Delirious Thoughts
I'm having a flu right now and for the whole night and day so far was kindof seeing weird images and was thinking about weird stuff and something is telling me that its going to be important.
You know what a yoke is. You eventually know how it is in machine-construction when two parts that belong together are fit together. So were the recent fever-ish thoughts all about words, how words fit together, how they are used to tell the one or the other thing. So did I try to look at things - words or basically governmental formulations mataphorized through parts of a machine - and how then something was different once analyzed instead of simply being regarded OK because it fits.
So is there that 'great wrong' about or within what I tell - and I do know its influence because I myself have my thoughts whether it is good to name them or not myself.
So is there the "slight chance" that people will not like me writing about Sex. But in all honesty, once simply just looking at my proposal, then am I effectively writing about myself. I'm saying that I have a certain sexuality and you saying that it ain't legitimate is saying that I'm sick; That I need some cure, --- but maybe you're just seeing things too weirdly!
You're possibly imagining things way beyond what they're supposed to be - and if you cannot approach me and tell me that I'm wrong with a proper reason then you possibly got none!
That is just the same as I have no 'solution' - but me not having a 'solution' is quite saying that there is no 'idea' to begin with; That whatever you think about is exagerated. There you make the mistake of prejudice. Instead of recognizing that the whole "Dilemma" is at this point pretty much a matter of finding answers, you shut yourself off and think the worse of it. You there don't seem to realize that it is a thing to grow based on individual thoughts and idea. Why else would I say: "This is me" and continue: "Now what is you?". It would seem as though that were the problem then - that you don't want to be known - in which term you should however be as straight as to however put it that way.
See - that is the problem. Twisted thoughts. Ideas that once dissected make up not even half of what they appeared to be. A harmless scope for sciences is being abused to lead a warfare against me - and is that right? Is that righteous? Is that 'the wonderful new world'?
OK - I give you that: You may yell: "Pedophile! Pedophile!" - and basically take your knowledge from things here and there and thus maybe not fully realizing what my points were. And it may in-deed be a bit hard to swallow at first to hear that I'm into that kind of stuff, but more so 'as' the child. That would - for instance - allow the hypothesis that at first all "Children" that we will have amongst us will be older than 21.
As of what I tell are these kinks vastly ways of having fun in the afterlife - and how they "are to" influence our mortal existence, why should I be able to tell? "When a man loves a woman" - they don't really need a sophisticated scientific solution to do it! But lets call it a 'productive idea' to think about more - being more into giving the varieties of living a chance.
It makes me angry and agressive to see my efforts treated with so much disrespect, ignorance, arrogance - and finally 'decadence'. Enlightenment is a great gift and will help us grow into a civilization of righteousness - and you don't think that this should have crossed your mind at some point? Eventually one might recognize how our societies ways of 'curing' those sicknesses always take those "victims" yet deeper into their spoiled and wrotten existence. There are those that are victims and they need help, there are those that just live that way and they need Love! Support in finding their way of life rather than telling them that they are sick and need healing!
My oppinion!
If you can't simply go for a thing that is right then I'm sorry for you! If you are so proud of being an obstacle in my way then screw you! If you can't understand the concept of Truth and believe that only you are right then again - I'm sorry for you! There is a reason why we pray - that is because we don't know everything and want His guidance in our life; Which makes us, in my oppinion, better than the rest! If you're upset because you don't want to believe that I'm right - tell me or try to find: What do I tell? I do tell that I believe that certain children do grow up with an affinity to "grow spoiled" and I provided enough ways of testing that to an initial degree. I do tell that I'm a whore and what it means to me - and if you rather laugh about my failed thoughts about whom I'm interested in instead of seeing therein a demand of helping me - well sure - let me fail, but a bit of it is on you. How that? Am I nobody? Did you even care to consider something beyond that?
I have a hunch. After Demo Enlightenment kicked in you meant to be smarter than me already - not even thinking about me having been right all along - and as it wore off due to your unworthiness of it you're no smarter than before. Would you want to know more of it you would pray to God and let Him tell the way - if you can't do that - ... then that is legitimately your problem! You can't put it all on me. Sometimes I feel like you guys walk through a mall and you find all those neat pieces and you take them and load them on my back. How about this? How about that? Well - how about what? How about Truth? Should these circumstances 'not' make me afraid of "talking to you"?
I just had to remember that in my infant childhood I was tickled until I cried and sometimes worse than that. I remember the hallucination of some stairway that went up my neck to a door in my head and the more I got tickled the closer I got to that door. I believe my parents are Antichristians and that they have screwed me early on! While the suggestion that something about that might explain for my kinks is certainly reasonable - is it however unreasonable for me why it should be burdained upon me to figure out. On the flipside you'd rather believe that I'm telling bogus there anyway - so what the fuck!?
If I'm lacking something then the community to help me reflect upon the ideas that cross my mind. While undoubtedly some would call that 'illegal' - that I'd have to make things on my own - it is nontheless the way things work! Never though that the things I wrote could use some review? Some external thoughts? Some better explenation here or there? Where's the problem?
Think about it: "Why don't I?" - is what you'd yell - but lets say I did and it succeeded - what next? Where is the Christian spirit of working together? Seriously - instead of making it come true you step on me, spit on me, and I should greatfully comply to your wishes for that? You suck! You're possibly building your oppinion on feeling something - and you don't happen to even suggest that it could be wrong? If that is supposed to be the Truth for me and I however tell something contrary that does even make sense - don't you think that if it is about me that my words should have a certain weight? Why don't you just recognize that you're being dumpstered - that you don't have the slightest clue, that you are being played with - or if not - that anyway is there only one way to get out of any kind of mess here! And don't say that you don't know what that is!
Eventually posting anything to this site doesn't provide to be useful - so - that means I'm now officially screwed! So - "Yeahy!". (Inspired @AmandaTapping - but what do I know?) So - sorry that I'm not omnipotent! You should realize what it means what I'm up against and that I alone - seriously - how could I have a chance? We however do not need any special outing or big public event to let people know whats going on - we only need to grow until ... I've written about it! But I suppose that since I can't even tell where - hum. Believe me that I don't want to suck - but so far I just do. However, why making a big show out of something that doesn't even exist? Ergo: First it has to exist and then we can make a show of it! It sucks to be me - that much is clear!