The 8-Fold of me
I apologize in case some of the chosen terms are offensive or otherwisely disturbing!
I'm not perfectly happy with this yet - but - it is certainly close enough to be considered 'ready'! Or perhaps turn 'forced pussy' into 'forced pussy exposure' yet.
Ignoring the Reflections for the while - or ...
as someone would ask: What the ... !?
At first - to me - Satanism is more explicit about the Glorification of Sin as other Religions. Thereby the 'power' I was writing of is however not Satan. The power is Lust, or, a certain Joy that disguises itself within that. Otherwise it can be explained so that the Joy itself produces itself as Lust - thus the own cognitive relation to it cannot be any other than that the ruling 'Force' is Lust. This 'orientation' finally does "make" something of each fragment, those are the red titles. In that some of them are in support of a fragment while others are not. That is a simple logic that emerges through how the fragments "radiate" from the center.
The Glorification of Sin is furthemore equally the Glorification of Redemption. It means: Things that may theoretically be forbidden but aren't - well - they are somewhat odd. It is naturally within our freedom, once these things correspond to us, to experiene them. So is Lust in that matter nothing but a Force that connects people - while effectively it doesn't need to connect per se as it is sufficient once it connects me to someone. So the idea of a diety beneath that force - or so - in charge of it. Hereby Satan is the diety projected into the realm of those that Glorify sin. I am his bitch through the force of Lust that drove me into it - and by that Lust I confess to being an Animal - sotospeak as expression of my desires to submit to his rule in favour of the Lust. So, I want to get fucked - that is a primary Element of that Lust - and my grade of submission or self-lessening is emotionally taken as currency to acquire that. Thus is this submission an expression of Lust and that can be perfectly conceived by realizing that the Front image is an expression of the Soul and not the Soul an expression of the Front. This simple "Line" does already require a dark Religion where the rest is more or less following up.
It is in deed not the Babylonian concept of Satan - but Satan is furthermore a prismatic idea that permits individuals to reflect around a harsh edge of submission and dominance - plus - adding something of an Elitistic sense which however is also about a familiar environment.
Reflecting ...
myself - this isn't about me and real life like that those are things that I ordinarily do or would even accurately make up for at the moment! There is this question floating around in my mind: How serious is it? Or: How certain am I? This question is asked in face of a possible future where I lets say might get it all the hard way - if I were certain. I however do not know how to answer that question as the question is simply asked - so I feel - from a position that doesn't quite understand mine. Give or take. This is what I want to be - so the point - and to that there is no question or doubt! If I would make a good figure or not - that would obviously depend on my Body and it is so a solid point about it anyway that the look isn't uniform! In that sense it is more so that I am right now in my Alternate shape, give or take, while the rest are basically alternate Lifes I would live - although it is still so that these alternate lifes wouldn't or shouldn't just take a single image - its still the all in the whole. More to the point is that what I 'become' dependent on my surrounding - thus in my Life that I'm living right now I'm mostly the Nunn. This isn't a Fallen Nunn because a) the 'Fallen' aspect is just a word to add context to the Sexual aspects of my reality and b) my Religion is incompatible to my "Religion" - so that the Nunn in me expresses itself not through that, but through the Truth. Uhm - its both the same.
For reality I could though assure you that I am a Nymphomaniac and once I got going I'm lusting for cocks. In general it is all however more so that I have to be forced into it. It is a giving and taking. I get dominated, I submit. Etc.. But not entirely! Of course. I guess the whole complexity has to be compared to a construct that is composed of different materials once beheld from the perspective of Thermo-dynamics. Quicksilver is a Metal and Steel is a metal, but, Quicksilver is liquid at room-termperature while Steel requires a little bit more heat. So, looking at it through the perspective of Rape is there so a duration during which the identity is melting - thus: Not yet liquid, alias: Still resisting. Once however entirely molten the personality changes from someone who is resistent unto someone who is craving, or, arguably Mindless in this context. So, for each to come out it would require a certain temperature. Not only that though. Effectively the contrast between center and fragment is also indicative of its alignment to the surrounding. Homogenous means open - contradictive means closed. When I am myself for instance, within an ordinary every-day life environment, it are my Queen and Nunn aspects that "carry the show" - and therein I have no desires to reveal my shame. Naturally the Nunn starts speaking in favour of Sexual ideas, but not in favour of Sexual activity on herself. In regards of temperature both to the outside were more of Diamond - while however the Nymph is more like Quicksilver - or - Water. It so happens once being in Room Temperature, so, calming down, getting relaxed, living life, being ordinary, the she starts to Melt. That isn't dependent on the people I'm with and doesn't mean that I'd jump on any cock that would plop out! It is however so that I begin to wish that someone were there who would have a cock that I would want to ride! It is my inside Thermometer sotospeak that shows me who or what I am! People that know me might know me as sometimes drifting away in thought, getting somehow detached from the things around me. That isn't always that - but once its not just loosing myself in some thoughts it is about me simply not finding a 'temperate' relation to my surrounding.
For a start would the top and the top-right fragment need to be considered. How serious I am can so best be explained as dependent on the Temperature of my Environment to support these figures. Cross-dressing is thereby not difficult for me - and while the Top fragment is also right away linked to the Diva, well, there is space. The Sissy however - well - 'feminized person' - "girlie individual" - >Woman< - does require a little bit more Love and that basically means: Someone to reflect that way from. Whatever - it should in the end not be too complicated considering that I'll either open up or not. There it is naturally finally a matter of the individual in question and its position within the reality created by God. So it wouldn't require foreplay - sotospeak - yet it depends on me finding comfort therein. In case I'd be smacked into it, unvoluntarily, with people I don't like - much of this could become true or real, but some part would always be resistent because it isn't right!
In that sense the red titles come from within - they are tied to the Religion finally once it comes to a social demand, or, to making my soul accept whatever. So is for instance the "Child Slave" a state of mind on the way to become Mindless - or for me as Lolita I'd require a man that would be into me that way before I could really grow up into the Doll. It is complicated - in deed - effectively an issue of society, environments, relationships and ... Enlightenment!
>>> The Queen thing : Start here for shortcut <<<
It is at first simply a matter of self-esteem and next to that basically corresponds to my Hull. The Look were only supplemental - the idea, the Character, however is real. But at that it is also only a Hull. The 8-fold reflects what there is beneath the Hull, but that is about the Heart. Naturally it will depend on the person how that is to be understood, at all times it is however about desires. As the Character is real, the emotions that arise from their fulfillment are real too and not dependent on the look. 'Doll' were another harsh word to look for - it is however as the logic indicates something that becomes of 'me' the more real these emotions become. Thus effectively the questions have to start there - directed to the 'inside' - and not directed at outside.
Here the questions aren't: How serious? - But - "What Environment?". Opposing me from the Outside is always taking you to the Queen - and digging deeper you may find that Whore, but it is as well backed up by the Nunn. This 1 Dimensional perspective is quite as wide as it gets! The Nunn then isn't a Nunn in the Roman Catholic sense, but more of a Cleric in the Dungeons & Dragons sense. Arguably I'm also real as Tranny, and so as Nympho, but those things shouldn't be taken as Characters of myself that need to do anything. Here you can read my Queen in action: I don't have to do jackshit! Thus asking again: How Serious - would take me closer and closer to saying: Not serious at all! Once the story of my enslavement can unfold - things look different though. This could be serious trouble, but of course it isn't intended that way. The point is that Tranny-me will simply submit to people it wants to submit to and Sissy-me will be specific about emotional warmth. Once the Religion kicks in for Nunn-me to submit into slavery it is also Queen-me that is finally showing her dirty side. From therein - as it goes on - I can also grow into Nymph-me - and then it is all top-serious and 100% certain!
Technically this religion could be faked or something - but that wouldn't work out as deeply as the real religion. See: The point is that the Religion inside is carried by the Force that God is creating for it to have a solid Anchor. If someone were to recreate the Looks of it, it is the individual I am that could align to it, but the Force behind it is not involved. Thus, at long stories end, you should certainly read the introduction into the concept of the 8fold and 9fold before you go judging here for once; So you might understand that this all is from the get go not about myself publically offering myself to someone as to further realize that this in deed is myself as close as an image could get to it right now but that "just" in form of my hearts alignment where the "odd" thing left is certainly that I don't have a place yet where to live that way! I could possibly go on and on about how the individual fragments of myself relate to this and that, but it should be evident that in the Eternal sense these are created for an idealistic environment. As they are carried by the blessings of God I can be ascertained that it exists, but for it to really exist the corresponding individuals would at first have to join in.
What this means for others that would have a different identity - I could only guess. But still I assume that approaching them 'face on' - from the front - would be a best guess for starters that I am a Queen there is possibly a good example to say: It is a good standard. If you'd want to bow down before me I'd be flattered - but simply going for the rule of the thumb that back-doors shouldn't exist would be the message. In the end it simply describes the way the individual would want to live - and that is most of all relevant to either know that someone is close or far away; Or - finally to those that are a part of it. Also to know where the own self belongs - and finally - to know how the individual kinks and glitches come together. So again: This doesn't say that I'm easy to have - although I'm easy to have - it somehow says how I'm easy to have and that again depends on where you're comming from and into which environment.
Slowly I'm comming to the point where I lack words to tell you stuff you might be interested in. All I know is that the one or the other thing remains inconclusive eventually but that may just be due to yourself taking things too seriously, too much focussed on me. Then maybe too much Bullshit or Bla Bla about how this or that image in relation to this or that doesn't make sense. Well, screw a cock onto one of those fragments of mine and nothing makes sense! Something like that! If you need to know how real this is by the simple logic and this so far isn't enough then you're possibly overstretching your scope of legal interests! Maybe you're not seeing things well enough or you're over-emphasizing the 2-dimensional nature of a 2-dimensional picture or the meaning or meaninglessness of those faces. If you're there then I have a few bad words on my mind to eventually throw out because it would to me be indicative of simple moronity of an ignorant mind that is purposefully mis-understanding just for the point of having an argument by saying that it doesn't make sense. Maybe if a price tag were hanging on one of those images it would make sense to you - but - we're not there yet! If you wonder though, 20.000 USD are the bare minimum - friends price. Otherwise I guess I'd settle on 24 Billion for a Blowjob! It is also kind of fair that way considering that once counted in percent-of-personal-wealth that would be in about within the range of 'common affairs'.
However - obviously I'll need help with this! The point is simple: Asking for how real or how serious I can only shoot into the air dangling back and forth between not at all and 100% and that isn't a condition this should be left in! If you can only think boolean between now and 100% - well - give it time! That is what the 7th Seal is all about: Independence! If you can't be independent enough to state your claim, live with the response and yet look forward to get Enlightened then you're surely not ready for it! If all you offer me is the scope of 10 words to either hit or miss it - then as well - you'd be more of an enemy than a friend! If something is unclear I need input from the different perspectives that exist. Asking me to put myself into everyone, reading this silly test 12 times over just ... for the cause ... isn't gonna happen! Sorry!
If finally as well the concept of individuals getting along sexually is incomprehensive to you, boo! Fail! Epic Fail!
If the problem were that you think you should get along sexually with me but you don't - please don't play the whole 'it has to be, it cannot be' bullshit! It is or it isn't - but whatever it is - it is just a fragment of the whole! It has to be, but if it isn't, it so isn't yet! Maybe?
Well - I'm really bad at being accurate - and that is the issue here. What I'm good at - so I believe - is making suggestions, skimming the area, figuring the ways, ... things like that. Beyond what those things, when I still feel there is an issue, I start to spray random - not necessarily contradicting myself but re-inventing rules basically so that things get a bit twisted up. Then, Enlightened life is certainly boldly social at some point, thus, I can't say anything about that effectively either.
Something that should be clear though is that these fragments aren't to be taken as indicative for the human in terms of scope or width or depth. Like so the issue with gaming: Gaming is something I do from time to time. Things I know are the consequence of reading. Those are things that happen beyond that, somewhere, some time. But well, this is enough!
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