Fairy Tales - 01 - Insanity (the Origins)
Well - any comments on: "The Origins"? So - OK, OK - we don't like Sex; And me saying that I like Electro Shocks would be an overstatement too! So - nobody likes the idea of Free/Open Sex, and so - welcome to the pit of blurry outlines.
... This is a fucked up topic! It would need someone to look at it, at the right spot from the right direction - so that I won't be stuck in a boolean (black and white, either or) problem. Blurry!
Things go back to things that go back and backer which again go back and so on - who really knows the Truth of things? You must agree however that if I lets say, well - said that its all non-sexual and all of a sudden boom and it is yet sexual; While otherwise I have tried to tell you that its going to be that --- the problem is: You can't 'decide' what its going to be if the matter is set and fixed. So again I get into a curve that aims straight into it, and the end, you should know where that takes. But then again I feel like it maybe was too much, to narrow minded; And again - this takes me into a curve that aims straight back into it; Though something is different. There is up and down and lets say that there is a margin wherein things are stright. Above is bad and below is bad.
Now, I want to agree with everybody who has the sober attitude that whats pictured in "the Origins" is simply too much - or confused or something - however gaining distance. Over and over however the Truth seems to be though that the opposite is the case - but, in that sense I'm simply 'deepening' or 'widening' the scope where I find myself; So; Necessarily the same should happen to any other 'less obscure' way of life. It is a back and forth where anything from little to much can be correct.
You maybe don't want to fuck your Mother or Father or Son or Daughter ... (yet :)) ... and things like that, or you can't imagine how I would truly be able/accepted to live the way I wanted. Or we might wonder "what up with them Celestial Celebrities" or how we could ever achieve more than wondering up a bubble of fantasy and imagination.
Sometimes I also feel like there is another type of individuals that reacts through some sort of jealousy - where I described something that I think is me while they would want to be that and then I add that its me and they wouldn't accept it. Or maybe you thought of somebody else. The simpler math however were: I 'am something' and adding that to who I am as of yet, projected into the time where I "broke through" - doesn't ask for any of that; Although: One might wonder if I wasn't the one who thought wrong as fueled by some twisted envy.
Be it as it may ...
What I write is one thing. At first it may have simply been intutition as to think of Sex, later it may have been a matter of self-defense as to explain how come I can live the way or do the things I did (prostitution); While also trying to get my head straight about whom I love or whom I shouldn't think of and all that - so that eventually it all and all summed up and proclaimed my initial question mark as intuition ... so uhm. That is one thing. But what will really add weight to it is the mass. The problem there would rather be: Is what we would do the consequence of me having told it would be that way, or was I telling how I guessed it would be and "accidentally" happened to be right?!
Where I'm guessing is that projecting from my feelings into what should be is right. So, I'm whatever I am, feel like I do and enjoy whatever I have pleasure in - and there I'm not guessing! The guess is that these things tie into and come from and fuel some ... emotional 'Network' as there the next question might be: Is it fueled by me so that I have actual control about it? Or is it something I don't effectively have any control upon? ???
Its "Mind-Fucking" if you go on that way because where are the answers? You simply have to come up with a Hypothesis of how what I describe of me can have a different reason than the one I think of and well, believe in it! Or use it to produce doubt! This is like 'the Thick Fog' you can't possibly get through on your own! Eventually one theory may turn out to be dominant and thus providing the illusion of a 'logical explenation' - but that is oppinion as opposed to me who has a long and strong legacy of founding on the Lord!
You might want to doubt that - again - or you try to have one on your own! That is anyway the central pillar of everything!
If you can't believe and simply take that as an omen against all odds with nothing but your stubborness as indicator - the problem is there, in you!
As of Child-Abuse, that is the strongest example on what weight and mass is all about! In an uninspired image you could imagine that I'd say that this is gonna happen and you'd be reluctant to disagree while some ... people .... make it happen and all you could do would be to watch. An inspired image would tell you that if something like that is going to happen - then you can be sure that its fake!
The point is sure: If our Civilization is ever going to focus around Sex, that will sooner or later also have influence on our offspring. To get beyond the problem of stopping there and that because of that is one of the big and strong "selling points" of looking on your own self. You may feel guilty or ashame - but neither would we start 'there', exactly with Child-"Abuse". Anyone who is Pedophile should take that to heart as well and certainly try to not think of it as much as possible. It is rather easy to stumble upon a single point and be all upset while entirely forgetting about the amount of other things of which one is something you'd like - while in this sense it is again rather easy to twist that into the Child problem - but all fuels each other, not all only one!
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I could go on like how you don't know how things are - as for instance emotions do tell more than just what we might wanna do next or aim for in general; But more on point is it to speak of a Metamorphosis. You might take me as a Symbol. This makes you think of what I would want to be and so you'd say no and so it would end there (here/now). That however isn't the issue. If you don't let me be who I will be - as simple as that - I won't be what I should be! So you might wonder is it your prejudice or mine/ours that makes onthing good happen? If for instance my feelings about me were truely random - and I'd so be confronted with someone else who should be harmonic to that but also turns out to have simply random ideas of itself - that in all simplicty won't resolve properly! One might add 'strength' to that, as in who is stronger at persuing its interests - but that is a second step into that direction. Taking another, a first one, step into another one is to see how "enlightened harmony" might simply grow dominant, thus adjusting both to each other without breaking the individuals 'identity'.
So is it: Random vs. Order. Keep that in mind! If 'Order' is the case you can throw all 'Random issues' over board - snap and done, just like that - and so we can save ourselves a whole lot of trouble. Random on the other hand is effectively still following equal ideas, based on the individuals strength, where we assume that we'll simply do whatever we feel like doing in the moment. But - trick 17 - this does eventually not always turn out well because if everything is random there is nothing you could rely on; Not even your spouses loyalty. To ensure your spouse to be loyal you'll have to make sacrifices, eventually pay a detective, and if anything weird happens all you can do is argue or throw around with things. So, 'every day life' kindof - nothing new. As for that in the sense of Order though - there is the tiny little adjustment of removing the 'if' from whatever you desired - thus having something of a certainty that things will always go well. This is the fundamental (hypothetical) reason for Sexual Freedom to work out harmonically - without problems through jealousy or physical deficits. My problem however is that my own self-understanding doesn't settle me within this realm of "Randomness" - I'm a 'Slave'!
There is that uber-statement: "There are no Slaves in Heaven" - which might seem contradicting - but, saying: "There are no Slaves in Heaven" has a meaning. So we might want to continue in response to questions, like: What is the definition of a Slave? But otherwise the truth is that this statement wants to express something - and getting stuck on the 'Slave' term it is nontheless as ambigous as the term: 'Slave'. There is a chance that this statement is a simplification of a more elaborative and less ambigous one - which may be: "Nobody in Heaven is Forced to do anything for anybody against its will". Thus, arguing that I mustn't be a slave is, in that sense, an act of enslaving me to some fancy idea of Freedom!
What a Slave is can at this point be explained - even as "non-slave-ish" as: A slave simply has no interest in actively searching for "Random Encounters", but may very well be more complicated than that. Whatever the point is it so in focus that there is a separative line between ways of reasoning. The one knows life as a "Randomness" - this way the individuals 'social plane' is basically wide and open. I'm bad at music and the more people I know that are good at it the more it gets clear to me that we simply think inherantly different. Of someone who likes music I heard the statement that to him everyhing is "One Amorpheous Mass" in comparison to which I see my way of reasoning to be 'stubborn'. OK, everybody has stubborness here and there - but the difference is like between a cloud and a network of railroads. Other people may see squares where other see circles - internally - as a visualization of the own 'way of thought'. So is this separation line a first one - while other ones may exist in relation to totally different focal points.
So can we for instance see multiple 'types' on either side of the line, then in regards to another one again but neither side containing the same individuals as the previous one. So does it happen that if you think, in response to the term of 'Metamorphosis', of me - you might find it to be a rather long way to go - while to me, I didn't even have to move. So is it my 'suggestion' that nobody has to move at all. You are what you are - but notheless is that burdained with problems and in itself a problem here and there; Which most of the time might not be a heavy issue but if you think of Love and you'd still wanna argue that 'problems are desirable' ... well, keep in mind that I think differently about it! Maybe there is a place, like Warriors Heaven, where problems are matter of fact a part of it; And no doubt - as a Sex-Slave I'll have problems too, they basically are what makes 'Slavery' work - but nontheless is there a core group of problems next to many many others that don't need to be!
It may be deceiving to read about me and my desire to grow stupid, mindless, mechanical and all that - as from your perspective the idea that Enlightenment is "dumbing things down" may appear to be strong! From my perspective are things however not dumbing down - me dumbing down myself isn't a matter of being more compatible or less problematic; It is a way of making way for more ecstasy; Celebration of Perversion or simply identifying myself as prisoner and sex-slave. Sex-Slave on its own however doesn't require that, neither does Prisoner; Although making sense of a prisoner role will be hard without it. It even causes problems,
simply because my mind grows nontheless and anything that is 'dumbed down' for real is eventually producing deficits within a vacuum of intellect and will therefore sooner or later "want to" 'break free'. In a 'multiple lives' or respectively 'multiple identities' scheme that isn't really problematic because each 'next restart' will provide a stage of intellectual growth before the brainwashing will take place, eventually. This can at first seem to be a problem because in this world we don't have that much amount of options - but also is life in this world unique - we might compare it to 'bioloigcal fragility'. We have to sleep, each other day may put us into an entirely different mood and while sometimes hours pass like a second, seconds sometimes feel like hours. OK, maybe not that much - but simply speaking is it a matter of the 'unique demands of balance' that this physical world imposes. On the other side is our psyche flexible - where my experience is that from one moment to another the entire mood, mindset, attitude and so can change 180 in an instant. So while I am free, enjoying video games or fooling around with friends the one second - I can be dull and devote the very next - like once someone specific enters the room maybe!
These are the things to keep on mind once an 'individuality' seems too strange for you!
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