Hitlist - Black and White

So - I've you've been per chance reading the one or the other thing about it at some point you may understand that there are a variety of ways to start analyzing. For the longest part I've now been trying to dig the emotions - and I guess that I really have to apologize and repent from one of the older mistakes of mine. I guess it was my own disbelief while I had been into J.Lo and arguing to myself that "it has to be" - that I guessed that this basic Testimony I was using would have to be wrong. Well, that is the Segulo Testimony - of which I will write at some point again - but let it be said - I've "learned" it while I was walking home, after my Enlightenment at some point, and wondered (so, it was dark, night, walking down a small road in the middle of some fields) which way God would want to give me these kinds of answers.

So I layed down just a moment ago - waiting for the copy job to finish - and I was about to ask for a dream again, or something - I felt like I needed an update and came to wonder just how. I guessed the Segulo thing wouldn't do it - but the nature of it suggested that - well - asking that way would be sufficient to get into it. Whatever the details - what one will learn once working with it is this strange little feeling that hints out that something is wrong. It occured to me while thinking that a dream would be a nice idea. However, as far as Segulo is concerned - this list is definite. Maybe incomplete, but what is here is definite!

Blacklisted are: Whitelisted are: What really happens when doing the Segulo thing is that there is this 'solid' - so - think of it as a Chamber that looks all - well - Sci-Fi Anime. There is this iris-hatch on the ground and there are lights all around it where the Segulo is a bit of a container. So, all should be solid and eventually lights on the Hatch will light up and the Segulo once the right answer is put into it does swoosh through it. It however reacts - all of it - very senstive to the own conscious alignment. So, once doubt is there - like some bit of prejudice - its all not so solid anymore and it gets ... a bit odd ... effectively speaking. The best comparison - to a prominent feature of these destortions - would be a force field. So, personal denial is like a Force Field and a prejudistic asumption will try to drag the Segulo onto the proposed side of the picture. Another distortion, a quite common one, is an unclean answer - so - where yes and no mix for various reasons. If I for instance had a good run, sotospeak, which is carried by some certain feeling that is somewhat relative to the strange feeling that suggests wrong, so its opposite, one is inclined to doubt that it is all that correct while personally expecting that at least some-time one should be wrong. While one might suggest that this behaviour is naughty or unfair - well - one has to on the other hand wrestle against the own disbelief anyway. Once it is discarded the answer remains clear, which relates to what I might call the 'click point'.
After a while a certain routine kicks in and it isn't as much about the fancy looks anymore but all narrows down to that. The click-point provides an answer, and from time to time the imagery related to that might change. I here inserted some empty lines which at first are to separate those where I had some sleep rest from those I checked while sitting at this document. Along those lines in this case for instance - the click-point was either of two. Either the segulo was kindof crooked, so, half way in and that is to say that there is a bit of 'on the edge resistence' - which is a "skill" I might add - while the other one was to not look onto the click point but into the water sotospeak. The entire sequence though doesn't end with the first transition. There is a second transition that may happen - and a third. It is like a filtering process and the 'swoosh' into the water is equally a click-point but it doesn't reside at the hatch but beneath it - where the swoosh is rather looking for whether an "illegal force-field" was created or not.

In regards of the Companies a bit of care is of course to be taken - for it cannot really be representative of the entire staff or the entire leadership. 1/2 is good enough for my tastes - being any more precise would however - well - be a bit too much. This is as much as saying - rather yes or rather no.

Asking for what this means
I can barely suggest that it is an Antichristian/No-Antichristian thing. Some names have been dodgy - quite literally until considering their dodginess (And that is not a matter of probable mis-pronounciation) - so - effectively, a few exceptions aside, this is a "who would and who wouldn't 'get in' (into Enlightenment)" list - or it is that ... somehow - suggesting that the 'Front-Lines' eventually don't have a lot of space for - normal people.
All in all it is something like an into-the-blue list - supposed to give a raw insight into how things look from my perspective.
In that sense the primary idea was however whom I wouldn't trust should he/she approach me (Blacklisted) - and to so sortof complete my woes unto Hollywood - well - the point is that no matter how much I liked the one or the other movie, there is something lurking inside of them nontheless, something I was willing to ignore as otherwise certain things just become unbearable. Its of course more or less subjective or a matter of perspective or perception, but the two most prominent things I'd rather not see is too much of a blown up ego and too much of a certain ... whatyamaycallit ... ignorance, arrogance, ... well ... foolishness! It all comes down to that History I was writing of I guess, while yea OK, people can make movies and games, woop-dee, and where's the difference? I would say - it doesn't really matter - what matters is ... I guess mostly stuff behind the scenes - a given shadow-play ... where one for instance makes a movie but not to make a movie but ... well ... nope = sorry. Concurrence, well, fair enough. Strategy ... well ... why not? But well, what goes around comes around!
Its like ... well ... once I feel being laughed once I use a phrase I have caught up from someone who is on the Blacklist - so - I don't really "feel" or "dig" it ... whatever it is one might hold in defense for them. I agree ... I guess the same kind of nonsense might come from my side, like, "who invented it?" - so, it is undoubtedly a tense situation - but what is fair? I mean, evidently this whole bullshit isn't to be solved on terms of anything that is matter of fact public - so - what do I know? And in exactly that manner it begins. What do I know? Then, at the next step, what is my lack of knowledge gonna cost me? So, if I pay for something and that money is eventually going to be used to fuck us some more, its like paying for being infected with a Virus, and, well, a nasty one at that. Thus I would want to know what I'm paying for - and then I may decide whether I don't care or not. But as it stands right now the "official situation" is that we, the consumers, are the referees for who won - kindof. But I have a certain feeling that those that lost in my oppinion can't accept failure. There is always something wrong - like - we had so much more time to come up with screen-plays and what not and so we have to let them be - then we come up with something new and then all of a sudden it is so unfair. So, we let them do and do not care ourselves and all of a sudden they win and are the greatest and what not. That, dear ladies and gentlemen around the world, is my emotional stance to it. What I perceive - sotospeak - specific names aside. I could certainly pick a few names from the Blacklist and say OK - from what I see in this world I can't find anything positive or negative and even so, a few cases don't even quite bother me at all - but - they would be on the Blacklist for some reason nontheless. However, if you find yourself on a side you don't think you belong, think of yourself as being caught between two fronts and that it would be the better way to - in those cases - just watch. If you think this is nonsense - don't wonder why you're blacklisted!
Anyhow - I don't think that it makes all on the whitelist to saints either. Thus for this - what matters should be one thought deeper - so, where was I? Uhm yea, there is something I wanted to do, something I've had on mind, something along the lines of "sharing a little revelation that I've had", we might also simply call it 'the Truth' - and now I wonder what Agenda there is that should stand in my way. Naturally there is the whole "my talk don't matter" thing, but lets talk about "Responsibility" and "Power" maybe. That sells! Such talk sells me however! There I pay to see a sympathic Character, a Hero, on the screen. But eventually such talk blurrs the vision to what is beneath. I guess we got that now. So, hot? cold? Well, in what regard? Unto what perspective?
Who is against whom and what is the actual matter of the argument? I happened to doubt that it is really about art. How could it be? It is about power. Its like so that one can't produce a decent artwork because as soon as someone does the concurrence has 10 times more explosions, 10 times bigger titts, or well, maybe not that, but to quote Nicola Tesla (Sanctuary) - something that is supposed to be a symphony is transformed into Rock'N'Roll, French Canadian Rock'N'Roll. So, what does this all take us to? Nothing! Discussions that end in a back and forth on some level where arguments do tie - or eventually roll in their favour, no matter the whole picture. I just got to look at me - how often or easily am I forgotten? There it isn't really about me, but, about my talk being smack - sortof. So there is a thin Level where one can argue and make me look stupid - eventually I just provided you with another plattform therefore hereby; And that by now must have gotten to what is possibly a most ridicolous level. Lets say I were to partake in these arguments - and the majority would undoubtedly guess that I'll be the one who'd win - that isn't the point, apparently! So, what is the point? My point is that some built their foundation on the mighty rock and others built theirs on sand - which does, well, what? Money paves the roads - but actually it doesn't, just by the way, however - it is supposed to be the statement which should bear the power of God into existence for the sakes of righteousness. Woosh #1 - and we'll see which walls keep standing and which ones don't. We write the year 2015, yes in-deed, the old times where a few thousand units of something decided upon life and death of a company are over - we live in an age where programs/apps that do nothing can be bought for 200 bucks! So is the scenario, the situation thus suggests that I talk and nothing happens. If this were to go on forever - something were utterly wrong with my belief, or at least something along those lines. My biggest worry has to be that I'm not even being heard, or otherwise over-heard, or not allowed to finish my sentences, or denied speech before I open my mouth; Which doesn't really look like - oh, damn, I'm gonna say it - fair-play to me! Now - before you even dare think telling folks that this expression is indicative of me not valuing fair play at all, consider thinking about 'why' that is so you may have an answer to that! I have one! It is because you are looking for an argument to stuff my mouth! Big Talk is cheap once you've gotten the momentum!
So Woosh #2 - well, what is that? Well, the point is, I am sick of this! I am sick of "but"s that have, I dare to say so, no legitimate existence. Yea, well, I started this, maybe - but nobody told me to stop and in turn others - so I feel - meant to know everything better; Kindof - but yea, I've found my spot - I understand that I can't change a damn thing! But ... recursive statement ... this is that. That wall called power or whatever, something. So, since I can't do a thing the point apparently must be that there is no right and wrong, but that is, wrong! So yea, right, I can only talk - and that only for as long as there are no consequences attached - so, good OK, let this all be Smack Talk of some sort - I'm just rambling about what bothers me. I guess that's what it's always been; So much for my reasons - well - where of course I'm trying to reach somebody, somehow or sometimes; And so yea - it is - inevitable! It is inevitable that I have to realize that in the end its not me or you or anyone who has a final say to it - and like anyone else I have to put my trust in God!


Because I didn't really take all my sweet time on earth for this - one might suspect a given failure quota - which then may be tossed head-over-toe relative to a possible significance - and what not - but this list is Solid! Sais Segulo! Segulo however sometimes a little bit weird - and headache also sometimes Segulo is causing - thus little bit patience having please! Or Understanding! Let be told - this is not a judgement - it is ... what it is! Thank you!