quite some time, which now everyone I tried to reach should have seen at least ... well ... very well ... twice now. It is a gift to my insight, not given to me by man, that I shared and thus expected some audience from it to further listen to the thing I found. I however don't only always show only one thing, I always do also put it into context with other individual findings. In general that all, so expanding from the Testimony, is all in all already layed out beyond the current scene in far detail - going into individual problems to in all manners or ways solve out conflicts that exist with it. Now, what does that say? Just always only speaking in favour of the Testimony? Well - that - for sure is simply true - however - that is supposed to be the true end to it anyway. So I try to show that over and over again; While I'm sure that all in all I have convincing arguments to deserve some attention.

Now, this attention is to somehow form within that. If you are just watching you expect something to happen or someone to do something - because however else could this ever be anywhere else than just at me and my miserable life? Well, what can I do? Work this, do that, ... where is this comming from? What else can I call it than miserable if nothing there ever happened? Or what would we want to look at when looking at me? Or, isn't it happening again? I call my life miserable because at some point that is what it is; And you say that I could or might or should have change(d) it, like, why don't I this or that? Here it so begins because I call my life miserable - while now put in context to someone who might change anything about it, that has meaning. What I simply expect is that at some points there are huge social node-points of some description, quite exactly at those 'final' node points that I would have to pass through - saying that of course there is at first some direct addressment by me, to what eventually is basically a huge node-point where I thus also have to act accordingly, within realistic expectations sotospeak. But that is another story. What happens is that whenever there is a 'first contact', there is the "chance" that something might grow from it and hence at some point the argument must mass up so that there is a counter-measurement unto me basically that now concerns someone who isn't "just watching".

Capcom Forums were a strange thing for instance. Capcom is finally also a large entity, while individuals now like Celebrities exist within a different kind of relationship to the entire. So, somewhere there is the "thing", where the thing is that there is some - supposed to be epi-climactic dilemma or contention or argument or something that revolves about me. Now, at first there so for instance were nothing, because I hadn't done anything yet. Then all of a sudden there is something, where time after time the hope I had would slowly vanish. Within the vanishing of hope I'm provided with reason as to how this vanishing can be intellectually explained, thus, basically looking for the points where one would have a conflict and thus having a point to attach. If I saw that there were no more point to it, I would so try something else, while, that what I would do would depend on what comes to mind - it isn't just saying "woo dee, doing nothing!". That is however from where most of these things that I show you here are comming from; "doing nothing". Thus I say: I am an explorer! When I have nothing to explore then obviously I am unemployed, but when I explore, I'm not really not unemployed either. So, what I speak to those who finally are in charge of that decision is firstly that I would like some support to my exploration. In that sense I then so begin to operate because finally that is what it is about while I then so come to address certain issues that I see exist in context to that. While now some would say that I need to aim at something specific, like lets say a Video Game prototype, they would now push time away from me, saying that while I don't so have 'yet' what I would need, I have to work in it. Now, what happened is that I didn't, except for what is 'my own' work that I don't want to just push to the point of a prototype like that for just cause. I need it to be the way I want it, period. So, eventually I got something else then, "Matrix-2-Reloaded" a.k.a. 'The Seal of the One', which now exists in contradiction to the expectation that I should now also yet so and finally come up with a Prototype. This then here is finally a very strong representation of these conflicts wherein 'the thing' now is that which happens there in the core of it.

So, if you called me 'Smith', then there at some point is "Mr. Anderson", if you called me 'Neo', then there is this wall of problems and hopelessness where somewhere there needs to be a way. So, eventually, I come to argue with people about things that entirely don't matter here, but it is still this mind here. Therein I see how I am projected by myself in relation to the argumentations that oppose me; While at some points it happens that things I'm already bust with or have been busy with enter the scope in a variety of ways, while in some ways sometimes also supporting primary suspicions I've had. But when I find that I must correct myself, then there is that end. To certain things I however don't seem to get reasonable answers, which may be because I'm not asking ... but so there now is this, a simple representation of the situation I see myself within, as a contemporary extrapolation of my situation here.

You are put into this story because you belong into this group of yous specified. Thereby then eventually you are just a bystander. There are various parties then, each so accumulated around certain points within my story. There so for instance is Anna Corinna Fries, someone to whom I've sent Love Letters for years and who has over time grown to something like a Menace on my mind. This Menace extends beyond this idea of Love (the Meltdown) I've had and implies all the different things I've so sent to her. That includes first reports regarding findings on my spiritual journey, various pieces of Art that I have created and more ... which I then all see misused against me. In some way that ties into "the Thing" - which is where this now is more excluded than from the ordinary You because there this might not be entirely known or become primarily featured and distorted to the bystanders. Then there so is something like a primary circumference of mine, ... other people I know that I spoke to regarding my minds concerns and people surrounding them, while between this and that there is the scope wherein the grand scene is located. If you're just watching, you have no connection to all that, or you are just bystanding. As bystander you do not have much control upon things ... you aren't directly implied however. Whether you thereby now support or oppose my thing is a different thing - but certainly that which this is about finally because you in the end have the leverage when it comes to you. Now - in the end - there however eventually is this other thing, which is more like God holding you back because my way isn't supposed to go that way, but still - there so finally is this attention that exists and the struggle for how it exists in favour of me.

It is then not so much me, which is then what finally everything is about all in all. I don't need to show you myself - from time to time however I guess I got to show that I do still exist. While what I say might sound like everything should be in favour of me, it is still so that when it doesn't, there are times where I would like to know why. Step A: Do you believe in God? If not, that were a thing that I could accept and agree with. If you then however were to start telling me why, then we have a discussion started and I might tell you why I do believe in Him. Eventually I should thereby speak of 'why' - and not of why I believe that He 'exists'. But, because I know that 'He' does, that's a point, I'm obliged to share my insights. But ... well. It so goes further on, where at the end there is that core of the logic, which at some point may be called my own inner Demon; But, if that were so, where would be my redemption? How would I not be miserable? So, what is this Demon? I would like to know! If someone has the wisdom to tell me what that is then I might come to Understand, ... but - in case I might do more than that! Eventually so I come to be upset because that "inner Demon of mine" does not exist within the terms that have been discussed. So, it isn't that there isn't anything that people might want to talk about ... which means ... "I see things" ... so, maybe this site here is a hallucination.
But so there is a center at which I could be, saying that I can only be at one place at a time, so to become an active part to the conversation, while now the question is - what is this center like? Are there friendly people or not? Is there "Mr. Anderson", or is there Smith?

At some point, there is the position of "The One" - sotospeak - because eventually the scope at which this discussion at that center exists does exceed beyond the ordinary bounds - or so - into some sort of spiritual leadership. That is in the essence where we as civilization whould be fed, the System that we exist in, the spiritual Goods our civilization follows. From my perspective it starts simple, because all that I expect is that people want to be Enlightened. That so is finally the filtered outcome of my exploration in regards to a finite pragmatic point - while from there now things would unfold. Now, if I had it - sotospeak - the Key to true Enlightenment - that were a thing. So, people could go and verify that, or otherwise denie it, but if it were true, it is so the mission of "the One" to defend that Truth - to have it become recognized as that. What I finally demand so is a scientific recognition of my work and a corresponding response - where now the question is, who or what is there at the top of that which does stand against it? For the time being, that is 'Bill'. If what you see is that there is no physical Bill in your range, then we are within the scope of simple progress. If there however is a physical Bill, one who so contends against my position, taking my position, then there is action. These actions follow a certain logic - so - in correspondence to my own mind those are things I feel happening. There are forces in play, intellectual ones, or so in other words: The ways by which he assumes dominance. Because that is ultimately tied into demanding your attention - my work at times so finally hardens around this situation. Now if I were to physically make my way forward, to that center where I should be, all those that would physically stand in my ways are the enemy described herein. That however means, that if you were to move, they so first stand in your way. The question I'm however asking is: Does that point - that center - even physically exist? Thus what matters to me is the point where my physical journey will take me - as said - this isn't 'Kill Bill' the movie; That is where what I do will come to flourish. But whatever so stands in its way is finally Bill - in the end - and when things so begin to become political, at some point, he will naturally have to show up if there is a physical Bill to speak of. What mattered then, finally, is how you are setup to see the confrontation. The first odd in my way is that I always see the end to end in violence - and that for a variety of reasons. Either he goes one step too far or he doesn't control himself enough - so - either I am or he is the initiator. That often enough may be the end for me already - so - unless that confrontation is what you wanted. But if you would, then what would that say? Either you worry that I am the mad person or that he is, whatever, that is the most finite way of determining an end to it - but once it has ended, what then?

Flashback *

What is so Masochistic about his act - to ask in how far this movie is an accurate metaphor to this. I would like to present myself as a threat to him, someone he shold fear; But to him, I might be just the victim whom nobody pays any attention on, whom he can exploit beyond anyones care - where I might be a source to him and nobody listens when I try to break free.

Chapter 6 - Massacre at two Pines *

When I speak of my problematic relationship to Bill, I should name an incident - a certain specific point at which I ignited into real anger, a direct wrath directed at him through a specific experience I've had to make. That story would however take me into my mind ... where a series of negative impacts had hit my life and a certain force would be confirmed.

That story takes me to Jennifer Lopez.

That story once told brings me to a point where I understood that I am recognized in some way. So I have invented an Alphabet - a straight mix between Hebrew and Greek writing logic and Characters - and while I was writing my letter to her I assumed that if she had enough knowledge of these things she would be able to decypher them. I believed that she was a big person in this story, on the frontier of the faithful, that there is a chance that she might have this knowledge - and so I was baffled when I saw the initials of Robbie Williams written on his new Album back them in the Alphabet that I had invented. Intensive Care that is. 'I' as in alignment to the hebrew 'Wow' - and the ribbon is the american 'R' - which is maybe the best segway into the other side of the story.
As I told in the epiologue to the last part, there is this Girl whom I had sent a lot of the things I've had my mind in, and amongst that was that Alphabet. Now, it may be so that they just accidentally took the right 'R', as there are two, or maybe they had figured it out, but somehow, it came too soon.

Now - with that on mind I had to change the way I related to her, thus still believing that she might be a good girl. I tried and tried to reach her, while eventually I had to suggest that she might not be that good of a girl. Within the suggestions of my mind I had to figure what the right possible answer were, thus sticking to the good girl for the start - but eventually - when I got to the point where I acknowledged to myself that she must be the bad girl, ... well, it happened quickly that the forces that kept suggesting that to me changed from supporting it into pretending that they have changed. I realized though that I would be stupid to accept it that easily - and so I have turned away and had a certain lock onto something. It mocked me and rendered itself superior to me, trying to make me see that I'm exposed to its mercy ... and I resisted but it kept mocking me like an annoying fly one can't get rid of. That is where it began.

As it goes on, well, I have had time to think about it - and eventually there is that 'good intent' that I might see therein. Either way I keep on going my way -

Chapter 7 - The lonely grave of Paula Schulz

- but my situation doesn't change. Can I blame him? Well - certainly not always!

Yet in the grand scheme that can barely be the issue. When I send a letter to Jackie Chan wherein I present him an idea for how to setup a Dragonball Movie Trilogy and the next thing on the story are rumors about a Dragonball movie and then finally the rumors confirmed, there is one exclamation mark. That the movie wasn't nearly where I would want a Dragonball movie to be is another story.

When I - I don't know to whom, I guess it was J.Lo - send an idea about merging Tomb Raider and Indiana Jones into one movie and the next thing is another Indiana Jones movie where now Lore-wise there is no ground for Lara Croft to be his real daughter, then well, I see my efforts once again countered and opposed.

I may then reason with it ... I might say that IJ4 as it is would much more correspond to its propretriators idea - so - yea, whatever. So, I, still believing in a good ending of some sort, then would so speak to myself that I don't care but at least that Exodus movie I want to be not done until the issues got solved out properly - but well - see what we got there! And - although I didn't speak of it a lot, I want to still adress that it should be simply logic to some degree; Where it is obvious, beyond struggling which idea and when and how - that there is something going on ... while maybe the idea is to see how I could make it any better. So, what next?

The X-Com movie I was having on mind ... which is already beyond an X-Com sequel that I would have been getting my nose into? So, what I see while writing these things up is that what I wanted to "do" has been done, either way, but just that it wasn't me! Whether I ever get the chance to any "my Version" thing is totally written on another page in some other book - maybe. It is however not entirely unheard of that a maybe too sudden re-interpretation of something was done, so the Amazing Spiderman at least. If nothing changed about my situation though ... this would be the state of the art - my Vision, crippled and dismayed ... like that Robbie Williams "Sign" an image of me in the "Star Sky", but what I see is that only I see it; Just that same mockery I was writing about previously.

As to why and how, what goes on and what I need to consider, that's that Phantom Menace - and in opposition to it I seem to be as helpless as having been burried alive. *- How deep, that ... may depend on what 'thing' we're looking at. If the thing is just and simply about me - then I'm not burried at all - as I matter of fact am not burried alive. But that may at all change depending on the point of view - so that I while I write about the Testiomny (-"again"-), the problem elsewhere may at all be an entirely different one. While to me the point is still clear that all those problems even exist because people do not pay enough attention onto the Testimony, 'my' way of solving the problem is to get there. Thus essentially the depth at which I reside can be measured in accordance to the metaphorical distance that must be crossed for "us" to come to a point there. That means not only that you have your own faith being an issue, but also that there are arguments. Finally, since technically speaking that is a physical distance that can be realistically crossed when listing up each known argument in combination with a counter-argument, there is the "Membrane", or so the paranoia that draws a negative from all the facts known - to otherwise say that we a) can't know what else there is, or b) how else everything about it may be a deception. Thus the argument transitions into otherwise determining how the Truth may be consolidated on facts alternatively; So that essentially we're not talking about facts anymore but their ways of interpretation within varying systems of cognition. This then, something that finally concludes within the Phantom Menace I wrote about, arises into the various Systems of "the mastery of the art", which then provides the different obstacles that must individually be overcome in correspondence to competing within different grades of acknowledgement.

Chapter 8 - The Cruel Mutelage of Pei Mei *

There is a Legend, that goes that the Head Priest of the White Lotus Clan - Pei Mei - once passed by a Monk. In what is otherwise known as a gesture of utmost generosity, Pei Mei nodded at the Monk but the Monk didn't nod back. That is the beginning of what is known as the Massacre of 60 Shaolin Monks killed by the Fist of the White Lotus. What does this say about the Menthality of the Priest?

In the end it is yet so that if the Massacre happened, the Fist of the White Lotus is by far superior to the first of the Shaolin. When so projecting that there is no respect for that, one may project where it ends - thus one would have to settle the score at some point. And that is how we come back to the El Paso Texas Wedding Chapel Massacre. What are the motives there? A score was settled. But what kind of score? That many can beat down one? That ignorance is bliss? Well - ...

Pei Mei in this story here does Metaphorically correspond to "the Ancient Myth" - while considering what Shaolin are capable of beyond what we may think is possible, we can't really tell what else there may be -possible in-deed-. In other ways it so stands that a System of cognition, like lets say the sciences of physics, embraces a scope of possibilitites. Within physics we so speak of the scope wherein Atoms interact, while in some ways Newton applies, other times Einstein; Whereby Einstein so broke a boundary within the scope that was known and thus physics has grown. Now do the Shaolin break a certain boundary but we have no idea of the scope of the system wherein this happens.

So I say that the Testimony is the breaking of a Boundary that occurs within a Scope that embraces the entirety of Existence everywhere. God takes shape within everything that is, so also and as well within our internal Sphere which is where the Testimony occurs. This is otherwise known as "the Myth of God" which does so primarily manifest around or within 'Immanuel' a.k.a. "Jesus Christ" (Jewish, Christian, Muslim and Mormon tradition) - wherein somewhere there so is what we may call 'the rotten apple'. In 2 Thess 2 there so is the speech of 'the Antichrist' while Daniel speaks of 'a Little Horn', what may be what is 'Babylon' within the Revelation of John. In this regard we so may come to speak of the differences between the varying systems in terms of identifying what that finally is to us in this reality; Or so the matter of pointing fingers. Now, if Pei Mei so were to have been broken in his attempt to consolidate the might of his Arts - he would have deserved so. Now, I'm braving these waves, and I see that there are many ways this can be taken - leading to places I don't wanna be at. So, what is thought is that I go there, take it up with these Systems, but for what or whom? For you, dear reader?

So - I imposed a question, "For you I will" and all that crap, but settle the score with a killer and the measurement is Fighting. In so many ways, finite phyiscal brutality is a very impactful solution, but if it ends where you say that there then must be a need for it, while at some other point you would stop at just the same consideration - either way when however in favour of me the thing is against me; Guess what, naturally the bar is raised as tall as possible still. Not only do I need to track down each individual Goon myself, also do I need to bathe my way through to him and end it there. Now, the education I have enjoyed does however not allow me to go such boastful pathways, but with enough leverage that isn't necessary as they would be forced by their own rule to arrive at me - where needless to say the Truth is that someone who wants to be hidden doesn't want to come out! Someone that prefers to feed from the ground like a dog when faced by the Truth that demands human grace ... well, but what do I say? Naturall good reason is wasted on those that are incapable, for whatever reason, to comprehend it.

Chapter 9 - Elle and I *

So there is this story. Bill, Beatrix and Elle - all three have in common that they have studied the White Lotus Martial Arts under the care of Pei Mei. The Legend speaks of a Five Point Exploding Heart Technique - but apparently Pei Mei doesn't teach this technique to anyone. This in here is a Metaphor for "the mastery of the art" as previously mentioned. Bill didn't learn it, Elle - so for the purposes of this text - didn't believe that it was possible. So she didn't see that her suffering would any day be rewarded. Then she killed Pei Mei using poison - thus she was free to believe what she wanted to since there was no Pei Mei to stop her.

In other words we're speaking of these scopes here again - whereby Pei Mei exists at the outer area of that sphere which however isn't known to many. In this order it so happens that the things we call common sense aren't representative of the full Truth - but common sense is finally the primary tool of correspondence. This naturally means that anyone who wants to know anything really specific has to be prepared to leave the boundaries of common sense and willing to adapt a new System of correspondence.

Now, this is finally where the "issue" occurs, that dilemma around each and every System of Truth and its familiars, or so the exact boundary where common sense and the Systems internal doctrine begin to differentiate. In the end there should be no dilemma, the absolute Truth itself is Layered at best, like a Bush or Forrest. But so we speak of a dominating System within common sense, whereby - if there is an Entity with enough power to manipulate it, we may otherwise speak of Elle as the guarding figure wherein this story climaxes herein, or otherwise so a head to the system that forcefully separates the Truth from common sense.

So, there is now 'The Matrix-2-Reloaded' or even in general then the Matrix Trilogy Set, which is consistent of Three Movies and as example a separate List of a couple of songs that have to be played in order, meeting certain conditions of playback frequency and delay between tracks, to which there is a Video on You Tube flagged 'The Seal of the One' (Wings of Philosophy channel), that also contains a Link to the Capcom-Unity Forum where this List has been originally posted. This Video shall serve as time reference for my setup - while there are certain other 'manual' checks available as described there. Within this 'Sample' we see a certain synergy unfold, something the one or the other may have experienced from time to time. The critical segment here is time. So, dependent on which Systems someone does use in combination to each other - like me playing WinAmp on my Netbook powered by a Windows XP Operating System while running the Movie on my Laptop powered by an ArchLinux Operating System under KDE 4 - one so exists within a general sphere that contradicts to another although the Truth finally remains the same. On the first track the differences should be most minimalistic, it already contains all that will finally be required. Because there are individually long 'Human Nature' versions out there, this is also beyond which there is the realm of likes and possibilities. If a certain beat 'has to' happen to a certain scene of the movie, the timing has to be perfect. At some point we might thereby then venture into the shadows of how this all could have still been planned out that way by a man or a group like lets say the Illuminati, but effectively the Link to the Post so provides a claim that goes beyond that. It isn't anymore so about the exact setup, but as the statement 'random' so dictates the individual synergy of particles and elements at the given moment of time. Various techniques can be issued like let's say that code-ception indicates some knowledge of what in the movie to best sort into the currently playing song while stomping is the same however in direct contradiction to the knowledge of what is next, thus we may speak of some way of foresight. When wall-jumping however an entirely new variable is in play, which is the general complexity between the two. When at some point in the scene jumping into another the foresight has to be there, so the selected piece of the movie must cover that which follows and that which might happen there-after, then jumping to another piece that does the same. We may thus speak of a window of foresight, thus expanding the time between jumps would possibly allow us to dig into that, but thereby an entirely different variable is provided by whether or not 'time frames' that wide can be supported. What my claim states is that I see doors, sotospeak, I feel where I can jump and when to do it should I decide to do it, and the rest is a somehow internally automated mechanism. Sometimes there are multiple options, then there also are 'red' and 'grey' doors. These I say are shown to me by God, where so the successful accomplishing of the test allows me to state the sciences that are implied into doing so. What anyone else would imply into that should at first remain to be secondary. But exactly so at this joint it happens now that I do posess a likelihood of leverage which otherwise I doubt I'd have.

As stated is God within everything that is, if I were to be trusted, so that there is nothing that physics can that He can't. This knowledge ties into the "Ancient Myth" of the Israelite God, which ties into the Story of Jesus Christ and along with that into the segments of Redemption and Salvation that so finally thereby dominate within the questions for the Struggles within this World to which then History may serve as Parable that helps us Understand the Spirit of Christ. We have to bring that Sacrifice, we have to change, we have to submit to His will, then everything will become good. That is Salvation in the common Sense. However within the sense of time the Journey goes on - as this is only a first or primary contact situation; The hard line of the boundary essentially speaking. What happens thereafter to my knowledge and experience is what separated me from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints then since I found nobody willing to accept its tithings. Now, therein the common sense is again another, which may simply dictate that I can't or mustn't have what I claim to have. It is however within this Enlightenment that I claim to have, that I have grown in Understanding and Perception onto this World and that a part thereof is intrinsically combined with my way of doing this thing. What otherwise may be described as knowing where the longest possible intersection between the music and the movie will be can finally only be logically transcribed into a higher scope of the cognition by saying "these doors". This is as we say a certain sequence of tracks that has to play before it can become virtually possible, or otherwise it may be called the construction of a pathway through that which is inevitable, while now so at the rate at which a human individual can move through these layers a certain grade of alignment to the absolute can be determined. So I say that by my abilities I have a certain grade of alignment that allows me to speak of a few things that are real in relation to it, for who else is there that could be proven to have a greater insight into those things? So I say that it is God showing me a way, while the result as apparent to me is a mix between these different abilities put into combination with the ability to influence the random sequencer - whereby I'm just reading the code that God provides me to have insight into; So, He is the translator while within a certain degree it is a matter of trust and letting go. Now, this is what I have in order to say that there is a peaceful, non-violent ending.

This right here is another example of what I meant by telling you of a certain depth that I cover from time to time. Naturally it takes time to manifest a writing like this that regards a certain element of confusion - as naturally it also takes time to eventually even yet comprehend what has to be comprehended in order to solve out various other ones ... where You and I are no different from anyone else but Him. But how do you want to teach a Moron that doesn't want to accept that God is greater than he is, that God is in deed greater than he is? It is said that before you seek the splinter in the eye of your neighbour, seek for the bar that is in your head - which I did, previously, to think to myself how it is. What I know in the end yet is that there is something - and that something at all grows back to the Testimony, that "ancient Myth" of God around Redemption and Salvation. I so once - I say - have asked Him to be my teacher, in the name of Christ, both ways, any way, to be sure to myself that I made it right, being prepared to follow His advise so that I might learn rather than beginning to get lost within the riddles and confusion that exist. So what this is thereby all about is my way of consolidating that what I call the solution to all the problems within this world.

Naturally my advise to myself should be that my mission should be focussing around the fact that you are supposed to listen and that I therefore should pay better attention on the way I formulate myself, but the actual problems go far beyond that - up unto certain individuals or un-natural forces that hold your inner impulses to follow the righteous way in contempt. But if we so speak of snakes that draw our false outlines, we so finally may also come to speak of what is parabolically known as the 'Snake Charmer'.

Final Chapter *

There Finally will be a System upon the others that we will all have to somehow get acquainted with if something like 'World Peace' is to become a longlasting thing. Now, we all - at least here so in the west - have what we may call the 'Symbol of the Beast' that is mentioned in the revelation. That means that from birth we are registered trade-mark of our political institution, and without following its doctrine we do not legally exist. In germany we so for instance suffer a status of 'statelessness' or as Article 1xx of our Law here says: It (the Law) is only valid until the german people establish a Constitution in their own right.

At another point the Revelation then speaks that all those that have accepted the Seal of the Beast will be thrown into that pool of fire. Since I am not allowed to add or take from the book I must accept the idea, but I may doubt for myself whether my interpretation thereof is correct. Since at some point in the Bible we read of a point where the Spirit is being poured out upon all flesh - we might take that as a Metaphor, maybe.

Because you are reading this here, I take that I have your attention. What I state here clearly dictates, hear as ye see, that you are most likely going to face different struggles or inconsistencies beyond the things that I have covered already - that is the nature of deception as it comes. If I from time to time suffer deception myself, how can ye think that I thereby am as well capable of solving out yours as well? It is a general Law that our world will not change by the efforts of a single man - or so did Jesus Christ decline in providing more of the generousity than that which he had given.

At some point we are all responsible of our selves - and that is where it begins. I have certain things to share in advancement to that which is of Enlightenment, but it feels difficult to defend these arguments in regards to the public common sense when not providing something of a barrier. Thus at first you will have to search for the entrance, which is the entrance to a directory given in the url of this file. When you do get there I consider that you are interested in knowing more of Enlightenment, while if you only do get there to have more material to contend against me, you are unwelcome. If you then go around and wave around with these things in front of people, you officially admit that you take away their freedom to independently explore these things. I say, in right of being the proprietor of my own message and oppinion, that it is important that the individual explore these things individually. For those that (legitimately maybe) feel worried that they themselves may be taken into a contention regarding these things, or that you are otherwise brought to the point where you would speak of these things - take note to yourself that actually you should there be speaking of your own experience. What I can do is to provide a manifestation of the way based on my experiences, which means that you should be looking for the general pathway based upon which your own experiences would grow. If I therein come to anything that should be globally post-worthy I'll come to put it onto the communications directory "instead".

If you so for instance however conceived it without having been here, I'd say, that I have provided you there a link to here and emphasized 'this statement' that you should read it first for 'those' are the rules that have been applied. As one so apparently had searched for something secret and has found what is otherwise known as arcane = Not entirely secret, but limitted in regards of access to it for various reasons = one must make such person aware of the conditions wherein the discovery exist, which hereby is being done the way it is being done here. The reason for this to have been removed from the general pool of information is because *shut up* - sotospeak - and those that don't have proven themselves to be ignorant fools; Except you so belonged to its Brotherhood, but - therein so resides a potential for more of this nonsense; Thus saying that I don't want/need anyone to wave around with these things in front of others; So to give it yet a term to become known as, let's call it "the Kill Bill argument" and "Enlightenment", where the secret is referred to as "the Five point exploding Heart technique". (exceptions are provided within the 'growth' directory (see file url /growth/...))

It is in essence here provided to be so that there are things I don't want anyone to contend about because I take them as isolated extrapolations of my own experience. If someone so came to oppose those statements, he were to say that he had a better experience than that and thus also claiming that his experiences found on greater wisdom. Thus it in the end remains yours to decide which school of wisdom you wish to learn of, so, that once you take the school of the art that I provide, you have made something like the decision of engagement which so must set yourself apart from other schools in a certain degree that allows you to unfold yourself based on the intricates provided. If anyone claims to know things better than that then you are in no place to doubt it hardly, but finally it must be your target to know things yourself so that you can tell better than that what you are believing in. Thus you choose, then you learn - and when you learned then you know of something and from that knowledge you will be capable of telling segments of right and wrong. That first and most importantly should matter to yourself, to not correspond your idea to Hypothesis that exists beyond your knowledge, but to consolidate your idea of what is 'Harmony with God'. Thus, if you really want to explore God you are free to explore all the possibilities, including mine. I would like to provide you something greater than this - but that would arguably mean that I would have won the Battle finally. Right now this all is "dubious Business" where only a few individuals matter effectively, so to present a basis to physically expand on this idea - or my way out of that grave. So, what I finally do, literally speaking, is that I'm asking for a certain grade of respect - while if one cannot give me that, he or she does so on the own individual responsibility which may eventually have severe consequences that are carried out by the Lord or otherwise going to occur.

What you understand from this is one thing, but be aware that it is either good for me or bad for me. Now, I don't wanna argue that everything that is bad for me is wrong, but more so to the point my experience advises me to say that rather everything that is good for me seems to be however wrong. I'm saying, that, projections wise some people now would want to learn more and basically so - the entire first Volume was somewhat about what now so would happen. Thereby we might come to argue that we have no way to settle this dispute unless I a), b) or c) - whatever. One of these things apparently also implies that I must not be told what is happening "because God". Is it that or is it that I am too insignificant to be told, well, what was it? I can't remember actually - there's so many roads and places - I cannot quite determine what now would be the primary thing. Well yeah, but anyway - "God must". I might draw you a picture but it involves feces so I let that be. Am I too dangerous, too treacherous and cannot be trusted which is why I get left to myself, or am I too 'measly', too sinsignificant to be regarded the honor of having any part to any of those things? Maybe though they just don't wanna have me there. I can understand that if it were a private party, I don't mean to intrude, but in the end it makes me sick that I cannot full-heartedly work on anything my way/I have pleasure on doing without constantly peeping accross my shoulder. But then on the other hand I can do "this" and "that" to ensure that I can keep things to myself but how long can I keep that up? Then eventually "we learn" to ignore the things I've written, the arguments I've come up with, as though we were searching for an alternative or something to solve that "conflict" but we then already have forgotten what we were searching for.
Then there is that parable that goes: "And there was a thick black fog, and all that wandered within it got lost, only those that held on to the iron rod would make it through" - and there is no passage that says: "And somebody went into that fog and drew a map of it". It is now 'that' what I say and I don't see anything wrong with it. But so, argument back and forth, we at some point so come to the apparent inconsistencies, bugs, errors, differences, etc.. Now, doubting the existence of God while asking down the codex of the "How come?" questions, that is one insignificant perimeter point - like if draw an image, there is this temple-plaza on which everything occurs - that is what matters. All the How Come questions get sorted into one tower that stands there next to that plaza, but isn't right away a part thereof. What so matters is the wall around the plaza - or its foundation - which is where I so would want to collect official arguments against my statements. That is hereby an offering of me when we came to speak of you having an interest to communicate with me. But while I so mean to be constructive, there is that point in the end which is where I'm asked to proof that I am not the Antichrist. So we're back to a), b), c) or d) part 2, which is where the story goes on about that while I mustn't be told, when I know I might be the Antichrist who has his spy system and thus cracking the one or the other secret from time to time. This is how we come to a conflicting "membrane", or so saying that the conflicts regarding the "How Come" questions exist on an entirely different basis of dilemma than the Antichrist issue. Eventually these knots have to be drawn and from time to time it seems as though people were asking me these questions I flabbergastedly cannot answer although I might know what they wanted to know but how come I there can't have my spies? So, the 'How Come' questions can very well be tied to the Antichrist issue in which case however I don't want to begin marking anything down. Eventually then however the How Come questions but the logic of the existence of God into doubt while the Antichrist issue establishes on the Fact that God exists. Thus the entire story isn't a Christian, but technically an Atheistic dilemma. The Atheist exists outside of the Scope of the Christian Religion, thus the Jewish, Muslim and Christian traditions don't mean anything except their common 'Avatar' - Jesus Christ or the various Prophets and Ancestors, maybe also then Moses, that however so in the individuals idea of God. Therein the question for 'How Come' that the Tradition exists may provide a certain grade of Paranoia thus possibly producing a respectively strong craving for keeping a material clean - metaphorically speaking - thus setting up perimeters and orders to so ensure that there is nothing deceiving going on. In this sense we speak of that habit as a 'natural corona'. It has a reason and based on that reason expands - while it thereby behaves differently to the conscious application thereof where the growth of the corona is confined within boundaries that support another than the own perspective. But it is however yet so that within this nature now anything that is being presented will be sortof ripped to shreds and shredded to ripps - like Matrix-2-Reloaded may serve as good example.
One would simply have to look at it for a while - and the position is clear: There is not 'more' God comming from that one, either way! There is a finite scope wherein this "Book" exists - and how it has become possible ... how it was made - that either travels into a close idea to God or an uber-gigantic conspiracy mechanism. From my perspective then this uber-gigantic conspiracy mechanism would however yet exist in contradiction to another one, and how complex and manyfold it might get it otherwise yet only remains one within 'the Alternative to God'.

So, how about the Antichrist issue now? How about any other issue now? How about issues in and of themselves? "All Illusions Mr. Anderson" vagueries of perception ... - temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose - and all of them as artificial as the Matrix itself - ... - it is the continous struggle to get back to the point I see. Essentially it goes: "Testimony" - "but how about this?" - yada yada, bla bla - this, but so, then, but how, that, ... - for, which are the major conflicts? If I explain a perfect Archaeological Model to the Book of Mormon, to so say that it is Archaeologically viable (which it is) - then "it" is saying that the Devil may have used actual happenings to inspire Joseph to that book, and "so signs go - here and there and so on and so forth". So we are arriving at the 'Dark Corona' of the Mormon Church(es) - eventually at some point - while here when accepting the Testimony the point of relationship to that Corona is different. What so matters rather than finding what is wrong is to find that which is right and from that which is right a central fortress can be built that makes the rest just so much easier. "Do you even know?". Two or one personage? Maybe two, but maybe not Father and Christ - maybe Christ and John? Who knows? While the story has so many different faces - it is difficult to tell if maybe not all are wrong on purpose! What stands here is the perfect example of a difference in perspective. While even one 'wrong' version from outside may be a big "shocking" is basically just a part of the story, a happening that can be concisely set into a certain time frame, while anything that came from it is as confusing as it stands not directly of import to the truth in the center. Thus saying that it is potentially even 'purposefully' wrong does here find its climax in separating a part of the own belief and setting it into its negative - without setting the entire belief itself into the negative. Whatever the point - even more so now weight is added unto the Testimony. What so matters is more that it is like a gift that allows us to 'be gnostic' about things. So, basically I do you more favours by being less detailed about everything than wrongs. So, lets assume that you had to acknowledge that I am the one, whatever that means in the Prophet/Antichrist/Award thinking, you shouldn't be surprised that an imbalance will arise that intends to overthrow this picture where I am in some of the worse spots possibly thinkable. Thus a general praxis is to right away think of it, extrapolate, and hold the different outcomes to mind. As "Handy Example" to not distort something as potentially valuable as this you might review any of your favourte show that are compatible to the idea and try to imagine, after so getting attuned to it, that the heroes are all bad guys, or way around - whatever your default 'anti-perspective' were. It begins to make an individual sense. But so there is this 'fluctuating current', metaphorically, that now would appear like lightnings that flash around the entirety of what I come to post on this site. Now, if you wondered that I am the Antichrist, what mattered is that you couldn't be sure whether I provide you with enough good knowledge on this site or not - thus you would basically be better advised to look elsewhere. Accepting that I am the one however would guide you to the previously stated material regarding this phenomenon, which is either true or not; But essentially you'd have to take my word for it. The more I wrote about it, the more feed I would add to the fluctuating current to spread and become unbearable eventually.
In other words you might wonder how far you would need to think before being able to trust it to the Testimony - and that question is relative to the things you have to study. I like to compare that to different Landscapes - or otherwise the different between a piece of nature and a piece of advanced Civilization. What matters is that behind the curtain its all in about the same, but naturally the view into the surrounding is different. Thus one would seek the most basic and principalistic set of ideas that are required to consolidate the Truth of the Testimony within your mind while from there then individually reflecting upon the things that are attached to it.
So, naturally to me this here comes to an end where I would extort the reader to ponder upon these things, while then however we might get back to how interesting it is that here and there are minor errors or that this and that in which or whatever context would reflect this or that light which onto the point is confirmed here or there in this or that text ... or is it just at all that simple that it takes time and repitition for my words to form enough cognitive base material so that it is perceptively understood what I'm telling here?

It seems to be that - only that - 'cognitive base material' or otherwise 'enough' of it which so is a struggle for who can talk better and longer - while, irony it would seem that the longer we so talked about the same thing, the brighter it would shine in the end.

... to be continued ...

Credits *

Maybe - so ironically - many of the credits go to 'Bill' or the corruption within the System, for without it, much of all this wouldn't have been necessary. Their "impervious ways" provided me with much of the Elements that I've needed to accomplish this task to a such satisfying and full-covered degree. Furthermore I would like to express that their treacheries have given me more need to grow steadfastly within my faith so that we might call this as much his child as it is mine - that now finally found a consolidated form within this convergence with the Matrix of Art.

I would so also thank all the people that work within this Matrix, while as much as I had to credit Bill, I also have to credit these that individually provide us with good examples - such as found within Stargate or various other arts such as found within the Capcom Label. Thanks for the good times as well as the bad, and very well so also for the Love that is being put into detail as so providing us with a rich Level of Entertainment.

So, also great thanks to the Team behind these movies (Kill Bill Vol. 1 and 2) - where, without disrespect, note that its role in this was much greater than it might seem. Without having a guideline within these Chapters and their Content, I would have most likely lost my way within the confusion of my own thought. It is in fact anger that drives me into this thing, where many times I have sought to conclude myself within this topic. It sounds strange at first but maybe at some point it doesn't - which is when we look at the same thing individually instead of sneaking it all into my perception of things. What I'm looking at seems unfair to me and so I get angry when I realize that things I did were being used shamelessly by other people to their own self-glorification - wildly deceiving individuals, as though intentionally murdering them by the abuse of their own lack in insights.
I don't know how much of it is true and that always keeps me looping in circles, comming to different edges here and there, but that is how I eventually found a Form in these movies that would fit those things. It matter of fact had been "foretold" within a dream where there was a person at a party that was celebrated for me, that gave me a book that at first seemed white, but as it reached my inner periphery of cognition it turned black and it was titled "My Hate for Bill". It so seemed logical to me to eventually express things this way, so when I would ever feel inspired to write anything like that. At some points I wondered myself where this would end - since knowing that within the past I was lost but am now bound to a list of items wherein everything is supposed to finally conclude. It is finally and after all that striving for some more respect, but it is much more since this demand is basically born from within a given wrath that exists within a general state of upsetness against various things. It silences from time to time but so is like an invisible fortress that floats around in mind - while the silencing is a way of letting it go, forgetting about it, certain anger attracts its presence "you Understand?" and that way certain things that got forgotten are called back up to memory and enfused with another rich memory of so. So I would otherwise want to sit down and formulate the problem I see within this situation, whereby the anger however is a strong factor and hence I may have been easily blinding myself whilst lacking a form of expression.
Vegeta is "like that guy", he who in his heart bears a certain thing which in a certain grade of reality doesn't count. Eventually so within this here I came to understand a general point of the matter. It is a compilation of all the problems that in fact lessen my enjoyment in living, be it from the immediate relation to ways of life that alternate from the own perspective on things or by general misconditions in this world; While therein somewhere a way must be found. The end-point is to provide that message - the one that prevails at the end so that the Mission is finally my new Perspective here, ... but it vanishes. But that may not be the point here either! What matters is that things have done this way, whatever good it may bring!
To that point however - I may review 'the writing about Love'. Love, for me, in its highest and most exquisite form is a guarantee so that in the end there is only one real option. This idea somehow brought me into hardships I might have avoided if I wouldn't have thought so; But I eventually learned to distinguish certain things from each other and at least have a narrowed down perception of what works pretty well at least. That is to say that I eventually have my reasons to believe that - and while it may not be my duty or anyway asked from me to ignore that anything else might be right in contradiction to what I believe, I still see there a certain "Misery" that so takes shape within that what is otherwise known as common sense therein as it specifically lacks the will or the motivation to adapt certain ideas that would be like columns for instance. Now, finally then, what options do I have other than not writing about anything there? It is entirely un-welcome I feel and when I want to know more about that feeling I see that it is as though there were a person making this decision for you. It runs around everywhere there where the ideas may be welcome - so that before it grows into 'that' direction, all the good stuff has been waved aside and principal dedication spent onto the weeds so that they may flourish accordingly. Now, it is however not only that! On top of that, we may be calling it the 'topping cream', there is this issue - that he so may be in Love with me or my Aetherial form; And so there is this point that like I was "blinded" as I would say - he is equally blinded and thus reading his mind into anything where the bigger part of the problem is that he may not want to accept that he doesn't mean anything to me. The hypothetical struggle or discussion about it - or otherwise my correspondence to the filtered end-result of those feelings - takes me then to a person that knows and understands what is going on within these emotions that attracted me to "them" and just having been into it for once so opens up gate to the points of what I might be willing to do. So, he very well might not be that moron that the one or the other might draw from this; Saying he "knows" that there are a range of reasons why I wouldn't "comply" - but that's not exactly the point either. He has a God complex and thus his world spins around the world as he makes it, while the things he has to make it are limitted. Therein, at least so some time ago, at least that is when I also closed the topic for myself, it seems to me that he isn't capable of understanding anything beyond that wherein "his domain" now is founded where at the basis between true righteousness and his idea of righteousness is some weird amalgamation between providence, dick-headedness and a range of other, maybe good and maybe bad qualities wherein he so takes a demanding stance - where now every particle, sotospeak, wherein I harmonize with his idea, is now basically a reason for him to hold on to me - while so I have to accept that I cannot really blame him for that as it would seem like he is simply a victim to his own menthal disorders; And the problems of resolving that eventually go further than simply emotions. But that isn't quite the end yet! Effectively the emotional stance of myself to him so is hardening around a range of given insights and emotions in which I must practically compare him to an annoying parasite - a Gua'Uld (Stargate) maybe - where I might add that he maybe should take an example in Ba'al, you know, would make a much more pleasant person of him; Whereby pleasant is relative though. I'd say though that in Stargate he plays that invisible person in the Background that is behind the NID or Trust, whatever. So it however happens from time to time that at times I write something I feel he could get the wrong way, as I also from time to time get the feeling that others as well might get something the wrong way - and so I begin to digress; Or the elaboration of a single thing like this takes me into a larger scope wherein now there are threads and ties to here and there; And eventually I get lost therein. It's a little bit like filling out a region of space with a pen - where ordinarily one would start by drawing a frame, then procedurally working the way from one corner into the other, it to me is sometimes a little bit more like just randomly walking into given space and walking around aimlessly; That so until I eventually see the outlines. Again something to blame myself for - sotospeak - and like there is that invisible fortress of wrath, there also is this invisible fortress of consolidation. When so talking about "the Snake Charmer" - we can take a look at the ending of the movie. Bill tried to elonguate the time of their conversation - while after Kiddo landed the final blow we could say that the charm he tried to spell on her began to work, while actually she would feel a certain relief and just stop to resist. When I draw these hypothetical confrontations where it's me versus him on the battleground of explaining ourselves in face of the public - the story firstly doesn't go on these ways anymore. What then happens is, so to my sight, that he looses ground as I proceed to expand my convinction in reflection to the odds he presents and then is by sheer habit proceeding within his charming tactics. If we so drew a line through the center of the stage, a line of respect, he'd dare to cross that to so, as gesture, put his hand into my face to strive some hair to the side. Snap Hand, twist, bam! That's my response to that then, so, in my imagination. The more I then would feel him trying to charm me using weird emotional waves of whatever - the more I'd be willing to hurt him more - or, the less I'd withdraw myself from proceeding with doing so. Which then in another image takes me to the point where I'd be expecting him to act that way but he wouldn't. It is the negative thereof, where he isn't trying to charm me but where he is taking that stance of expecting me to loose control. But in this image nothing really happens because all that he does is standing there, trying to avoid anything, even talking, being all dumb so that I might actually want to just go over there and ... that is the ugly point. What he does, as I see it, is that he avoids paying attention to me, so there is no conversation in the center that would in anyway do what we would be there to do. It is around that point somewhere, where to me the story isn't about right or wrong anymore, but about me finding my way back to my anger. May it be a mistake or not, there is yet a simple logic underneath. He will try to consolidate his position in a likelihood of peace and friendship, so, being the man who is all good and righteous; For, if not being so is an understatement to his divine grace then of course that doesn't work in his idea of his world and thus it is wrong and while he is infallable it is certainly not the right ending. So, that implies that at any point I would regard myself to having written something good - even if perfect - it can't be finally that at least not once so getting there. Essentially I'd so have to beg pardon for my imperfections. Anyway, I do so have a certain problem with this image of his, while when it so comes to smacking a crack into his apparently perfectuated image - my anger is my primary "trace" of that side of his, effectively. Not writing about it however doesn't allow me to realize it this clearly, while writing about it would constantly lead me in circles not knowing what to look for. - Now have I then been inspired to use this article to remove certain parts of my business from the official sides of this page - where as it stands that would be wrong because not too long into the future the joke would be that I was serious about them things, that something would be missing to make that hidden compound work out as featured part of this article - wherein you can already see a carefully planned out way to bypass all measurements of reason and protection that I have implemented to ascertain a certain scope of personal freedom. Respect so isn't to me as someone who is boasting like Pei Mei would, but more like: Would you please stop shitting into my living rooms, toilets are down the hallway! It is the simplified climax of this story because - it should be obvious that it is this person who doesn't respect sensitive matters if they don't exist in his favour. So, sometimes there is no difference between me writing about something specific or just about my expectations of what would happen to whatever I wrote there. It takes time for your comprehension to draw the solid lines you can relate to - so take note if anything comes and tries to break them!
I have however finally found my own way to handle these "sensitive issues" - which is to basically take shape within Chaos and Unreason. Thereby I force the reader into a bottleneck to comprehend how it comes that I do so. Thus when I act careless, or so, not seeming to be interested to engage into a conversation or to oppose every nickel and dime of an odd, whatever - I deem doing so being beyond my dignity and self-value. So the reader is bound to accept that even if I were the good person, I wouldn't necessarily bother so that the reader is automatically one step closer to being supposed to find his own way and hence may come to get the 'even if' to a more sensible point. Furthermore is his gracefulness so practically a matter of Order and Reason - while naturally that is his order and his reason so that whatever I say is just a way of saying that I must give him the chance to come up with something. Naturally it takes time, sometimes, it takes time. Being however chaotic and unreasonable in essence doesn't allow him to "touch" me, or if he so tries to be chaotic and unreasonable to match my being therein, well, what is he? He is a Level 1 Paladin that accidentally signed up for the wrong class System and thinks that shape-shifting is a Paladin skill. Chaos and Unreason are furthermore the essence of personal vengeance or furthermore self-justice or being vigilant, so philosophically, which is otherwise also the position of being a Judge. Ordinarily a Judge would be bound to the Law, but eventually the Law is imperfect so that some other basis of speaking Justice has to be found. So we speak of Righteousness but then we may argue about what Righteousness is - being Ordered and Reasonable - while if the definition so doesn't correspond well to my likings - there at first is only tension. Taking it slowly that is, or so, it is what naturally would occur. We might give it to anger that it is a very primary emotion that doesn't right away legitimize the reason for right. If now, time passed by, this tension is fed by more and more injustice happening - it grows beyond being simply tension while therein also growing intellectually. Now, on the one end we see the logic - that there so is a problem that one now may come to speak of; On the other hand we however find the essential forces implied. The one was wrong but doesn't want to loose his power, so he will try to consolidate the situation - like - the feedback shall be regarded and period. Else I'd be unreasonable for provoking a fight. For now dwelling within Chaos and Unreason I however have, I might say, experiened a certain training. That says that first of all God, my Master, taught me of His existence within reality and I have learned to act on His advise, yet also thereby aligning myself to His presence within me. As I say does this not happen without God consolidating something like an individual identity within the individual, so something that corresponds to the individual and is well within His ideal between right and wrong. While learning of his way and my way I learned of the freedom I have - while this all basically happened within a world of Chaos and Unreason and so that environment isn't stranger to me. It is however only my mind finding an environment wherein I find myself relatively free and distant from this mockery. We might say that the more time passes on, the more I'm fed by finding refuge there and hence am basically growin in these things. Eventually however it does at some point grew beyond sarcasm, humor, or the circumstance. We might say that something therein attracts me to it as though it were my nature to be there. What I'm so looking for is the point of revenge, the 'Truth' sotospeak that resides in the center of all this - while it is just that I express it that I respectively yield all the negative, while certainly there are many ways to just vaguely or more deeply travel through this area. The problem is though the one that if this quest didn't take me to a result that could be handled by writing anything down, so, if I had to finally go and kill someone for instance, how is this story to end? Well, first of all, just assuming that this might be the outcome doesn't mean that it right away is, or at least, there might be other ways.
We might now so be comming to that point where the reader/viewer has concluded the "movie" for himself but some author or director or producer meant of certain things that they yet would belong into it - the final product. So bear with me - that there are two general reactions you sooner or later are going to fall victim to. The one way is to toss this away, "bullshit" sotospeak, the other is to demand or expect something more; A "desire" that can however also turn into the question "now what do you expect/propose?" (directed at me). So, either my reach wasn't far enough to capture you, or you so understood certain things but now subconsciously - first of all - wonder why it isn't going further or onward. That at some point directs your sight onto the road where you live your life and maybe forget about this at all. At some point you might remember this or that, while pardon me if many of those thoughts take you into weird formulations of mine - where in the picture I would or might seem like I'm squeezing my nose shut and moving my mouth with the other hand. I hope to get rid of that; While at some point that isn't just my work. As excuse consider that taken the length of a text each individual would have had different reasons to object, so that all points of view taken into account the text could at all be better by many ways of measurement. Sometimes though you have to notice that it is in deed you that lack behind, only that. Anyway ... it is however that once I captured you, there is a hypothetical negotiation going on which however is riddled into the branches of time. Now just stomping what what you as individual might need at time up from the ground - as necessary as it be - isn't necessarily cutting it or being virtually possible within my given situation. Now, at some points there now have to be these concentric pillars of Light and Justice - while eventually I lack the capabilities to now visualize the significance of the Testimony to you as within the current status of correspondence, that so in combination with the presentation of the rest. May it now be the perception I lack or the tools or the vision, or time or a combination of the three in time, plus what I basically can and cannot do ability/knowledge wise, but there is there. First of all. Then, for when 'now' time will tell, since back then time has told, at least a certain part to the story, so it doesn't hurt to just picture that ideal case scenario wherein I now stand. So while I in essence at first only say "shut up", this "shut up" isn't from me unto you per-se, it is directed from a certain location in this into a certain direction in this. If he wouldn't, he ruined my only space for observation sotosay. Because I try to provide a spiritual Message,

that is: [*Locked and Conceiled up in here*] (for why else would I write this? No secrets attached!)

but don't have an "inner courtyard" sotospeak while I neither speak unto My Desciples but out into the Crowd - there is that what is called "verbal slaying" that I hereby addressed something unto.

Whereby in general I try to make clear: That each one who is interested in more good to come from this, shall be advised to have certain space for the own mind to unfold - and certain things intentionally left to the own self to discover which certainly is also in need to be given time. That also means - in freedom to this. Ignore it if you must, or use it as a certain guide if you feel like it could help you out anywhere.
And don't expect me to come unto you because that is not how it works nowadays. As a place to rest up, I would like to inspire you to read in the book of Mormon - but thinking of it I see your misery. But - maybe so - find some scans of the book and try to sync up what I provided in the Testimony segment in your own way. That would show yourself what comes from when putting a little care into just and exactly that kind of thing; And try to comprehend along within what there is of concern to you. I did that a long time ago and this way and that way, I did it again ... but what matters isn't how shiny it looks at the end, maybe, what matters is that you comprehend thereby better what it is. So, when I say 'Teotihuacan' you say, when you hear or see it the first time possibly not much different than me. But when at times I might for instance drop the word 'Teotihuacan' I expect, or must or may, that the readers understand what is implied when I do so. There we can make it straight that when you know what it is, you so have your own implications - or when you're anti-regarding me you build your own in direct contrast to mine. But still knowing what mine are would largen your understanding of the implications I make when using it so that you shall understand in which the implications I make are wrong. So would I largen my understanding of certain things if given a response to lets say: What does and doesn't make sense to you about this. That is a personal problem because I say I have nobody to talk to this deep about those things. Nobody really understands why I do, what I do, but when regarding that some fail at copying what I say when they believe that Prophets cannot hail in this world - I see that I'm lost! Soon I may have, so this changes depending on perception anyway. Where now I say O-Ren, I later might think of someone else - or you think of yours where I think of mine. We might settle this on the score that when I got what I wanted, that I will be peaceful, but that isn't quite solving the source of my anger. I still have this urgent problem that I don't find any way to have it been made properly public that I discovered a most viable and realistic position of Eden and that the view is quite Amazing! Now certainly it takes time, as it did in my case, for the own mind to come to the case realistically that it is in deed Eden and matter of fact the most obvious and simple answer to all things concerning the Bible. Then one is offended by the mistrust or something, where now one would wonder how to defend this statement to someone. When someone got beyond that point - saying, by any means, like an individual belief or anything that responds with the discovery into the same obviously clear direction - one does already understand a general counter-stance towards everything related. So maybe, I wonder, I could have done more here and less there, but in essence, where the thing is out its out, and when its out its out! ... err ... on! But what does it take from here to there? Or is it too late? What do I need to provide when it is out? What is the impact that comes from it? All things that may range from the vision of a harsh and strong storm down to a luke bupe of a wind. I by now barely even recall anymore that it exists, I have my mind into entirely different things now, while what I mean to say is barely if you like what you see - but that I have a range of underlying statements that support the topic into further directions "as of my sight". Now, have I the right to say "as of my sight"? Have I the right to say that it is I who found it or must I say that I am one who has found it? So nice seems the trashcan statement here, the, or would I have to apologize for claiming that I am one who found it? If then we got us a problem, and I don't like having problems - I have enough of my own! Which brings me back to the reason why we are here! So maybe there is this problem that when two remain who claim to have found it - how to settle the dispute? At that point this might be called a Bar-Fight that arises from this issue previously stated. But so even more now the demand to the public person to have an eye out on these things, to know what you subscribe to when you make a vote - and that now is what I have to say about the journey of my "revenge". It ends when it ends, when every last bit of false religion is extinguished - and One Love may rule the world!
So thanks, "Team Tarantino", it has been a pleasure watching these movies! From times to times not - but that is a matter of perspective.

I finally also would like to apologize for all my different mis-adequancies and ill grown thorn here and there.

Last but not least I also want to thank you for reading!

"My Hate for Bill" (as in 'Kill Bill' [Metaphor])