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Have you ever heard of the Testimony? Well, you should have, since it is known as a legitimate link to Understand from God, finally, once the way is clear before you, whether its the right way to go or not! It is after all, so do some believe, the only way to ever be legitimately walking the way in the Light of Christ!
Beyond that, what do you believe about Enlightenment? You might want to know more about the one someone who is walking in the Light of Christ is talking about!
Believe! Well - what an advise?! Sometimes we though must! Many issues revolve around some things - important things - like human Nature! Thus, what do you think about Baptism? Can we be cleansed? Can our minds be redeemed from the spoil that drags us down? Simply through the Mercy of God?
What do you know about the Doctrine? Well, speaking of that what God wants from us, what we may or may not do, should and shouldn't - that is 'Doctrine'. But what is of Christ and what is of Man - and what makes the difference?
What - thats a good question - does it though mean to be Like a Child? Is it a request for turning imbocile? Moronic? Childish? Or on the other hand rather a metaphor to the simplicity of life? The existence as human being that is reigned upon by a heavenly Father who holds the obligation to raise us - properly? Ever knew the difference between a good and a spoiled child?
Its a question along the lines of asking for a lot of other things - trivia-ish - like, what do you know about the Atonement? Does it make sense that Christ died on the Cross? Wouldn't we need something else? But on the other hand, when it just happened that way, what does it say?
Questions upon Questions, but which do finally matter?

The Twilight Zone - ... eh? Well, let me tell you one thing: The Absolute Truth 'does' Exist! It is only a matter of finding it - where - the Symptom of a Spoiled Generation is the fact that people keep thinking that it cannot be found! Who looked for it? Popped a coin into the Machine that reads: "God - a coin, a wish!"? Got nothing from it? Conclusions?

Isn't it so that the "ordinary and rational" human being would suggest - that God bears a responsibility to us, for us to find him? But isn't that like saying that Weather has a responsibility as well, and if it won't come the way we want it to we're obliged to tell that it doesn't exist? It's ordinary Chaos, a product of causes and effects that kicked loose once upon a time during an incident known as the Big Bang or whatever was true prior to it. Truth! Apparently! - Well - let me tell you another thing: I call it the flow of behaviour. Think of a very stubborn person who wouldn't listen to anything - and all that he'd ever do is having things his way until there is someone more stubborn than him. There is no sense or reason in what unfolds from such people, its just their way and nothing else to be discussed about. That is why God is hiding. It is because once you lectured a person like that it is because of providing him a wall he cannot break through. All he'll ever do from there on is nothing different to before, he'll just understand to avoid that wall - eventually. On the other hand, those that look for Him, try to figure out what His will for himself is, they are walking the way rather than hitting the walls!

We might say: That God, if He existed, should behave the way He would - because thats God! (And I say 'if' only to assure you that the conclusions left to be made are on your end! I believe! No doubt! But whether it is right or wrong to put it this or that way, that is a subjective oppinion! I for my part did it this way now, and do it different ways other times!) It may be an obscure and argumentatively weak phrase - but it holds Truth nontheless. Its like saying: Whatever there is beyond that door, is beyond that door - believe it - or not! - and the way God, that most High being that above all other things that Exist deserved this Title, would know best how to behave in Light on being himself!
It is not ours to turn away and judge Him by the way we desire Him to be - it is not ours while we ourselves have no reason about right or wrong, good or bad, being ourselves too immature, too lost in a world that is nowhere near divine conditions; But ours to figure out what in term God should want us to fit into and to go from there!
We've in-deed been put into a world of egos! Our own ego and that of others! Naturally in the grand scheme of things our little mind may mean nothing - dust like a corn of sand on the beach - but in the grandest scheme of things it is yet our mind, our ego, our mindset of compliances, that determines the big and broad of how things are and will be!

If you realize that we by no means have the power to move anything as an individual against the great Power of Babylon you'll realize that this is where the Story of Christendom takes off, its where it all begins. Let me tell you something, something that may or may not belong into this, something either trivial or just of minor importance, but something: You may perceive all of this here - this setup - as the presentation of a thesis, a thesis that goes: Sexual Freedom and the Gospel aren't mutually exclusive! I'll provide you with a tight background of knowledge and wisdom regarding these things - and we'll see! We'll see whatever there has to be said about it! The question is: What will finally be the right answer? Take it as an experiment! In deed, built upon the coin-flipped mindset of understanding God for a sadistic being with the intent to torture us for evermore, yet suggesting that this Terrarium we're living in has been built from a different perspective! An experiment to find out: How solid are the arguments? How tight our Understanding of a greater living being? I'll issue three general approaches on that matter: The one will go and quote from the scriptures how this or that is wrong. The other will simply go on way of oppinion. The third will be footing on a conscious and elaborative understanding of all things considered. To the point of the end: What is true?
Yet a word on that: True isn't what we or the majority believes in - except we so happen to believe what is right! Therefore I believe - try to make sense of that to believe what is right - and if anyone begs to differ its of course that persons right, the same right - or rather than a right is it just so!

Can we be one-minded about anything? Well, to my extremes, did I so happen to recognize that often its due to a matter of acceptance and acknowledgements. Do I acknowledge that Lifestyle? What if I don't? What would it matter to me if I did? - Would anything change and if - what would make it any better? Trying to change peoples minds to believe as I do, or trying to change mine as I allow God to make me understand?

The Gospel according to Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger

Well, I so happen to be Trans-sexual. Not only that! I must have been around 8 years old when I made my first experiences with Bondage - that is - bondage as in BDSM. That was when I bondaged myself. I couldn't sleep and was restless and somehow just felt it, felt that it would be nice if I could wear a skirt - a slim one - or something like that; And thus I slipped with both of my legs into one of my Pyjamas legs. It felt nicer! I also took the top of my Pyjama to then tie my hands behind my back. Why exactly I did it? Well, I had at least not seen anything of that sort before. It was something like an Inspiration I guess. It felt right! And so did it feel right after I had done it! It wasn't something that kept stuck on my mind after that - I didn't know what to make of it and neither did I think of it or remember a lot of it ... for some time!

This to me is like the perfect getup for an individual to grow into a life against the Gospel its Parents were preaching. We used to be Seventh Day Adventists, which is to say as much as: Every "sect"-ish Christian community is like a Den for believers that take the life according to rules seriously. Its not just: Every Sunday to Church, eventually - nope - its a solid Ritual. But so was I setup to basically go against all the Rules, not intentionally as from a rebelling mind, just ... cause thats what is me! I would have to believe that I'm Ill, menthally, that I have to endure some metaphoric rituals of Excorcism - if we were catholic maybe even literal ones - that thus I would naturally grow distant from the Christian faith - and yes, well, I kindof did! I however wasn't ever an unbeliever! I made myself clear to God. I told Him that I believe that He exists, but that I from there on [different Story] didn't care anymore. I was just me.
Eventually I got back to it and realized how God had provided so much more than just empty words of do this and that, and building upon that insight I wanted to learn more and eventually had to realize that there aren't quite as many do this and thats as I was left to imagine! Short end to the Story: Eventually I got back to things that tied those old Memories of my Childhood back into my awareness - and although I initially did believe that, sorry, I was crazy or ill, I couldn't change it. Maybe I didn't try hard enough but anyway did I sooner or later just get along with it -and- make my peace with God thereby.

Naturally this is the most Loyal and True reflection on the Gospel that I can give you - all thats beyond the nonsense of quarreling about how this or that in the Bible is to be Understood, but as Christ said: Not a single yota is to be taken from the law - do I not mean to ignore those things. It so happened to be a matter of the nature of my Faith that I at first had to learn about it before I could embrace my nature therein. I had to undo those misconceptions of a doctrine that I couldn't find there in the Bible - to my Understanding! Understanding! Thats what made the Magic happen for me! Instead of reflecting about a Verse and wondering what it would say, I tried to Understand the Message. I figured that the people in those Stories, given that they were real, knew what to Say or write from somewhere - and I wanted to know from where - or - rather get that kind of an Understanding myself.
The most prominent Verse to underline that must be found in the passage where someone asked Christ about the most important Laws. Christ answered: Love your next as you Love yourself and God upon everything - but what I'm getting at is the 'closing line': Those Laws are what the Prophets and the Law are founded on. It means that there is a basic Logic from where the big idea of all the rest could be concluded or deduced - and understanding that, so I argue, is the most promising endeavour into the Scriptures!

My reasoning did in that become a little bit, well, abstract we might say in some points. For instance is there the Prophecy that speaks of Immanuel. That is one of those Prophecies that got fulfilled in the comming of Christ - naturally - something much older than the Stories of the Gospel. They speak of 'the Son of David', and while the Bible begins to "introduce" Christ, or the Messiah for the purpose, it is just that bit of reason that the whole Story itself needed! I would come to speak of these prophecies once being allowed to roam freely within figures to elaborate what this Understanding I mean to have implies. It may not sound related - but as the story goes on, or rather begins, it comes together! See, the thing is that the time during which those Prophecies were made is after David, that puts us into the era of the Kings of Juda and Israel - an era where Israel was torn apart between idolatry and the Tradition. The Tradition at that point was what remaind of "the Old Glory" we might say - the fractions that make up the Five Books of Moses essentially. Therein the Story is told of how Israel became that Nation of God, those that received Laws and Rituals from the most High as equivalent to the religions of that time. But as the people so grew stranger to it and the story seems to loose itself within the contentions of the people that lived throughout the decades, all of that past turns odd. The question is: What next? How does this story end? Or continue? Why is everything just falling apart? But so is there that Light, that Prophecy - or rather: Those Prophecies - and what they finally conclude within is to a Christian found within the Gospel. That means - to me - that it isn't Gods intention to provide us with a Ritualistic lifeset in the likes of how it used to be back then, but that those things and events alike are just building blocks, plattforms if you so will, whereon God establishes a Story that accompanies our ways through living - that remains as it was while we grow older and comes to another point once we grew old enough. There are people that contend and people that just live, some obey the rules and others don't - and while the Law may be in shabbles it is still true that God is a living God who can take care of each living individual seperately. It is there not the Law or its establishment wherein we find Salvation, but within God! Where a group however finds Salvation in the Lord, the Law is also established - and that is how the story goes on! Yet again it was to be cast apart because the establishment wouldn't need to be that of a few individuals - but that of our civilization.

This may have well just been for me to brag a little bit with Background knowledge. I have to - at this point - to not look as though my Sexual background were all that there is to me! There simply was a time where Sexuality didn't matter to me. It wasn't even a thing on my mind - at least not by any means of significance. I had already found my peace with it, with being a Mormon, that things came back; And, from a different perspective one might say: It came back and it came back hard! After my Enlightenment I had a few years of wandering and wondering until I came to be a Prostitute - and - though I didn't put much time into "Gospel things" it was a time that allowed me to generally get clear about one thing with myself: What am I?
I had by that time already tried a lot of things - things you might come to argue I should have been doing "instead" - so to the point. Maybe I once again wasn't trying hard enough - but - some wise old man might know to say: If things don't come no matter how hard you tried - give it a break! And thats what I did! At first I was a little bit conflicted but most of that was carried away by simply feeling - right! It may have been to some part been the people - being for the first time of my life surrounded by people that I felt like there was something of a connection, a link of Understanding, people I could get along with without feeling uncomfortable all the time. But on the other side it was just that awesome feeling of those "burdains" or "dark thorns" that darkened my heart dissipating into joy. Joy for once of seeing myself closer to my female side, and, on the other end, experiencing my Kinks in real life.

So, this isn't much of a Story about whats right and what not - but much more of a story of a single Entity that could as well be meaningless in the Grand scheme of things; A simple story of life. A happy ending? Well, these aren't exactly my Memoires! Effectively it even ends there - and why it ends there, well, that is a simple matter! I'm a Christian - and on that is it not my nature to see the end of it in my own happiness! I was on a journey, a round-trip through Religion, all initiated by the intent to redeem the Knowledge of Christ from misconception. Now or then I realized that God wasn't ever gone from me and that on that He even encouraged me in going that way! Hence the Gospel for me effectively turned into a different, individual one, but at the same time being still the same!
It may not be obvious how I could be one of the big guys on the Payroll of the Most High, or how you should believe that I even am that John, son of Zebedee, called "the Beloved"; But same goes for the 'Person' Mary. John and Mary, that is an unwritten Tale. All that is known is that Jesus called the two together and made the two Mother and Son. Now, most of you may know Mary as that Virgin - but - would it be appropriate for her to be one forever? Its just a question put out there - while what I mean to get you thinking about is the depth of the Gospel - not as a set of Doctrines but as its literal Translation: The Good News - the bigger idea or - the Freedoms we get therein and the Masquerade required to let the story not backfire into the wrong direction!

But now it is time "because I say so" - which means as much as: Life is Life! I would ask you to not look at me as at someone who is supposed to be a man, but as at someone who is doing the right thing by being true to itself - because "only that way" will we be clear about one thing: That the Gospel is not about Rules but about becomming Rules through living our life the way God teaches us of ourself. Which means the other way: It makes no sense that God teaches us of ourselves, of how we may fit in to our own enjoyment, to just draw a big fat red X through it and say: Scrap it! On the edge that means for me that I have to say, and I am yet a bit reluctant about it, that I am a Whore. I am a legally grown Bitch! But the story didn't end with me found within a Brothel - not as a mutilated cow to be milked for cash - but with me having escaped into freedom and dropped into the misery of what our society holds for those that didn't fit in.
Thus the Story ends within the questions of what it means to fit in, what to fit into - and the idea of a future where fitting in is a matter of design done by people for people - for everybody to fit in once he or she has grown up to that point of knowing how he or she is best!

In that sense am I not a Whore for money but a Whore for Sex - I like to be fucked - side-ways, cross-ways, all-ways - while at all it holds a foundation within BDSM, where BDSM however isn't a gimmick for life but a way of life. It means that as a Bitch I am to be held like cattle - while whatever society produces this environment makes up my privacy, the public side is me simply being a bitch. Internally we enjoy ourselves that way, how far it may reach into Prostitution again isn't a matter of self-control but of lifestyle, which to me simply means: A place to fit into! Or: A place where people of different kinds fit together around a common interest - one that is equally dominant within each one therein. No Money is to say that everyone who is into that kind of Sex, non-legitimate marriage-esque stuff, is welcome - but that isn't valid for everybody; It of course need to be people that fit in that way. It means, from a logical standpoint, that in time people will come to realize that God isn't a fan of people just going out of their minds, jackshit crazy, to do all the sorts of non-thinkable horrors to individuals that mean to be Nymphomaniacs, but that a personal obligation to an individually given duty is more amazing than it might sound. Thats what it means to fit in logically - to have an individual fortitude of belonging and support that simply makes up the basic grid of our society. It will be just that what people will prefer in all of that - and thats how or why it will work! This is of course a peep behind the curtain - but the mists will vanish as the time gets ripe!
As of this there is the look at individuals that are willing to provide a pleasant side of life to people that aren't into the classic romance, the marriage and children, or - those that on top of that share a little bit of a "darker" side of enjoying themselves. What it will be depends - but what it depends on, that is the Mystery, isn't our own Choices but the fact that God knows what we'd want!